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[Guest ~*~LoLa]

ok for starters i am 17 i am 3 months pregnant i dont want to be latly ive been thinking of oding on some pills so i could die i feel regected by my hole family last year i tried to kill myself 3 times i was than hospitalized and my mom blames me for my grandma having a stroke and nearly dying which i belive was my brothers fault for being abusive towards her and evryone else in my house i just dont want to hold on anymore im tired of it i just wish i had someone to hold me and tell me that i am going to be alright but i have none anymore

[PwrInTheBld]

Words on a computer screen can seem so empty but, I truely, truely would hold you Lola

I have a daughter. I have a 17 year old. I was abandond by my parents. I wanted to kill myself at one time too.

I would hold you Lola.

[Constant]

Lola,

God has a plan for you. You might not feel it or see it right now because you are in the dark place right now but, He is on your side. Cast your worries and fears onto Him. Keep a strong hold onto His hand. When you fall, He will carry you. You have a life that God has given to you. He doesn't want you to end it.

Things happen in life that are unexplainable. They hurt and confuse us. Sometimes, people want to give up and end it. Taking your life won't solve anything. Things do get better. Meet God half way. Alot of people in here have thought or tried to kill themselves. We all have our stories and advise to give and tell you. You need to really search for peace within yourself. Is it really worth it?

You are pregnant with a child that God has blessed you with. You are 17 years old but there is a reason for this all that is happening. God will heal your tears. Hang in there Lola!

We are here for you always.

[Scarletprayers]

Sweetheart please don't, I will pray and pray for you! You came here because you wanted someone to know your pain, we are listening, let us be there for you! PM any of us, share and lean us us. We may not be able to hold you physically like you were told so sweetly above, but we will hold you in our hearts and thoughts!

[ayin jade]

Lola, I wish I could help you. Please do not harm yourself. Things will get better. Going to pm you.

[BroChuck]

(((((((((((((Lola))))))))))))))))

Lola know that there is someone that can hold you, and His name is Jesus .. Lola we love you and maybe we arent with you physically but we are with you in Spirit and praying for You, sister know that when Jesus said He will never leave you nor forsake you , that His Promise holds true, No matter what life throws at us we can know that He is with us, The Love He has for us is unlike any other love, He loves you so much He layed down his life for you , He died so you could live, He Rose so you could live and one day he will be back to get you and all that believe so you could live with Him forever in Heaven, A place where we will never again have to endure the effects of sin, but untill then we must walk in obedience to His will for our lives, bring others to know what we Know ... His Saving Grace

Love You in Christ .. Yur Bro ..... Chuck

[Guest Brotherman]

Psalm 121

You will be alright! You are loved more than you know!

I have known many in similar situations like yours and worse... Ultimately that is not the issue... There is a REAL God with His REAL people that He uses as we are open to Him... God would never want you to take your life... Life is to precious to be taken by our hands... Those that I have known that have come to a greater place are at a better place in there relationship with the Lord and all those around them... For many it took time some it was very quick... Trust in Him and look to God first in all things... you will be fine

The Brotherman

[nebula]

Stinks, doesn't it?

I'm all too familiar with the suicide struggle, though for different reasons. For me, the bottom line is I feel so helpless and hopeless that I jsut want an out, and that is the only out I can see. Do you feel the same?

May I share with you a couple of songs? Both of these are by an artist named David Meece :

When I Was Seventeen

Daddy left home when I was a kid

Said he had to move on

Took the bottle as his only friend

I didn't know why, I didn't know why

Mama tried to the best that she could

But she just didn't understand

All the confusion I was feeling inside

And didn't know why, I didn't know why

Feeling so alone

How I wish back then I'd known

Na na na na na na - You were calling

Na na na na na na - While I was falling

Na na na na na na - When I was seventeen

From study hall to the senior prom

I felt like no one at all

Just a shadow in a crowded room

I didn't know why, I didn't know why

Thought I was to blame

While your love screamed out my name

Na na na na na na - You were calling

Na na na na na na - While I was falling

Na na na na na na - When I was seventeen

Sure I heard you died for me

I knew about the cross

But oh the pain was burning deep

It took so long to hear Your voice

Na na na na na na - You were calling

Na na na na na na - While I was falling

Na na na na na na - When I was seventeen

I found a photo of my mom and dad

A few tears later I could see

How much you loved that lonely boy

Seventeen

Na na na na na na Na na na na na na

Na na na na na na - When I was seventeen

Learning to Trust

There's a father in your sweetest dreams

Who's always there to meet you needs

He never ever lets you down

There's a mother in your heart of hearts

Who always plays the perfect part

She never lets you hit the ground

This is the need of children

These are their tender dreams

And oh how it hurts when they don't come true

That's why I'm learning to trust in you

In everything I do

I'm learning to trust in You

Cause I know in my heart that You're true

I'm learning to trust in You

But sometimes it's so hard to do

Father, little children must grow up

And to grow we've got to learn to trust

And to trust we've got to cling to you

And when you tell me you will hold me close

It's the very thing I need the most

But it's the very hardest thing to do

I've got this pain inside me

It speaks to me loud and clear

When there's so much to gain there's always so much to lose

That's why I'm learning to trust in you

In everything I do

I'm learning to trust in You

Cause I know in my heart that You're true

I'm learning to trust in You

But sometimes it's so hard to do

Keep calling me drawing me closer

Don't let me hold back

Whatever it takes I must break through

The heart of a child is broken

But his time has come

Whatever he lost I'll find in You

That's why I'm learning to trust in you

In everything I do

I'm learning to trust in You

Cause I know in my heart that You're true

I'm learning to trust in You

But sometimes it's so hard to do

I know how bad you want and need you family's love. I wish you could be given that. Unfortunately, you can't change people, as much as you want to.

All you can do is give to your child the love you wish you had been given.

I know a woman who did this. She felt like slave all her life, not a daughter. But when she had her own children, she determined in her heart not to repeat her parents' mistakes. And she did it! Her children have developed into wonderful adults. Ironically, her mother still still abuses her, even though her mother lives with her and her husband.

I know it's hard, but if this gives you hope that it can be done, then that's why I shared.

Praying the Lord provide you with the support you need, if not from your family, then from a church, preganancy home, or something!

[Khristeeanos]

I myself struggled with depression and attempted suicide.

Please read my testimony:

http://www.thereal-truth.com/1diem.php

or is it:

http://www.the-realtruth.com/1diem.php ?

Anyways, prayers going up for you. You are a special person whom God wants to deliver out of your struggles.

[Homeward]

Precious Little Lamb...I would hold you, too.

You are not much younger than my daughters, and my heart truly goes out to you. Dear Heart, you are so not alone. In fact, sweet Nicole, did you know that your posting here today is an answer to the prayers I have been asking of Our Father since Friday? Yes, indeed you are very much loved and not alone. Here's another hug Little Lamb... And another... And another...

So many have been wounded in life and have struggled with depression, and have come out on the other side. Not that life is ever perfect...people will fail you. In fact if I listed all the things that will fail you, I could be on here till at least next year. But Our Father never does. He has good plans for your life, Nicole, plans to give you hope and a future.

It is my hope and my prayer that you are guided to loving and supportive people. A good pastor, a good Bible believing church, and a qualified Christian psycholgist would be a wonderful start.

Sending so much love to you, dear. I will keep you in my prayers.

In His Loving Heart and Name,

Homeward

Edited July 17, 2005 by Homeward