I'm really scared right now, I don't know what to think

[Lilybloom]

For those that don't know, until 6 months ago when I converted, I was a practicing Heathen. That's a Pagan who worships the Nordic pantheon. I had once pledged myself in service to the Goddess Hel.

I was doing my job today, where I unpack and sort products for a decoration store. I get a lot of the glassware and holiday items in my line. I opened a box and when I removed the rather tall figure from it and removed the plastic wrap, I was shocked to see a woman with half of her face being a skull. Hel is often described as having one half of her being undead.

I know that realistically, it was more meant to be Santa Muerte; a decoration aimed at the Day of the Dead vs Halloween. We get a lot of those types of decor, mostly skulls. But it really caught me off guard and seemed like a message of some sort. For a good part of the day, I just had "Hel" set nearby and it made me feel uneasy. It feels like a sign but i'm not sure how to interpret it. Is it Hel coming back to show herself to me? Or is it God trying to test me somehow? I don't know. I don't know how to interpret it and i've been pacing nervously ever since I got home.

[Michael37]

47 minutes ago, Lilybloom said:

For those that don't know, until 6 months ago when I converted, I was a practicing Heathen. That's a Pagan who worships the Nordic pantheon. I had once pledged myself in service to the Goddess Hel.

I was doing my job today, where I unpack and sort products for a decoration store. I get a lot of the glassware and holiday items in my line. I opened a box and when I removed the rather tall figure from it and removed the plastic wrap, I was shocked to see a woman with half of her face being a skull. Hel is often described as having one half of her being undead.

I know that realistically, it was more meant to be Santa Muerte; a decoration aimed at the Day of the Dead vs Halloween. We get a lot of those types of decor, mostly skulls. But it really caught me off guard and seemed like a message of some sort. For a good part of the day, I just had "Hel" set nearby and it made me feel uneasy. It feels like a sign but i'm not sure how to interpret it. Is it Hel coming back to show herself to me? Or is it God trying to test me somehow? I don't know. I don't know how to interpret it and i've been pacing nervously ever since I got home.

I know the sort of unease you describe. It is common to all believers in Christ. Keep on praying about this for as long as you need to, the answer will come.

With me, as a landscaper and gardening contractor, I would be engaged to trim and tidy properties where I had to work around new age paraphenalia, buddas or hindu shrines, and be aware of residents chanting and praying to their false gods, or in the case of Moslems, doing their mat workouts. 

Sometimes these situations allowed me to witness to Christ as the only means by which to be saved. Other times the presence of evil was tangible and there would be trouble, miscommunications, hostility, dishonesty, and I would know not to include such clients as regulars.

1Jn 4:4  You, little children, are from God and have overcome them, because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world.

[ladypeartree]

Whenever you feel afraid sing /say/ think through psalm 23  THE LORD IS MY SHEPARD ..... yeah though I walk through the shadow ... I WILL FEAR NO EVIL 

 

 

23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

² He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

³ He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

⁴ Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

⁵ Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

⁶ Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

Edited September 5, 2024 by ladypeartree

[enoob57]

Fill yourself with God's Word and fear will no longer find a place to stay within you...

[Starise]

As a child of God nothing evil has any power over you unless you give place to it.

That is no longer a part of who you are.

[JohnD]

I realize it is impossible in this life to be isolated from the evil in the world and the paganism etc.

But if this has anything to do with your past paganism, perhaps the Holy Spirit is impressing on you

to leave and distance yourself from whatever you made you god in the past.

Praying for you about this.

[farouk]

On 9/4/2024 at 5:22 PM, Lilybloom said:

For those that don't know, until 6 months ago when I converted, I was a practicing Heathen. That's a Pagan who worships the Nordic pantheon. I had once pledged myself in service to the Goddess Hel.

I was doing my job today, where I unpack and sort products for a decoration store. I get a lot of the glassware and holiday items in my line. I opened a box and when I removed the rather tall figure from it and removed the plastic wrap, I was shocked to see a woman with half of her face being a skull. Hel is often described as having one half of her being undead.

