Dealing With Autism (my deepest wish)

[Prycejosh1987]

I wish you all the best in dealing with the autism. Just believe in yourself, and keep growing spiritually and don't leave your faith. God bless.

[LittlePebble10]

Just thought I update

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First off I am working on a piece of art to replace my avatar across all the social websites I am on including YT with the Graphite tree "FathomisticFantasy." Due to it being color pencil that takes hours to make layers and that I had life problems to overcome its taken about a year to finish. So, I won't have just a pacifier for an avatar for much longer. I will have my age-reg OC with it cropped to his face for an avatar. As for my social anxiety I been doing a lot better. I was kind of sad to see that a new neighbor moved in above me. The family up there was nice and it was wonderful to see that the media was wrong. They were a family that really has disproved that. As for my goals on public pacifier I have decided on an end goal. My final change for life will be overcoming the fear of using this item and a stuffed animal in public. I am getting closer to getting my sewing and needle craft up and going again. I will be using cheap muslin to test patterns before I buy mink and doll hair. I want to make a bag-plushy of my tulpae named Rosetta in dragon form. It will look a lot more like cosplay then a handbag and I am hopeful it will be accepted in my public social places. It will be a while before I really start having something sewn to present. Until then I will be doing sketches and pattern drawings for templates. Mink and doll hair both are pricey and I am still at it with my project. The space shuttle size synth "Lily Molly Poly-synth." It too is sort of on hold until I can get something functional with my sleep schedule and my daily todo list. If I have not provided the link yet; here it is for my goals.

 

My reasoning and Considerations Public Pacifier

[LittlePebble10]

Update

I hope my updates don't get on people nerves. I rather stick with a particular thread instead of creating new ones when and if possible. 

 

I am still working on my mixed media art when I know I have the time to. I will be getting a lot done on it during this Holiday Week end. Things seem to be going uphill. I am still working on some issues such my sleep patterns and knowing how to define my use of a pacifier is appropriate. I will be trying to use my pacifier outside my porch window seeing that is a reasonable place to use it. It also helps with my anxiety over all. I recently been to the store with it under my mask. A little tricky since there are moments when I have to move it to and from the underside of my shirt. Although I find this too is helpful to define exactly what is and is not appropriate with this strategy. There will be a day when masks won't be so strictly required. I will be using my pacifier when ever I am at the Library seeing that when ever I am there its to study something. Math and stuff like that is not easy. Especially when I do calculus type stuff with circuitry. Capacitor and frequency type math is not easy. I will never forget how I found it hard to keep my thumb at the tip in my mouth during the times I was college. My first year in transitional classes (Pass/Fail grading), there was another guy who would put his entire thumb in his mouth. I was so angered when people talked about it in a derogatory way. I about told people off for it and made them aware that I too have an oral fixation when it comes to anxiety. 

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I will admit that I learned a lot about the appropriateness of how I deal with things in the past two months. I try and not think about my mistake I made on here with being set off by a simple question. I do not brag about being ashamed by that and dealing with guilt about it. I know I have to forgive myself and move on. I do wonder when certain things call for making people aware of their derogatory statements though. I will defend other people with autism if it calls for it. When it comes to depression, anxiety, and dangerous thoughts all lives matter. No one should be made to feel like their life does not matter and I will tell that to people if things become toxic. Again there is a time and place for this. Knowing how to deescalate a situation effectively is rather critical in todays times. Maintaining modesty and a peaceful environment is perhaps the most important quality to the peace keepers of Christianity.  

[shel]

Wow. What an interesting thread. It's fascinating to learn that my quirks are not so unusual. I have recently come to realize that my family members have much in common with autism traits. My youngest brother has been officially diagnosed on the spectrum at age 47. I took a survey on a forum I belong to and came out half way between autistic and NT. My husband (age 66) has an ADD diagnosis and also some distinctly autistic behaviors. I work with young adults with learning disabilities, most of whom are diagnosed on the spectrum. I find the environment at my job so affirming and comfortable that I have stopped pursuing much better paying jobs for which my education qualifies me. I get down on myself sometimes and start madly pursuing a higher paying job but it has never gotten me anywhere. It feels like trying to swim while being pulled back by a giant rubber band.

[enoob57]

 @shel you probably hate my humor but I assure you it is done in love

[shel]

@enoob57 hate your humor?  no way!

[enoob57]

Good now get back to work...

[shel]

[Marathoner]

I'm on the spectrum. I slipped through the cracks during my youth on account of my development: I was academically and physically ahead of my peers so in the eyes of others, I suffered no developmental disabilities. This wasn't true. Some of us are adept at hiding these disabilities and in my case, their very nature affords me the ability to side-step them by reason of intense focus. This was how I taught myself independent of external guidance.

I learned how to read by listening to and watching my mother so by the age of three, I was reading the books she would read to me. I learned how to write by watching my mother do it herself, emulating her and dutifully copying text I encountered in books. My favorite book was the dictionary: I would sit down and read through it for hours on end, replicating pages on notebook paper as faithfully as I could. 

I learned how to cook by observing my mother... I learned how to clean by watching her... I learned how to wash and iron clothes by sitting nearby. When I observe in such a way I "zone out" and lose track of time and space. I visualize myself in the place of those I observe and so my capacity for visualization borders on the absurd. 

In adulthood this ability to focus served me well in the United States Army where I performed well as a soldier.  All I required was duty... my orders... and a job to do. I focused intensely upon these and so I was able to "forget" about the anxiety which plagued me on a daily basis. 

Yes, the Lord raised me up and healed me of many things but He did not change the way I'm made. I encourage you to find this place as well... Christ made us the way we are for a reason.  

Edited October 3, 2020 by Marathoner
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[BeauJangles]

Dealing With Autism (my deepest wish)

 

On 6/22/2020 at 6:39 PM, LittlePebble10 said:

I am normally an introvert and prefer the internet as a form of social life.

You're also a very intelligent person who is self aware and could also have an aspect of Asperger's Syndrome. I'm not fully knowledgeable on either but have a basic and overall understanding of your struggles. You're strongly into fantasy and have yet to mature with a resistance to adulthood, not fully desirous of facing the responsibilities of this as well. Daydreaming is a comfort zone for you and childlike pretending taking place of true reality. 

On 6/22/2020 at 6:39 PM, LittlePebble10 said:

I do use my pacifier and my plush will be in a seat by my electronics lab table.

Did you ever suck your thumb as a toddler to being a youngster as well? This is more common than you may realize. Often the case on this particular issue is due to the fact that mothering you by breastfeeding bonding may have never taken place, or was suddenly stopped before you were prepared to be weaned from your mom. Does this happen to ring any bells for you? 

On 6/22/2020 at 6:39 PM, LittlePebble10 said:

I really cant explain how this works. I am not sure if its an oral fixation because the idea is to hold it in my mouth and fiddle with my tongue.

You may well have an oral fixation due to what I've described above. Clicking the tongue is a potential sign of autism and sometimes Tourette's Syndrome, which has yet to be ascertained. This is probably not specifically your situation, but is a similar symptom. You have vast capabilities of fully expressing yourself more than the norm and seem to be well familiar with your personal status. At least you are well in touch. You do write extensively and are well educated. Good on you. There's hope on the horizon, but you have to want it badly enough. 

Edited October 3, 2020 by BeauJangles