Afraid im not God's

[CaptWalker]

33 minutes ago, Figure of eighty said:

I always felt alone with God like i wasnt his favorite person or he didnt wany to talk to me much or something.

With my boyfriend I feel more wanted and when im with him it feels like an adventure with the places we go.

Sometimes it's better to not really get any answer from God than to get more than one and then not know which is the right choice. I often feel like God is doing just that and then not confirming which decision i need to make, so i almost envy you in a way as strange as that might sound. And wouldn't really mind much at all if God ignored me also, but that's just me. But sometimes He will give us help such as your BF so that you two can both find the answers together, since where 2 or more are gathered He is there with you.       

[leah777]

4 minutes ago, Figure of eighty said:

Maybe i should stop watching christians on youtube. Just feels my relationship is lack luster compsred to theirs. 

Im gonna ask what God thinks of my bf. I feel i already know. 

I will be praying for you.

Relationships, all relationships, vary. Some are like volcanos going off. Some are quiet, gentle unexciting but secure and have firm foundations. Some are a mixture. The experiences do not affect the quality of the relationship. We are secure in Gods love, even if we cant always feel it.

YOu are very tired, you have a lot to handle, life is difficult. This can affect how you receive love or feelings. Dont be swayed by feelings you have, or think you should have, in your relationship with God. Below is something I found about how God views each one of us:

 

[JohnD]

12 hours ago, Figure of eighty said:

I worry that maybe im not truly saved. Its been 10 yrs and i still dont hear his voice, never been led. Ive experienced God but i worry im not truly his sheep. Like a counterfeit or something. 

 

Im still with my bf.. 

 

Idk. I just dont know what to do to get back in Gods good grace.  I also feel He doesnt like me much so its hard me to get close to God.

Verify that you believe in the true / genuine Jesus Christ of the Bible... and trust him.

If you are steered down a dark alley he doesn't want you on... he is more than capable of getting

your attention... 'splaining to you the wisdom of getting out of the alley... or of even just taking you from it.

Won't be pretty. But he takes seriously you in his love and proprietary jealousy. You are his.

Also be patient.

The record of people in history  and in scripture of mountain top experiences with God happen in a

relatively small portion of their lives.  Even Jesus lived 30 years before all the evens of his Earthly ministry

in the last 3.5 years of his life before the cross.

If bf if gnawing at you somehow... find out why... I mean what is really getting at you about this...

Is it them?

Is it you?

Is it what you think you should do?

Is it what you think you shouldn't do?

Get with God on this and not people. He may have you on a missionary journey with them you haven't considered.

Point is... there is a way that seems right to man... but the ends thereof are the ways of death...

God in his omniscience and omnipotence orchestrates all things for the good of those who love his Son and to

win others to his Son.

We get some half baked idea of what we think we are supposed to do and usually with impulsiveness we mangle up

everything the Lord is trying to accomplish through us. 

All in the name of keeping the law.

Galatians 3:24-25 shows the purpose of the Law is to drive us to Grace. For those who won't be driven there it stands 

to condemn. For no human being other than the Last Adam (Jesus) could ever keep the Law. The out of our reach minimum

requirements direct us to the Grace of God rather than the futility of attempting to keep the Law.

And most Christians are oblivious to the fact that the Law did not end at Malachi 4 nor did Grace begin at Matthew 1.

Hebrews 9:16–17 (AV)
16 For where a testament is, there must also of necessity be the death of the testator.
17 For a testament is of force after men are dead: otherwise it is of no strength at all while the testator liveth.

The sermon on the mount for example was the Divine Commentary on the Law correcting the mishandling of the Law by the religious leaders.

Jesus essentially put the teeth back into the Law.

And it is a travesty that most teach it as New Testament / New Covenant.

Even the so-called (by human tradition) Lord's prayer ends with an Old Covenant caveat "forgive us as we forgive others...." 

Only believe the Lord Jesus:

Ephesians 2:8–10 (AV)
8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:
9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.
10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

John 3:16–18 (AV)
16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
18 He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.

1 Corinthians 15:1–4 (AV)
1 Moreover, brethren, I declare unto you the gospel which I preached unto you, which also ye have received, and wherein ye stand;
2 By which also ye are saved, if ye keep in memory what I preached unto you, unless ye have believed in vain.
3 For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures;
4 And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:

John 16:27 (AV)
27 For the Father himself loveth you, because ye have loved me, and have believed that I came out from God.

He that the Son sets FREE is FREE indeed.