I know that realistically, it was more meant to be Santa Muerte; a decoration aimed at the Day of the Dead vs Halloween. We get a lot of those types of decor, mostly skulls. But it really caught me off guard and seemed like a message of some sort. For a good part of the day, I just had "Hel" set nearby and it made me feel uneasy. It feels like a sign but i'm not sure how to interpret it. Is it Hel coming back to show herself to me? Or is it God trying to test me somehow? I don't know. I don't know how to interpret it and i've been pacing nervously ever since I got home.

Hi @Lilybloom Just don't think about it. We need instead to keep 'looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God'.

[In the Clouds]

Lilybloom, if that figurine gave you such a feeling of foreboding, perhaps you should be the vessel to remove it from others' sight.  Could there be more who are creeped out and influenced by it giving them evil thoughts or fear?  Pagan idols should not be given a platform.

[other one]

On 9/4/2024 at 4:22 PM, Lilybloom said:

For those that don't know, until 6 months ago when I converted, I was a practicing Heathen. That's a Pagan who worships the Nordic pantheon. I had once pledged myself in service to the Goddess Hel.

What you are experiencing is not uncommon for folks in your position.  Remember that Paul informed us that those idols (gods) that they were sacrificing animals to were actually demons.  Part of the dark side that has rebelled against the Lord.  So we shouldn't just take these things lightly.

I would ask what you mean by converted.   I've dealt with the dark side for way over half my life, from studied I started when younger and put myself in a position I could not get out of by myself.  The Lord let me go to the point there was nothing I could do about it, and then he stepped in to defend me from the dark ones.   The lesson I learned was that Humans have no authority or power over the spirit world.   To deal with it, we must ask and trust the Holy Spirit that dwells within us when we turn total trust to Jesus.

When these things come up (and I'm sure they will) ask the Holy Spirit to deal with it.  It could be a spirit attached to the item, or just one of Hel's workers bugging you about it.   I found it helpful to remind them of where they are headed on judgement day and where you will be in the protection of Jesus himself.

Though we have no authority over the spirit realm, if you have Jesus as your Lord, there is literally nothing they can do to you spiritually, so just carry on knowing all is well.   Just don't let them get inside your head and cause you to doubt.  If you belong to Jesus, you have nothing to be concerned about.

It's been my personal experience that the Holy Spirit will instruct you what to do about the statue.   If there is a demon attached to it just pray and listen for instructions.   If you are like me, you have walked into a war going on around you and though it can be scary, you may well be about to witness some really awesome things....   I know others who have been in this position, and before long you can be considered beyond a believer to what we generally call knowers.  We've seen the work of the Lord so many times that it's inconceivable not to know the presence of the Lord.

Stay attached to the Holy Spirit and enjoy life.

[BornAgain490]

On 9/4/2024 at 5:22 PM, Lilybloom said:

For those that don't know, until 6 months ago when I converted, I was a practicing Heathen. That's a Pagan who worships the Nordic pantheon. I had once pledged myself in service to the Goddess Hel.

I was doing my job today, where I unpack and sort products for a decoration store. I get a lot of the glassware and holiday items in my line. I opened a box and when I removed the rather tall figure from it and removed the plastic wrap, I was shocked to see a woman with half of her face being a skull. Hel is often described as having one half of her being undead.

I know that realistically, it was more meant to be Santa Muerte; a decoration aimed at the Day of the Dead vs Halloween. We get a lot of those types of decor, mostly skulls. But it really caught me off guard and seemed like a message of some sort. For a good part of the day, I just had "Hel" set nearby and it made me feel uneasy. It feels like a sign but i'm not sure how to interpret it. Is it Hel coming back to show herself to me? Or is it God trying to test me somehow? I don't know. I don't know how to interpret it and i've been pacing nervously ever since I got home.

We are at war with demonic forces who would love nothing more than to drag us back into worshipping idols and praising anyone other the the Lord Jesus Christ. I exhort you, as Paul writes in Ephesians 6:10-18: "be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil."  ...

Be blessed. 

Edited September 6, 2024 by BornAgain490