All is Vanity

[tsth]

My focus only Christ!

I am reading, or talking about, or listening to some sermon. It's all christ. The bubble like seperation. The society revolves around me like it isn't real. Like it is fading away.

Like I am here but not really. Like I am watching this thing. I am very sorry for those who won't hear.

Like a frog about to jump. I know not which way yet?

I like to now call it the fantasy of vanity. Those who are lost are in this. It isn't real and it isn't going to last very long either. Yet they are just living it. All to self. They don't want to hear the truth!

What is with the seperation?

Peace,

Dave

It sounds much like how Moses must have felt dwelling amongst the Egyptians. He got to the point where he couldnt' stand it! He hated it! The materialism, the royalty, the oppression he saw around him.....and then to come to terms with it, he went away. He sat down by a well. (Ex. 2:15) He ends up alone with God on a mountaintop, and takes in all that God is telling him.

That is where we're at, we're trying to take in all that God is telling us, and even though we're not quite sure what it specifically entails, we know it must be BIG, cause it's God. So as children, just like Moses, we're intimidated and waiting and listening, trying to make sense of it all, because we BELIEVE and KNOW that God can do some pretty OVERWHELMING stuff, and we are being set apart on a mountaintop, so that we can go where He sends us, to do what He says, and to be victorious in witness of our Mighty God!

In His Love,

Suzanne

[traveller]

The first time it happend to me that I recall, is 9/11/01. It was so powerfful, yet at the same time so comforting. I knew that something major had happened in the spiritual realm. I don't know how I knew, but I did. And I was totally amazed that everyone was not feeling the same way that I was, it was so strong. They were running around all excited and scared about the twin towers. I was calm and waiting, watching. They were fading. And it lasted for several days. I thought at the time that a clock was set in motion. I still think so. I "think" differently when in the bubble. It's a knowing that I can't explain, but you guys know what I mean. My thoughts are soley 100% on my Lord. Waiting and waiting. Wanting to go home, having to stay here. I don't think depression describes it near as well as anticipation.

[Anonymous]

Even in times when you have ascended high up to the mountain top... beware, satan is always looking for ways to catch you off guard and tempt your vanity! But, once you fought that battle... be prepared for the next and look out for a different angle.

Blessings ~

AP

[OneAccord]

but you guys know what I mean. My thoughts are soley 100% on my Lord. Waiting and waiting. Wanting to go home, having to stay here. I don't think depression describes it near as well as anticipation.

Yeah, it's kind of like being homesick and lovesick at the same time...... :il:

[traveller]

You're right on Pam! We do have to be onguard 24/7.

You know, something else about the last couple of years. I've noticed how very beautiful the sunsets and sunrises are. How peaceful it is sitting alone in my yard. How lovely the roses are. How precious time with my family is. How special my friends are. How good pie tastes. How awesome my God is.

I have to be honest with you guys and tell you that there was a time in my life when I felt so guilty because I did not feel a love for the Lord. Not a true love. I couldn't love what I couldn't see. You know? And I was in major guilt over it! I praise His name that He gave me the love, He put that inside me, so I could love Him.

[Adstar]

In psychotherapy, they would call this a form of depression, and sometimes it does feel that way........it also feels like this glass wall between myself and unbelievers, my mind is on heavenly things, theirs is on earthly things and and there's this yawning chasm between us.

Ah - the glass wall. I know it well. However, I refer to it as being in a bubble. That's what it feels like to me. That I'm in a bubble and sounds are muffled and things are strangely removed. That I am somehow "insulated" from the world and those around me. It's a very real feeling and very comforting. But I find I can't really function when I'm like that. All I want to do is read the word and commune with my Father. I tune other things out. Often my hubby will say, "You're not really here right now, are you?" This is terrible to say, but when it's happening I have to force myself to focus on my job and on daily chores. Am I doing wrong to do this? When I'm in the bubble, or head in the clouds, or behind the glass wall, however you wish to call it, I don't care about politics or wars or movies or phone calls or meetings or new cars or paying bills or anything that is world related. I care only that HE is COMING BACK and SOON and many won't be ready. I care only that TIME IS SHORT. I care only that things are happening behind the scenes and that things are not as we see them.

I'm glad you started this thread. I have not talked to anyone else that this is happening to. I'm gratful to know it is.

