Backsliding

[shanee]

well....dont feel bad ,i have backslide,ummmm,about 500 times this year...and when i say that i mean 500 but i still get back up! sometimes faster then other times ....just seek and you will find.....thats what i always do...we will get it right soon bud

[MeCajunboy]

I've done it again. The things of this world have become too much for me i've let myself fall back into my old ways.

Man this must be about the tenth time i've backslid in the past 365 days. Its not just the tempting things of this world that have contributed to my backsliding.. When i read the bible i find the words dull and uninteresting so i tend to go and do something more interesting like watch an Un-Godly dvd. When i pray, i feel disconnected, like im praying to nothing.

Something i did many years ago which is the worst thing i've ever done is also causing me to stray from the Lord, when i think of that horrible thing i've done i just want to jump infront of a train.

Yet there is hope, if i was completely lost again, i wouldn't care. But i do care.. Why do i feel like im not good enough for the Lord, like i didn't do enough/like im incapable of serving him. We are to confess our sins, but that thing i did many years ago, i cant even say it outloud to myself let alone confess it to others.

Any suggestions.

Cajunboy:::Not sure what it's going to take to bring you around full circle, but for me the first thing I had to come to the realization that the more time I spend in The Bible, the closer I feel to God and the more I want to read and more my Faith grows. Don't get frustrated about the fact that you "fell." That's just satan's way of winning or making you think you've lost!

What you're lost in is a very difficult sin to disconnect from and many a men have been there where you are now. But the one thing that's always helped me to disconnect myself from the occasional sin that satan finds on us is simply to put all your efforts on someone else and take the emphesis off yourself. I find that if I put all my concentration on another soul, soon I have forgotten about my own temptations and my own sins of the flesh. Of course now that I'm older .....I'm wiser and I simply spend most of my time in The Word of God these days, and helping others who have similar problems in the area you're referring to. Feel free to PM me and we can discuss it further....But never get down on yourself .....satan loves that.

Blessings

cajun

[Fraught]

I've done it again. The things of this world have become too much for me i've let myself fall back into my old ways.

Man this must be about the tenth time i've backslid in the past 365 days. Its not just the tempting things of this world that have contributed to my backsliding.. When i read the bible i find the words dull and uninteresting so i tend to go and do something more interesting like watch an Un-Godly dvd. When i pray, i feel disconnected, like im praying to nothing.

Something i did many years ago which is the worst thing i've ever done is also causing me to stray from the Lord, when i think of that horrible thing i've done i just want to jump infront of a train.

Yet there is hope, if i was completely lost again, i wouldn't care. But i do care.. Why do i feel like im not good enough for the Lord, like i didn't do enough/like im incapable of serving him. We are to confess our sins, but that thing i did many years ago, i cant even say it outloud to myself let alone confess it to others.

Any suggestions.

keep on seeking God. i see you love Him. He loves you back.

Hebrews 12:1

Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. For consider Him who has endured such hostility by sinners against Himself, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

the above often helps me; i hope it helps you.

[desi2007]

I think if we are to strengthen our spiritual muscles and grow stronger, we must have attacks to resist. Trials test your faith and character so don't think its a big deal when you go through these tough times cause all through life you will be tested its just God's way of refining you. Its the tough times in life that we find out what we're really made of. The pressure exposes things that we need to deal with. You can pray, you can resist, you can do it all but its not going to do you any good. God is interested in changing you then He is changing the circumstances cause we can't run from everything thats hard in our lives. Maybe your praying for God to deliver you out of the negative situation and that is legitimate prayer but maybe your missing the point of why you were allowed to go through that trying time so I guess maybe look deep down in yourself and deal with the issues God is bringing to light.

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[MightyIsTheLord]

Thanks everyone, i think i get it now..

I need to read the Word more & Pray more..

[kari21]

Christianity is a growth process. We walk, and we fall down....A LOT. God is there to pick you up if you repent and seek his face again. Remember, we will never be sin free until we reach the kingdom.

Ask God to forgive you, then forgive yourself. Don't dwell on it, and move on.

[Guest Ready2Serve]

Hi there. I have also backslidden and want to be right with God again. Its a long and hard process, but just remember as I need to remember what Christ did for us on Calvary. Its so much easier to accept the message that Christ died for our sins when we are young...we dont really think the gravity of our sings. But that lifelong message is so powerful. That thing you say you did that was so awful...Jesus died for that. It's over. Done with. Covered. Praise God! Praise God! You can walk anew with Christ today! So dont let that devil get you down. I need to rise up and stand sayith the Lord. I need to shourt and raise my hand sayeth the Lord. I need to walk free from sin...free from sin! Let nothing stip us now!!!

