Need to take meds but afraid...

[Figure of eighty]

Today is really bad mental day. I told my.therapist how anxious I was feeling and have a session tommorow. 

I feel like I shouldn't be or feel as overwhelmed or stressed as I am. Even though I'm a single mom to 2 toddlers, I'm in school and I'm facing eviction every month and I have no transportation... I feel I shouldn't feel this anxious, near tears and have death themed thoughts. 

I have meds for depression but I'm afraid to take them bc I'm afraid I won't feel like myself, I'm afraid something will happen like I'll lose my job or insurance and can't afford the meds and have to withdraw cold turkey bc I have no money.. 

I'm mainly afraid they won't work and I have to try med after med. I'm afraid I won't get over this and I'll end myself which I DONT want to do.  

I'm also afraid of having an episode at the office I work. My boss has been so accommodating thus far and I feel me crying or having an episode at work will not only be embarrassing but take the cake. 

 

Pls pray 

 

Advice if any.

[BeyondET]

Ashwagandha which is a herb, helps greatly with stress and anxiety, it isn't expensive. I take it for my under active thyroid but I definitely feel the calming effect from taking it.

Edited July 10, 2024 by BeyondET

[Figure of eighty]

27 minutes ago, BeyondET said:

Ashwagandha which is a herb, helps greatly with stress and anxiety, it isn't expensive. I take it for my under active thyroid but I definitely feel the calming effect from taking it.

I tried it. It didn't help me at all. I wished it work. Sometimes I feel scared like w hat if this is it for me. If therapy and wellbutrin don't work and I end up gone bc of my mental issues I hope God has a heart to let me in heaven bc I don't want to do this. I'm trying so hard. I feel so pathetic and weak and pathetic bc there's people that go through worse and don't have thoughts that I have but I know I have mental ailments

 

Edited July 10, 2024 by Figure of eighty

[grahampaul]

9 hours ago, Figure of eighty said:

I tried it. It didn't help me at all. I wished it work. Sometimes I feel scared like w hat if this is it for me. If therapy and wellbutrin don't work and I end up gone bc of my mental issues I hope God has a heart to let me in heaven bc I don't want to do this. I'm trying so hard. I feel so pathetic and weak and pathetic bc there's people that go through worse and don't have thoughts that I have but I know I have mental ailments

 

 hello figure of eighty.you say " I hope God has a heart to let me in heaven" God says to you/us in romans" that if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. "so we can shelve that one as done and dusted as i God said it that settles it.of to heven nd all hell cant stop us so to speak.

you seem very unsettled,i do know that when i am troubled or up against a brick wall God would have us to "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.…"so sit back,relax and trust the Lord.

a litle rhyme i was taught as a child may help...oh what needless pains we bear all  because we do not care to take it to the Lord in prayer.

God bless 

 

[Stewardofthemystery]

20 hours ago, Figure of eighty said:

Today is really bad mental day. I told my.therapist how anxious I was feeling and have a session tommorow. 

I feel like I shouldn't be or feel as overwhelmed or stressed as I am. Even though I'm a single mom to 2 toddlers, I'm in school and I'm facing eviction every month and I have no transportation... I feel I shouldn't feel this anxious, near tears and have death themed thoughts. 

I have meds for depression but I'm afraid to take them bc I'm afraid I won't feel like myself, I'm afraid something will happen like I'll lose my job or insurance and can't afford the meds and have to withdraw cold turkey bc I have no money.. 

I'm mainly afraid they won't work and I have to try med after med. I'm afraid I won't get over this and I'll end myself which I DONT want to do.  

I'm also afraid of having an episode at the office I work. My boss has been so accommodating thus far and I feel me crying or having an episode at work will not only be embarrassing but take the cake. 

 

Pls pray 

 

Advice if any.

Put your trust in the great Physician, there is nothing that is too great for Him to heal.  
 

Only the Lord can give you true Peace and a sound mind so that you are able to deal with all the troubles that are in this world.

Praying the Lord give you peace of mind.

 

[Figure of eighty]

1 hour ago, Stewardofthemystery said:

Put your trust in the great Physician, there is nothing that is too great for Him to heal.  
 

Only the Lord can give you true Peace and a sound mind so that you are able to deal with all the troubles that are in this world.

Praying the Lord give you peace of mind.

 

What if God wants me to take medication? I pray3d and asked God if he wants me to take my Wellbutrin or if he's gonna help me.

[Stewardofthemystery]

17 minutes ago, Figure of eighty said:

What if God wants me to take medication? I pray3d and asked God if he wants me to take my Wellbutrin or if he's gonna help me.

I have found that God desires us to put our trust in Him, not in men.

Jeremiah 17:5

Thus saith the Lord; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the Lord.

 

Psalm 37:3-5

King James Version

3 Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.

4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

5 Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.”

 

[Figure of eighty]

4 hours ago, Stewardofthemystery said:

I have found that God desires us to put our trust in Him, not in men.

Jeremiah 17:5

Thus saith the Lord; Cursed be the man that trusteth in man, and maketh flesh his arm, and whose heart departeth from the Lord.

 

Psalm 37:3-5

King James Version

3 Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.

4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

5 Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.”

 

I prayed but God hasn't answered yet. 

I feel at the end of my rope. My therapy session was just fluff. Don't think they're the one that can aid me. 

I just f3el scared I may off myself soon. That scares me so much bc I don't want to. 

[AnOrangeCat]

On 7/10/2024 at 5:33 PM, Figure of eighty said:

I tried it. It didn't help me at all. I wished it work. Sometimes I feel scared like w hat if this is it for me. If therapy and wellbutrin don't work and I end up gone bc of my mental issues I hope God has a heart to let me in heaven bc I don't want to do this. I'm trying so hard. I feel so pathetic and weak and pathetic bc there's people that go through worse and don't have thoughts that I have but I know I have mental ailments

It's normal for them to have to switch meds on you a bunch of times. Sometimes there's withdrawal symptoms to brace for that and know that after you're on the meds for a while that feeling super bad for a while if you come off of them is normal.

Regarding Heaven and all I kind of went through similar. My grandmother had dementia. Even prior to that she had, IMO, a flawed understanding of Christianity (not that mine or anyone else's is 100% perfect) and the dementia made her into an abusive terror. I wondered for a while if she made it to Heaven or not. Eventually I came to believe that she did. Jesus concluded a parable with the notion that a servant who knew their master's will and didn't do it would be punished severely, where someone who did wrong without knowing any better would get off lightly. Some forms of mental illness very much can hit you pretty hard and limit your capacity to understand and act. God taking mental illness into account is in line with Him being fair and just as presented in the Bible. The flip side of it is that it's not an excuse to sin either. You just have to do the best you can.

I'd advise you to go ahead and take the plunge on the meds sometime. I know you've been struggling with whether or not to do that for a while. I'm personally skeptical of them based on my own experience but I do know there's some who are greatly helped by them. Just be sure you've got a couple of folks locally who know what's going on and resolve to take their advice if they feel like your behavior is off in a bad way for a while.

[Jayne]

5 hours ago, Figure of eighty said:

What if God wants me to take medication? I pray3d and asked God if he wants me to take my Wellbutrin or if he's gonna help me.

What if God is going to help you THROUGH the medicines?  I am grateful to God FOR all kinds of medicines.  You need to know that people who come on a Christian forum and tell others just to "trust God and not man" in terms of not taking medicines make me fighting mad.

No one has a right to tell you to defy your doctor unless THEY are a doctor and have examined you in person.

Right now, do what your doctor says.  Keep in touch - daily, if you need to.  Make yourself aware of potential side effects and listen to  your doctor and your own body and mind.