God is not going to leave you no matter what you have done, he cares about your situation, Jesus paid it all on Calvary, don't let anyone judge you, pray to him he will help you, do you remember the woman that was caught in adultery & the relguous leaders wanted to stone her to death, what did Jesus do? nothing, he just wrote on the ground, when they kept asking him he said, let he who is without sin cast the first stone, then they all dropped their stones, then Jesus asked the woman if anyone accused her when she said no then he said to her, then neither do i condem you, go & sin no more, Jesus didn't judge her, Jesus can forgive you even if you have shame