Traveller you have described my feelings more eloquently than I ever could It is a great comfort to hear others are experiencing this reality too. :il: The people that I have dealings with face to face in the "real world" seem to be in another world. I have felt so alone in my life. Its good to know I have real Brothers and Sisters on this globe

All Praise The Ancient Of Days

[traveller]

I love this place

[Guest Teri]

Trav and Dave that was exactly what I was trying to say. And yes the beauty of everything in nature is screaming out to me. While walking I have to stop and get up close to flowers and examine them and am so amazed at how intriquitely they are designed. And the bubble wow does that ever say it. It's this really weird thing listening to all the talking heads and knowing without a doubt how wrong all this stuff is and how clear my thinking is and then wondering how do I know this? I listen to all the jibber jabber of people around me and wonder how they can not see the nothingness eating up the earth. I have honestly wondered about my sanity in all of this. I listen to everyone being all caught up in all the little details and my mind sees the big picture not just of the moment or the situation they speak of but of the whole entire earth and like it's convulsing or something. And as I like Trav said float in my bubble above it all it's all so obvious and I can't imagine how it can not be obvious to others.

Like last night I watched as a peace agreement was signed between the Muslims of the north Sudan and the Christians of the South. The Northern Muslims gave the Southern Christians 60 percent of the oil profits to rebuild and a cease fire. My immediate reaction was no they are going to lull them into complacency and commit genocide. How is it that as just a simple person I can see the big picture in that, while all the talking heads are blind to the motivation behind it. You can't change a couple million Muslim hearts by signing a piece of paper. Then I float on to the next thing and there's the big picture again and all the educated people seem dull and stupid. And I feel as if I truly am in a bubble and floating above it all, the crys of the hungry, the screams of the aborted, the desperation of the drunk, the perversity of our societyand I run for the safety of God because my mind can't take it all in. And I ask Him how can they let this go on, how can they not see what is so obvious. And He says don't be afraid. And then there is the niggling feeling and I yell but what can I do, what am I to do. Why can I see all this and feel as if I am so helpless in it all. And he says SHHHH. And then I cry, and I don't feel righteous or holy, I just feel small and helpless and powerless. Do you guys feel like this?

I love you all very much and am so very grateful you are there, thank-you

Teri

[OneAccord]

Do you suppose that Paul was describing these very feelings in these verses?:

Philippians 1:21-24

For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain.

But if I live on in the flesh, this will mean fruit from my labor; yet what I shall choose I cannot tell.

For I am hard-pressed between the two, having a desire to depart and be with Christ, which is far better.

Nevertheless, to remain in the flesh is more needful for you.

[tsth]

Along the same vein, I'm wondering if any of you are experiencing greater incidences of persecution? In particular, my husband is longtime partners in business with someone who professes to be a believer, yet whose god is very obviously money. In occasions of discussion on society, and it's seeming decay, this partner is outwardly angry and reviled at the mention of God, during this time. (It's that bubble thing with my husband, in terms of the things that he finds truly important, and the things others at his office believe are ok, and they follow) It's as if he and another employee hate everything my husband stands for in terms of decency and Truth according to the Word. This partner is becoming outwardly more aggresive and oppresive in terms of his feelings toward my husband. It is very scary. They are both becoming very distinctive, in who they serve, and it is manifesting itself in some very outward displays of disdain by this partner towards anything that is of the Word. I'm am terribly sorry for my husband, as he is ridiculed on a continual basis now, for his beliefs, and it has become a spiritual battle just to go to work and deal with this partner. I told him it reminds me of the passage of Scripture that says:

Isaiah 32:3 The eyes of those who see will not be dim, And the ears of those who hear will listen. 4 Also the heart of the rash will understand knowledge, And the tongue of the stammerers will be ready to speak plainly. 5 The foolish person will no longer be called generous, Nor the miser said to be bountiful; 6 For the foolish person will speak foolishness, And his heart will work iniquity: To practice ungodliness, To utter error against the Lord, To keep the hungry unsatisfied, And he will cause the drink of the thirsty to fail. 7 Also the schemes of the schemer are evil; He devises wicked plans To destroy the poor with lying words, Even when the needy speaks justice. 8 But a generous man devises generous things, And by generosity he shall stand.

Hosea 9:7 The days of punishment have come, the days of recompense have come; Israel cries, "The prophet is a fool, the man of the spirit is mad!" Because of your great iniquity, your hostility is great.

Are any of you going through more prominent spiritual battles?

Just wondering, cause it's becoming very strange.

In His Love,

Suzanne