God will punish me

[johny111]

Hello everybody, 

for last year i have been struggling with questions about God, if he is or not. I was always afraid of my sins, to be honest wit you,that sin was watching pornography. 2 weeks ago i felt so guilty that i watched porn and asked God like always for forgiveness. I said to myself, that if i do this sin one more time, God will punish me, that i will live terrible life and get sick and die in that case he really exist. 

First i feel extremly bad for doubting Gods existence and for second i am so afraid, anxious, that he will punish me how i said if he really exist. I believe that God exist or it gives me hope in life. No i dont know really what to do. If i will be happy now and live good life, is that sign that God doesnt exist or that he had forgoten my sin even tho i promised him that i wont do that sin again and i did it. Also i come from middle Europe family, which is not Christian family. But I try to find purpose of life and feel like God really exist. 

It is possible that God will forgive me even tho I have promised him not doing that sin again. Because if he don't punish me, it could mean two things: 1. There is no God, but I don't think so. 2. There is God and he had forgotten me that sin even i did it again although I had promised him not to do it again. 

What do you think about this. I really need help I can not think about something else, it makes me anxious and not able to enjoy life. I will be so grateful for every answer I will get. 

 

[missmuffet]

11 hours ago, johny111 said:

Hello everybody, 

for last year i have been struggling with questions about God, if he is or not. I was always afraid of my sins, to be honest wit you,that sin was watching pornography. 2 weeks ago i felt so guilty that i watched porn and asked God like always for forgiveness. I said to myself, that if i do this sin one more time, God will punish me, that i will live terrible life and get sick and die in that case he really exist. 

First i feel extremly bad for doubting Gods existence and for second i am so afraid, anxious, that he will punish me how i said if he really exist. I believe that God exist or it gives me hope in life. No i dont know really what to do. If i will be happy now and live good life, is that sign that God doesnt exist or that he had forgoten my sin even tho i promised him that i wont do that sin again and i did it. Also i come from middle Europe family, which is not Christian family. But I try to find purpose of life and feel like God really exist. 

It is possible that God will forgive me even tho I have promised him not doing that sin again. Because if he don't punish me, it could mean two things: 1. There is no God, but I don't think so. 2. There is God and he had forgotten me that sin even i did it again although I had promised him not to do it again. 

What do you think about this. I really need help I can not think about something else, it makes me anxious and not able to enjoy life. I will be so grateful for every answer I will get. 

 

We ask for forgiveness once and then we walk away from that sin.God will forgive you. Yes, God may give you consequences for your sinful behavior especially if you continue to commit that sin. Where is your heart on this? Are you sincerely sorry for what you have done? God knows your heart and He knows if your repentance is sincere and genuine. It sounds like you have a lot of doubts about God. You need to give all of this to Him and lay out everything that is on your heart. Also you may also ask God to help you with your porno addiction.

[BK1110]

I would first look at learning reasons to strongly believe in God's existence as taught in the Bible. You need to get that squared away first and foremost. Look up stuff on Youtube from Josh and Sean McDowell, Voddie Baucham, J. Warner Wallace, and Frank Turek. Know that there are good reasons to believe in God's existence!

Next you might need to ask yourself a painful question; is falling back into this sin something somewhat out of your control (a true addiction, for which you need help), or, if you're honest with yourself, is it easy to keep falling into it because deep down you don't think it's really that bad and you don't want to stop it? This is not me making any kind of judgement, since only you and God can know you and your heart. I'm just suggesting you think very hard about it. Either way, pray fervently that God gives you the strength to resist, and in fact takes away that desire for sin and changes it into desire for Him and His will!

[Justin Adams]

Welcome.

All good answers here. There is a wealth of scripture that can help you. The fact of 'falling short' can be explained by Saul (or Paul) in what he said. For you, it has been the first step of becoming aware of sin. This means that The Lord is getting very close to you. He has a difficulty in that Ha-satan wants us to feel guilt and condemnation, whereas God wants us to feel CONVICTION - and then seek Him for answers. Ask Yeshua to show you the difference between the two.

I once worked for a very tough boss: he said repeatedly, "Don't come to me with diagnoses, unless you also have the cure"

The Lord Yeshua (Jesus) gives us the diagnosis, and ALSO the cure. He already sacrificed Himself for our sin. We have to accept that. Confess and accept.

Struggling with Sin
…23 But I see another law at work in my body, warring against the law of my mind and holding me captive to the law of sin that dwells within me. 24 What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? 25 Thanks be to God, through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with my mind I serve the law of God, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin.…

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Edited November 12, 2017 by Justin Adams

[vlad]

On 11/11/2017 at 2:49 PM, johny111 said:

Hello everybody, 

for last year i have been struggling with questions about God, if he is or not. I was always afraid of my sins, to be honest wit you,that sin was watching pornography. 2 weeks ago i felt so guilty that i watched porn and asked God like always for forgiveness. I said to myself, that if i do this sin one more time, God will punish me, that i will live terrible life and get sick and die in that case he really exist. 

First i feel extremly bad for doubting Gods existence and for second i am so afraid, anxious, that he will punish me how i said if he really exist. I believe that God exist or it gives me hope in life. No i dont know really what to do. If i will be happy now and live good life, is that sign that God doesnt exist or that he had forgoten my sin even tho i promised him that i wont do that sin again and i did it. Also i come from middle Europe family, which is not Christian family. But I try to find purpose of life and feel like God really exist. 

It is possible that God will forgive me even tho I have promised him not doing that sin again. Because if he don't punish me, it could mean two things: 1. There is no God, but I don't think so. 2. There is God and he had forgotten me that sin even i did it again although I had promised him not to do it again. 

What do you think about this. I really need help I can not think about something else, it makes me anxious and not able to enjoy life. I will be so grateful for every answer I will get. 

 

My opinion: 1. I think there are sins and minor sins but do not ask me which is which. I am not an expert in that.

2. When you promise do you really believe you immediately begin a direct communication with God? Do you really expect a direct reaction from God? That would be like a telephone conversation with Him. That would be great! 

3.God can be more patient than any person alive. And still you expect an immediate reaction. That does not work that way. All in good time! 

 Conclusion. The common mistake with beginners is to try and apply human logic to God. He is above that and you will never guess what His plan is concerning you and when and how. What really looks like sin is an attempt to think for God Himself and expect a human reaction from Him. My advice is that you do not give any solemn promises in the future because human nature is weak. Just calmly keep on trying not to do what you think you should not do without torturing yourself every time. That will work better. Be persistent.

Do you expect to become sinless at once? All our lives is a struggle with our own sins.