Why me?

[Guest Kit_kat]

I apologize if this is the wrong place to write this but i am too tired of life to care right now

I have always been a good person in life, gone to church always and done everything by the bible even though i know that jesus gave his life for my sins i have tried to keep myself clean for him

But now my life has become a living hell. I was raped recently and the culprits were not found and now I am pregnant.

Why me? I dont believe in abortion! what can I do?

I dont know what to do, my family has not supported me in wanting to keep this child and now they have turned their backs on me.

I hate that which is in my womb but i love jesus. i cannot take a innocent human life. how can i bring this child made of a hate crime to this world

what should i do, please help

[ayin jade]

Oh honey, Im sorry to hear this.

Please read my testimony (link in my sig line). I too was raped years ago. I understand how you are hurting.

Kat, when a woman has been assaulted like this, I strongly advise counseling. Find a Christian counselor. This kind of trauma needs help. It doesnt make you weak or anything. And in time, you will get past it and live a happy life again.

As for the baby, Im glad you dont wish to have an abortion. Have you considered adopting the child out? A counselor can help you with this, but there are places you can go to find adoptive parents for your child. They can help you pay for the medical care and you can find a good home for your baby.

Please remember, this isnt the baby's fault. I can understand the anger you feel towards the ones who hurt you. I can understand how painful it is to have this reminder of the assault. (And it isnt sex, it is an assault. It is a physical assault, an attack on you.) You can heal from this. It will take time, but you will heal. Please have hope Kat. Cling to the Lord. Let Him comfort you in this.

As your child is brought into this world because of sin (the assault on you) and hate, so too was Jesus brought into this world for our sins. Perhaps this will help you regard this baby a bit differently. Instead of seeing the sin in which the baby was conceived (their sins against you), instead look upon the child as Jesus would look at the child. Perhaps that will enable you to see your pregnancy in a different way, and perhaps help you to heal.

Im here if you wish to talk more.

[ayin jade]

I just realized I never answered the question, why me.

Sometimes we cant know why bad things happen. The only real answer I have is that evil exists in this world, and the world as well as the devil hate those who follow the Lord.

Kat, a few years ago, my sister in law was kidnapped, assaulted, and nearly killed by a serial rapist/ killer. That was obviously a hard time for us all. I spent a long time trying to understand why it happened. Why would someone deliberately hurt another as that man did.

Evil exists.

In the Lord we have refuge. One day this world will be cleansed of evil, and a new heaven and earth will exist. One without tears. Take comfort in the Lord Kat. You are alive. You are saved. You are His beloved child. Even though you are hurting now, He is there for you and will give you comfort. Hold tight to Him.

[Guest stech1]

I too am very sorry this has happend to you. Ayin has given you good advice. Find a good counselor. You will not begin to be able to deal with the pregnancy or child until you have dealt with the situation.

You can search and search for a million years or more, and there will never be an answer to the question "why." Things like this don't make sense, they can't make sense, it is senseless. All of us live in a world where evil abounds, and unfortunately, it rains on the just and the unjust. As people of faith, we have something more, if you will, inside to help us deal with the things that are not "fair" in this world. And hopefully, we will have others who are like minded who can come alongside us to help us bear our burdens. Take advantage of those in your life right now who can help support you and comfort you. Your instinct will be to withdrawl and isolate, but remember that people can't help you if they don't know you need help.

Our prayers are with you.

Blessings!

[Adarian]

I will pray for you Kit_kat, that you should have comfort in your time of sorrow. That you should stand in the shadow of the

Almighty and find peace in Him.

[Leonard]

My dear little Sister:

You are in our prayers. I'm so sorry for what you are suffering.

Please give the baby up for adoption. There are soooo many couples wanting a child right now....

[backtobasics]

Being a man, I can not begin to understand the pain and ambivalence you must be expeirenceing, but I do know that God cares deeply for you. Tumult and pain happen even to those in his will. This is not a sign he has abandoned you or will abandon you. You are still a beautiful whole women. Never forget Christ's blood cleans us. It is never anything someone else may do to us that determines our "cleanness" in his eyes. You are right in not blaming the child. Please believe, she is a victim in this as much as you.

As others have said seek out strong Christian counseling, pray often and sourround yourself with the body of Christ. I will pray for you.

Edited April 3, 2006 by backtobasics

[nebula]

Kit_kit

I pray you find peace and comfort in the presence of the Lord.

I dont know where you live, but see if there might be a Christian pregnancy center anywhere neat you. They would know how to help.

And hold on to the hope that even if the authorities never find them, the Lord will get those those jerks in the end.

[Spunky]

As the others have stated there is no answer to why

( you may look at it as the devil trying to turn you

away from the Lord ) but you hold fast to your faith

in the Lord. He will be with you every step of the way.

Do please seek council and an adoption agency.

Out of our darkest experiences good things can happen

and the Lord has sent this beautiful child to you or to a

couple who needs to share their love. I will be praying

for your family to come together in support of you as

this is your time of need.

You and your baby are in my prayers!

( please feel free to keep us informed )

[David from New Bern]

You have received some amazing responses of empathy and sympathy. I wish only to add a verse to meditate on during your period of deciding what action to take or not to take during your time of testing. And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.Romans 8:28 NKJV This verse is quoted a lot, but it is a statement to live by. The rape was a evil event, but the baby is the good that God has created out of this evil. God delights in overturning evil with good, but will we trust Him and take Him at His word?