a question of my faith in God?

[Guest]

Do

Wherefore he is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto God by him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them. Hebrews 7:25

You

The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee. Jeremiah 31:3

Know

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Philippians 4:8

How

And I said, My strength and my hope is perished from the LORD:

Remembering mine affliction and my misery, the wormwood and the gall.

My soul hath them still in remembrance, and is humbled in me.

This I recall to my mind, therefore have I hope.

It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.

They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness.

The LORD is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him.

The LORD is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him.

It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the LORD. Lamentations 3:18-26

Much

Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God. Hebrews 12:2

You

Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not. 1 John 3:1

Are

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. John 3:16

Loved

Forasmuch as ye know that ye were not redeemed with corruptible things, as silver and gold, from your vain conversation received by tradition from your fathers;

But with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot: 1 Peter 1:18-19

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Be Blessed Beloved Of The KING

The LORD bless thee, and keep thee:

The LORD make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee:

The LORD lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.

And they shall put my name upon the children of Israel; and I will bless them. Numbers 6:24-27

Love, Your Brother Joe

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Praying!

These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world. John 16:33

[Smalcald]

It sounds like you are using drugs to medicate your pain. Drugs are of course a sin, but many Christians have come through drug abuse, I would seek medical help and start to work on the issues that cause you to want to numb yourself. None of that denies your faith in Christ.

[~Shalhevet~]

You are in my prayers. I truly believe God will carry you out of this addiction! Believe!

[nebula]

Treetop -

Instead of thinking God is not healing you because you lack faith, rather think that He's making you exercise in order for you to build some muscles, to work discipline into your life.

And as far as everything being taken from you, I don't know your circumstances, but I am reminded of a line for the song "Through Heaven's Eyes" from The Prince of Egypt about losing everything.

Click here

I recently dealt with this kind of struggle, and this song truly blessed me. I hope it does you, too.

[Guest]

Before I head out to the VA...a few thoughts to clarify.

All I have seem to have left in my life is my drugs. When I talked about what has been taken away...I was only speaking of people in my life...well, those that have been a part of my life. I'm really not blaming God for that as all my fingers are pointing right at myself. I guess it's my crazy way of talking about the damage done. The line of wreckage from my actions is long. God is not to blame for that, I am.

I did make an appointment for an evaluation...that will be on April 1(how appopriate huh?). A little over a month away.

I think that in my original post, the confusion I have concerning healing got the best of me. I do not seek an immediate deliverance(I actually don't believe that really happens, that would be too easy). So I think that's why I asked about faith cause I've been told it's lack of faith that will hinder God in how He works in my life. I don't know if any of this helps. After reading the replies, I'm thankful yes, but I feel so cut off.

For a while I did go to AA. I came out of that more confused than ever. What it came down to was that my own perception of who God is was really twisted. I followed that to the "grave." I never did buy into the disease theory...blaming my addiction on a disease was way too easy. I sort of get the part now where my sin has held me so long that efforts to calm the storm have been taken out of my hands. That's why I say I'm out of control. And, since I can not seem to have even that mustard size seed of faith,...I call a doctor.

Maybe I've made a bit of sense to someone. Maybe not. Either way, this is how it is today...and with a month to live before my appointment...I hope I make it.

Thank you for all your encouraging replies. God Bless yall.

[Pete Gorman]

First off, thank you for opening your heart and sharing this issue with us! Opening ourselves up like that is hard, but it's great to see the Worthy Community offering you their support and prayers!

I'm very glad you called the VA and have that appointment coming up! I think you'll find that to be a HUGE asset in your recovery. I'll be praying for you!

[Guest]

thank you all, it really is nice to see your replies tonight.

[MorningGlory]

I'm putting you in my prayers, Treetop, and I will continue to pray for your deliverance. There's nothing wrong in what you posted; no one can help you, not even God, unless you want help. It's apparent that you do. May he bless and keep you.

[Pete Gorman]

Randal..(()) buddy.

Luk 7:47 Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little.

Luk 7:48 And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven.

The amount of our sin will not keep us from our Lord.

AMEN! There is absolutely nothing that Jesus can't or won't forgive, if we just repent and ask Him! What a wonderful Saviour we have.

[Guest]

Hi,

I want to thank you all for your prayers, your words of encouragemnt, but most of all, the simple fact that you are there. I know it's been a while since I replied to anything said here to me, so I want to take this opportunity to share a few things that have happened with me and...my faith in my God.

Last Sunday was the last time I either used drugs or drank. I'm not into counting the days as I've been through that before and always thought, it was only today that mattered. I saw too much of how time in being clean was only time and nothing else. Maybe that's ok for some, but I want to live.

Through a friend I was given a link to a website(settingcaptivesfree) that one of the things availiable to me is a daily working through this, my addicitions, both concerning the physical part and the spiritual part of me. I'm on day 7 with that and am committed to the full 60 days. I have reached out and asked another to help me with this...and it's happening. I am seeing everyday now that God is working in my life. My thoughts of all this, changing bit by bit. Although very intense, I look forward to each day's lesson.

I've not posted very much on the boards here since I got involved with this. A couple of song lyrics I think. I've thought of talking about this but until today I didn't really know how to go about it. Maybe my hesitation to post is due to my emotions at times this week being a bit erratic. I've settled down a bit now, well at least I feel more calm than I have other days this week. And something happened today which is really cool and I do want to share this with you all.

Yesterday I learned a bit of, well let me post the verse first.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Hebrews 12:1

The throwing off of things that have hindered me, going to bars, and, who do I hang out with, my friends. The part concerning my friends was hard for me. Something happened today to help me put all this in perspective. This is the good part.

Before I became a member of Worthy, I had isolated from my bro who I know does care about what happens with me. I care about him a lot to but I sure didn't show it for a long time. I've known him for several years now, since coming to San Antonio. I quit calling him, no emails, nothing. This morning, right as I'm about to do some errands, guess who shows up at my door??? Yeahh, my bro. I couldn't hug him hard or long enough it seems. We spent several hours together, sharing what's happening in our lives. And praying together. You know I'm so blown away with how God loves me, my friend back in my life, my brother. After last night with struggling about all this, there he is with that huge smile of his. I thank God for, well, He sure knew what I needed today.

I sure know that there is a lot of hard work to be done, and now I do know that God will provide. I'm encouraged to keep moving forward. My faith in God, becoming more real to me than ever.

Again, my heartfelt thanks for yall. God bless yall.

- Randal