Trying to keep my mental ailments under wraps but losinh it

[Figure of eighty]

Finally have a pcp close to me ..can they prescribe ocd meds or would a counselor or therapist have to do it ? 

Im feeling panic wash over me and just wishing i was dead and mad Im not. 

Im trying to hold on.. 

Idk tommorow is Sat udk if my pcp is open then

I wish i were sane but im not. 

Why doesnt god let me die? 

Why cant i just get in an accident and die.? 

Why?why?why? 

Im tired of struggling mentally .. 

 

I have no purpose 

I wish hed just take me for gods sake 

Edited September 4, 2020 by Figure of eighty

[AnOrangeCat]

I can't speak for PCPs all over the country but the one I'm using can prescribe psych meds. Getting a counselor to write up a recommendation for your PCP could be useful though.

[Figure of eighty]

4 minutes ago, AnOrangeCat said:

I can't speak for PCPs all over the country but the one I'm using can prescribe psych meds. Getting a counselor to write up a recommendation for your PCP could be useful though.

Okay. Thank you for your reply. Also like i was saying to a friend i know meds would help but im afraid of my anxiety worsening or not having enough money to pay for them and going cold turkey... 

I hate the guinea pig stage.

[WowLookaDuck]

I have very often felt exactly what you describe and asked God the same questions. I'm sorry you're experiencing it, and I'll pray for you. 

A PCP can prescribe medication but typically is not the primary source for psychiatric care. And a counselor or therapist cannot prescribe medication. In order for a complex disorder such as OCD to be treated, I recommend seeing a psychiatrist who can work with you over an extended period of time on finding the most effective medication for you. I take multiple medications and they have improved my quality of life tremendously. 

You will be paying for the medication? Do you have insurance? 

[AnOrangeCat]

8 hours ago, Figure of eighty said:

Okay. Thank you for your reply. Also like i was saying to a friend i know meds would help but im afraid of my anxiety worsening or not having enough money to pay for them and going cold turkey... 

I hate the guinea pig stage.

That's a solid concern. Withdrawal from certain psych meds can be rough, and sometimes the side effects can be pretty harsh for some people. Probably a good idea to have a trusted friend or two to give you feedback on how it's been affecting you after you've been on it for a couple of months.

[Who me]

On 9/5/2020 at 12:48 AM, Figure of eighty said:

Im tired of struggling mentally .. 

 

I have no purpose 

 

You are not alone, there are many people with various forms of mental illness or who are caring for those with mental illness.

Not much help when life gets too much for you.

 

You are valued, you do have purpose, it may not seem like it but it is true.

 

May I suggest using Google to track down and read:-

25 tips for successfully testing your odd. It is a free set of tips that will help you with your mental illness.

Please get it and discuss it with who ever is treating you.

[Figure of eighty]

On 9/4/2020 at 11:47 PM, WowLookaDuck said:

I have very often felt exactly what you describe and asked God the same questions. I'm sorry you're experiencing it, and I'll pray for you. 

A PCP can prescribe medication but typically is not the primary source for psychiatric care. And a counselor or therapist cannot prescribe medication. In order for a complex disorder such as OCD to be treated, I recommend seeing a psychiatrist who can work with you over an extended period of time on finding the most effective medication for you. I take multiple medications and they have improved my quality of life tremendously. 

You will be paying for the medication? Do you have insurance? 

Dang. Guess i have to see a psych then. I have medicaid.

[Figure of eighty]

On 9/5/2020 at 5:00 AM, AnOrangeCat said:

That's a solid concern. Withdrawal from certain psych meds can be rough, and sometimes the side effects can be pretty harsh for some people. Probably a good idea to have a trusted friend or two to give you feedback on how it's been affecting you after you've been on it for a couple of months.

True. Uhg im pretty scared to be doing all this while planning to move. Uhg.

[Billiards Ball]

On 9/4/2020 at 7:48 PM, Figure of eighty said:

Finally have a pcp close to me ..can they prescribe ocd meds or would a counselor or therapist have to do it ? 

Im feeling panic wash over me and just wishing i was dead and mad Im not. 

Im trying to hold on.. 

Idk tommorow is Sat udk if my pcp is open then

I wish i were sane but im not. 

Why doesnt god let me die? 

Why cant i just get in an accident and die.? 

Why?why?why? 

Im tired of struggling mentally .. 

 

I have no purpose 

I wish hed just take me for gods sake 

Don't keep "under wraps", but pursue a Bible church where they have counselors who've helped people with anxiety.

Pray in the Spirit when you feel anxious.

[Figure of eighty]

11 hours ago, Billiards Ball said:

Don't keep "under wraps", but pursue a Bible church where they have counselors who've helped people with anxiety.

Pray in the Spirit when you feel anxious.

Well my car was totaled. It was rhe only car... Just got a rental but parents just it to go every which way. Work and stuff... So i dont have much time to go to church or find a counselor or anything. Im struggling bad with my ocd and baby and work. Im so slow my biss said i was performing at 40% even though Im going as fast as I can. I have a lot of worry