a christian with an addiction

[Ghostdog]

thanks for more of these replies. its good to know that im not alone in struggling with addiction. sometimes it feels that way. there have been times when i wanted to end my life because i thought that would stop the pain and agony over going back and forth. especially after my first arrest. i lost everything. i lost my job, where i lived, all my money, friends and family, relationships with females and i ended up homeless. up til that point i was living good. i had a good paying job, i had many things, i had both self-respect and respect from people, i was sort of popular. i said that " my kingdom burned" and there was nothing i could do about it. toady im trying to rebuild some of that back and im working on getting this out of my life because if i dont then im just gonna lose what i managed to rebuild already. 

the other day when i was reading what was said i was reminded that a person from an organization asked me if i was intrested in a mens group that they have for other people who struggle with addictions and its not a na or aa type of thing but its just a group of guys who meet up every 2 weeks and encourage each other. i told him i would be and he said that he would get back to me about the next time there was a meeting. i havent heard back from him and i forgot about it until yesterday. im gonna call him and see when the next meeting is.

[walla299]

7 hours ago, Ghostdog said:

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the other day when i was reading what was said i was reminded that a person from an organization asked me if i was intrested in a mens group that they have for other people who struggle with addictions and its not a na or aa type of thing but its just a group of guys who meet up every 2 weeks and encourage each other. i told him i would be and he said that he would get back to me about the next time there was a meeting. i havent heard back from him and i forgot about it until yesterday. im gonna call him and see when the next meeting is.

This is a good thing. It doesn't have to be AA, NA, etc. The fellowship of believers is what helps. I encourage the guys I work with not to toss the NA or AA meetings aside because they can help in two ways: Finding other believers is the main one, but there is support also. Best part is no one is ramming stuff down your throat. 

Something I forgot the mention earlier is there are online recovery chats, and now AA and NA meetings on Zoom and other video conference platforms. 

https://www.stepchat.com is a text only chat room that's open 24/7 and they have meetings throughout the day. The schedule is right on the main page and should adjust for your time zone. This came in handy early in the lockdowns last year.

https://aa-intergroup.org/meetings is a directory of online AA meetings around the world. This was great when the lock downs shut down all the local meetings in my area. This and Step Chat comes in handy for those times when you just need someone to talk to on one of those bad mornings at 2am.

 

[Leonardo Von]

On 8/23/2021 at 1:37 PM, Ghostdog said:

the last few years i finally admitted i have a problem.

This is a great outset.

[Mike Mclees]

On 8/23/2021 at 11:01 AM, missmuffet said:

First of all admitting you have a problem is 50% of the battle. 

My dear Miss Muffet. To our struggling brother whom shall he confess. Of Course we go to God first and of course we understand he has already done. that. He is not hiding from God. Neither could he hide from Him. He has made an open confession. but has not identified the particular sin unless i  missed it We need the particulars of the sin since he said he has fought it all his life. He needs to know to whom and how this confession should be done. Of course there are certain sins that cannot be repeated. I am one of those and still struggle. I have to pray daily over it. I admit this so as to comfort our poster that he know he does not fight this problem alone. He is also among millions of believers. Though the war goes on we cannot stop trusting God. Who else can one go to.. Christ is our hope and trust. His grace is all we have . I have to walk be faith alone because I say to God hell is to great unpunishment for any man. This is the fate of all who love the darkness more than the light 

Edited November 7, 2021 by Mike Mclees

[Mije]

On 8/23/2021 at 3:01 PM, Marathoner said:

I believed my place was upon my face in the dus

The original post was over a year ago but I just found this now- I am a worm and my struggle is relentless.

It is so hard to stand when you know you are letting God down and your family as well. Day after day the same disappointment…

Are you still around @Ghostdog?

Edited December 30, 2022 by Mije

[Ghostdog]

im still here

[R. Hartono]

On 8/23/2021 at 11:37 PM, Ghostdog said:

for most of my life ive had an addiction. when i started i was young and i didnt realize it would lead to an addiction. this addiction lead to my first arrest in 2011, then in 2016, 2018 and finally may of this year. i served 2 prison sentances in between those times. the last few years i finally admitted i have a problem. back when i was younger i prayed many times for God to remove this from my life and it seems that He wont. i guess i thought that i would pray and God would answer and remove it and then life would be good. i havent had any cravings lately but i did go back to it a few weeks ago. there are days when i question my salvation over it. can a person be a christian and still go back to an addiction? i would think not. its the whole putting away the flesh and all that. idk. 

If i were you i wont let even a second pass that destroy my awareness and concentration by inhaling drugs. We Will inherit the sin/ karma (whatever they name it) even for thousands of years to come after we die.