Jesus says my yoke is EASY my burden is LIGHT.

Don't let the devil through people / misinterpretations of scripture / or even your own worried mind

deprive you of this most precious gift of God's freedom and peace!

When the devil reminds you of your past, just remember his future.

Praise God and thank him enter his courts with thanksgiving and praise!

Edited August 2, 2020 by JohnD

[Figure of eighty]

7 hours ago, CaptWalker said:

Sometimes it's better to not really get any answer from God than to get more than one and then not know which is the right choice. I often feel like God is doing just that and then not confirming which decision i need to make, so i almost envy you in a way as strange as that might sound. And wouldn't really mind much at all if God ignored me also, but that's just me. But sometimes He will give us help such as your BF so that you two can both find the answers together, since where 2 or more are gathered He is there with you.       

Idk i dont like feeling ignored. I wish i could hear plainly from God. 

Idk i have to ask god about my bf. 

 

But i kinda have a gut feeling we shoulent be together .

[Coliseum]

6 hours ago, Figure of eighty said:

Idk i dont like feeling ignored. I wish i could hear plainly from God. 

Idk i have to ask god about my bf. 

 

But i kinda have a gut feeling we shoulent be together .

Maybe you should listen to your gut feeling. You might feel your heart renewed. Jesus lives there, and if there is conflict, your heart will know it. If you separate from your BF, and your heart feels relieved, you will be able to thank Jesus. All of these things you are sharing are not by accident, not if the Spirit is inside you. You shared you do not like to feel alone, but Jesus is speaking to you through all of us. You really are not alone when you are listening to Him. 

Part of listening to Jesus is reading the Bible. Those words in there are his love letter to you. He talks to each of us a little bit differently when we read what He says. He is sharing his life with you because he loves you. If God were right there beside you and he told you that he loved you, how would you respond? Well, Jesus is not merely sitting beside you; he is living inside you. Did you read the part where he says to us that if we think about him and his kingdom first, all of the things we run after he will give to us?  Our job is to believe God at his word. God said He does not lie. Do you believe that? It is not so much that God wants us to please Him. He wants us to trust Him. And isn't trusting Him pleasing Him?

[Wayne222]

Book of james says draw near to me and I will draw near to you. Clease your hands you double minded. So you are being double minded. You have a unclean relationship with your boyfriend and you have a relationship with God how be it not right. God will not answer your prayers in this condition. When we received christ he is then our lord and first in all things. He forgave us our sins and paid the price with his blood. You cannot touch the unclean and be in a holy state for God. Its unholy to live outside of marriage. Sex outside of marriage is unclean. God called us to a holy life. Then he will bless you. And you will rejoice in the lord and have joy.

[CaptWalker]

Also sometimes God will "speak" to us in dreams, but it is not the norm and i believe He does it mostly for people who are seeking Him but not finding any answers to prayer. But it is still your responsibility to make sure you change any lifestyle choices that are contrary to what His word says is sin, and the Bible might also give you the answer concerning your BF, even if it's only one verse the Holy Spirit reveals to you.   

[branchesofHim]

FYI. Shalom.

Titus 2:[11] For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men (and women),

Edited August 4, 2020 by branchesofHim

[DeafMouse]

If we are in Christ, He is in us.  If you are living in sin, you are not living in Christ.  Does this mean He isn't there for you?  No.  It means He is patiently waiting for you.  If you are living a life you know is wrong, the way to feel close to Him again is repentance and to change your life back into what you know is right according to His Word.

He also tells us that there is always a way out of temptation and sin and if you continue to give in to temptation and sin, then yep you will keep feeling far from Him..   We cannot hear Him if we are not His sheep and if we choose sin over Him, we are not His sheep.

We turn our backs on God, He doesn't turn His back on us. 

We walk away from Him, but He promised to never leave us not forsake us.

However, if We deny Him, He will deny us to the Father.

God is always there willing and ready to listen to and accept a truly repentant heart.  But a truly repentant heart also turns away from the sin they are repenting for.  If you plan to continue in any sin, then you really aren't repentant.

But if you confess your sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive your sins and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. 

God loves you.  Jesus Christ died for you.  He's waiting for you to come running to Him with His arms open wide.

But, He gave us free will to choose, and He won't force us into anything. 

If you feel far from Him, then draw near to Him. 

Seek and you will find...  but you gotta do the work ---

i.e.  Stop living a life of sin and start living the life He intended in purity until marriage (for starters)