I have an obsession with someone

[InternalFlame]

I'm in agreement with chicagoburbite...praying for you footsteps

[LadyGunivere]

Praying for you footsteps!

[Leonard]

We will have prayers for you at Vespers.

[sierra21]

There is absolutely no shame in taking medication to help with your problems. God wants you to be happy and live a fruitful life, I think this is why he gave man the knowledge to create medications which can help those who have difficulty in there lives. That doesn't mean that you should stop working on your relationship with God, but I really don't think that God would be dissapointed with you for used the meds if it helps you and makes you feel more comfortable. Our God is a loving one, and he wants you to be calm and safe. I am praying for you footsteps.

sierra

[Footsteps]

I am so lost over this thing. I am getting absolutely no leading from God whatsoever. I can't get this girl out of my mind. All I keep thinking of is how I want to leave the state and be free from her. I don't even think this is about God at all. It's about that girl and me. It's about what I need to do to be free from her.

I'm so confused. I'm tyring to hang on. I've given this obsession to the Lord. He's dealing with it and giving me strength to face each day. I know He will get me through each day, but every day is full of misery and madness. The more I ask Him for deliverence and He delays it, the more bitter I become. I'm afraid that one day I'm going to snap and walk away from God. Then I'll leave the state, the obsession will end, and I'll wonder why I even trusted God in the first place.

I think I'm going insane.

Edited September 25, 2006 by Footsteps

[Bolts]

I am so lost over this thing. I am getting absolutely no leading from God whatsoever. I can't get this girl out of my mind. All I keep thinking of is how I want to leave the state and be free from her. I don't even think this is about God at all. It's about that girl and me. It's about what I need to do to be free from her.

I'm so confused. I'm tyring to hang on. I've given this obsession to the Lord. He's dealing with it and giving me strength to face each day. I know He will get me through each day, but every day is full of misery and madness. The more I ask Him for deliverence and He delays it, the more bitter I become. I'm afraid that one day I'm going to snap and walk away from God. Then I'll leave the state, the obsession will end, and I'll wonder why I even trusted God in the first place.

I think I'm going insane.

The bible says that the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord and he delighteth in his way and though he fall he shall not be cast down, for the Lord upholdeth him with his hand.

Be of good courage my friend

because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.

My advice is that you pull out your favourite scriptures and celebrate over them continuously.

[Footsteps]

Here is my obsession update: God is teaching me many things about myself during this pressing time. I have learned to

thank Him for the obsession, for it is a chance for me to get closer to Him. I couldn't do that before and used to blame Him

for it lasting so long. A Christain friend on Worthy has been teaching me about anxiety and I felt led to pray over my anxiety

concerning this obsession, but not over the obsession itself. I used to pray, "God, take this obsession away," but now I

pray, "God I give you my anxiety over this obsession. Take the anxiety away and fill me with Your peace." This prayer has

worked wonders at chasing the obsession off of my emotions.

A little over a week ago, God freed me from the rejection I felt over this obsession. I felt like a weight was lifted off me. But,

the yearning for this girl was still very persistant, to the point of I almost broke down and sent her an email and suicide was

heavy on my mind. Since praying over my emotional anxiety, God has delivered me from any yearing for this girl. One day I

was about ready to jump out of my skin because I felt I couldn't live without her and then next day the desire to contact

her....JUST STOPPED! I feel that God has delivered me from all emotional bondage concerning this girl, but the thoughts of

her are still in my mind, though they have tapered off a bit.

I feel the Lord is telling me that it is just a matter of time before the memories of her will be gone and I won't think about her

as much. Before, it was like a vice grip on my mind and I was stuck in this cycle of thinking about her constantly and

endlessly. That cycle has now been broken and I feel that God is telling me, "Son, I am breaking this emotional bondage you

have been going through so I can now heal your memories." Praise God for that! I feel such a terrific weight lifted off of me

the last two days or so.

The temptation I have now is that I have been stuggling with this obsession for so long now that I am used to it. It actually

has been servicing me to keep going to the Lord every day for strength and guidance. But now that this obsession is winding

down, I'm afraid of standing on my own two feet without it proping me up. In a way, I almost want to keep clinging to it so I

have a reason to stay with the Lord. But I have given it fully to the Lord and told Him that I am ready for His next challange.

In other words, I have told Him that I am ready to move on from this obsession and to accept His next challange for me.

Even though I hate the obsession, I'm afraid of moving away from it too. I have given it all to the Lord. In the past day or so,

the thoughts of this girl have not been as extreme. I still need prayer though for God to totally whipe it out of my mind. I

know that I will have an occasional memory of her, but I feel that the Lord wants to heal my mind and memories next. Pray

that I will be able to stick with the Lord WITHOUT the obsession and live to give Him glory in other aspects of my life.

Thanks to everyone who has prayed with me over this thing. One day, when I feel the thoughts are under control and I'm not

thinking about her hardly at all, I will give a praise report. That day is coming soon. The Lord has promised it to me. I praise

Him now for the relief I have been given from Him concerning this obsession thus far.

ALL PRAISE GO TO GOD!!!!

Edited September 27, 2006 by Footsteps

[billie]

Good for you, Foots!

[chicagoburbite]

YAY!!! I am so glad to hear this! Just remember this time when

emotions try to creep in.

God bless, bro!

[Tomi]

I'm lifting you up in prayer footsteps!