Thanks for being honest about how you feel.
Blood Bought nailed the answer. People are in hell for not accepting Jesus. Thats it.
If I went by my feelings I would not have gone to church today.
I look at God's Word and believe it, whether I feel like it or not. He cannot lie.
Faith is trusting God more than I trust my feelings or circumstances.
I am praying for you as I know what you mean by your post. I felt that way too at times but thankfully, ended up staying in the place of trusting God over my feelings.
Don't get me wrong. I have questions too, for Him. One day, He'll answer them if really need to know in the end.
God bless you!