Sometimes I feel guilty when I question God, knowing that He is always in control, and nothing happens against His will. But I take comfort in knowing also that God remembers we are but dust - we get frightened, anxious, and confused. He takes pity, and refuses to forsake or abandon us.
The answers may not come this side of heaven - but they will come.
Paul wrote: " For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known." (1 Corinthians 13:12)