[damo1]

from damo1

high Mighty is the lord

brother i can relate to you and this is something you will have to tame and it can only be done honestly and openly you do not need to confess this public as its between you and the lord you have the spirit living with in you and the holy spirit sees what you see he feels what you feel and he takes on what you allow to come into your life

its the flesh craving for past habits my friend i use to do this a lot as a young Christian and even done this when i was married i allowed so much rubbish to come into my own home to the point wear i told no one what was going on every month threw communion i would take communion i would say Jesus i hand this rubbish that has become so apart of me and i want you to take it i am sorry for the many times i let you down and then when i leave church come home i go over the same thing i watch DVDs that i should not be watching i do things i should not be doing i even sat in church several times smashed of my head as not one person could pick this up as a fellow drug addict would pick it we learn to read each other and we know what is going on but with Christians most have not experienced this and only read from books or hear from people like my self what that culture is like

i destroyed my own marriage by the filth i allowed into my own home wear i should have been strong this was my weakness heck i even placed my new wife who was a fallen Jehovah wittness in a mens magazine for other men to see her naked body as we needed the money and we got a fair bit and this payed the bills we watched pornographic videos and then would sit in church acting like nothing happened and put on a mask so that no one new not even my own pastor new this who has been there threw thick and thin from the day i came out of Jail yet this was me and these wear my weaknesses

the way i was able to see my sin for what it was is when god shook me so hard i had no way to run to these past habit every single filthy thing i held on to hit me right in my face not only did i destroy my relationship with my partner i lost a good friend a lover and mother to my child i destroyed and crushed her spirit and pushed the very two people out of my life

i found it hard to read gods word i found it hard to pray as things i did would come to mind old flames would come to mind and then destruction like a mate ringing and asking me to come out to the pub or to sit and have a couple of cones with him as he scored and wanted to share this

this is what i was battling with then the people i use to work with in kings cross ended up finding wear i was living and were constantly on my back asking me to work for them even though they new i was a Christan they tried very hard and when i was in a church in the blue mountains the old dealers i use to buy pot from and sell my self did not even want to let me go

i had to leave that town and it came to a point in my life wear i had to grow up become a man and face up to my past and be accountable to what i had done and repent openly and cry out for mercy to god as i was also destroying the holy spirit their was a war going on with in the flesh was winning wear the spirit wanted to clean up the darkest areas in my life

now i do not allow history to repeat it self my friend i share openly to how god sees what we hide and think to our selves he can not see i do not want to see new Christians doing the same thing i was doing i want them to grow close to god and to understand that the spirit with in is a living being even though we do not see the holy spirit face to face he is a real person he guides us he fights on our behalf and he helps us to over come to the point were he brings things up to the light to be dealt with

you need to come to a point in your life mighty in the lord to were you nail this to the cross and you tame that flesh you know your weaknesses and you are the only one that can face this head on to the point wear you can read gods word wear you can pray with out distractions distracting you away from god

as my friend the holy spirit is their to guide you threw this just ask him and may be have one person you can be accountable to who will stand in the gap for you and walk you threw this

this is why i wanted to share openly hear to you as a brother

even though me knowing i will never see you face to face and being it cyber space i can type anything i want yet i share openly as i see you are real and you are seeking help and god will convict me if i was to do this to were as a human i show no respect and type away

i will pray that you come to a point were you can tame that flesh as god is mighty than your weaknesses and he can set you free you just have to say enough is enough and seek his face and ask for help

may the lord strengthen you may he guide you and may you over come this from your brother in the lord damo1 Damien

[None]

I think if we are to strengthen our spiritual muscles and grow stronger, we must have attacks to resist. Trials test your faith and character so don't think its a big deal when you go through these tough times cause all through life you will be tested its just God's way of refining you. Its the tough times in life that we find out what we're really made of. The pressure exposes things that we need to deal with. You can pray, you can resist, you can do it all but its not going to do you any good. God is interested in changing you then He is changing the circumstances cause we can't run from everything thats hard in our lives. Maybe your praying for God to deliver you out of the negative situation and that is legitimate prayer but maybe your missing the point of why you were allowed to go through that trying time so I guess maybe look deep down in yourself and deal with the issues God is bringing to light.

Amen and welcome to Worthy!