If you are not ready, then I hope that you are at least willing to be.
Otherwise, you will suffer shame for not believing in the Lord.
"For the Scripture says, “Whoever believes on Him will not be put to shame.”" - Romans 10:11
Everywhere we see people dodging the Holy Spirit, and making excuses not to receive and embrace it, for real.
"For whoever is ashamed of Me and My words in this adulterous and sinful generation,
of him the Son of Man also will be ashamed when He comes in the glory of His Father with the holy angels." - Mark 8:38
The reality is that they do not believe in the Lord and they do not care about doing what He commanded us to do.
They believe they do not need it, they believe they are already ready, they believe they are full.
"I know your works, that you are neither cold nor hot. I could wish you were cold or hot.
So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of My mouth." - Revelation 3:15-16
When in reality they are just afraid of taking a position, they do not want to leave what they indeed love: Sin, iniquity, lawlessness, perdition, darkness, partiality, hypocrisy.
"But the cowardly, unbelieving, abominable, murderers, sexually immoral, sorcerers, idolaters,
and all liars shall have their part in the lake which burns with fire and brimstone, which is the second death." - Revelation 21:8
What?! Do you want to put fear in me?!
If you loved God what I have written would cause you no fear.
"He who does not love does not know God, for God is love." - 1 John 4:8
"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment.
But he who fears has not been made perfect in love." - 1 John 4:18
But as you said this causes you fear, this can be a sign you still have chances. Because fearing the Lord is something wise to do.
"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom,
And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding." - Proverbs 9:10
But those who do not take a position because they are worried what men will say about them, if their parents, friends, or anyone will not welcome them.
You should not care, what can men do to you?! Even if they kill you, your life is with the Lord.
If you think to live in this world, for yourselves and your pleasures is life; then please, think more.
"He who loves his life will lose it, and he who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life." - John 12:25
"And I say to you, My friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body,
and after that have no more that they can do.
But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear Him who, after He has killed,
has power to cast into hell; yes, I say to you, fear Him!" - Luke 12:4-5
I do not hate you, because I love you I write this. Do not be afraid of being like your shepherd; and I mean The Shepherd.
"I am the good shepherd; and I know My sheep, and am known by My own." - John 10:14
Then please, make a decision: Which shepherd you want to follow? The good or the evil?
If you answered: the good. Then please, continue reading...
Because you have to make a decision and believe for real, without partiality, and submit yourself fully to your shepherd.
The evil shepherd may allow you to be of both sides: good and evil.
But the good shepherd does not allow that, he wants you fully. He wants you in the truth.
"for you shall worship no other god, for the Lord, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God" - Exodus 34:14
"And you shall be holy to Me, for I the Lord am holy,
and have separated you from the peoples, that you should be Mine." - Leviticus 20:26
Then please, do not be like the foolish virgins who only believed when it was too late.
"And the foolish said to the wise, 'Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.'" - Matthew 25:8
Why, why were they worried to meet the Lord?! Were they in truth?! Obviously, no.
"I tell you, no; but unless you repent you will all likewise perish." - Luke 13:3
Do not take a position when it is too late. Start believing in Him now!
Because you do not know if tomorrow will come, you do not know if you will have another chance.
"And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came, and those who were ready went in with him to the wedding; and the door was shut." - Matthew 25:10
Do not be like the foolish. Hear, obey, and follow the Lord. Your friends and family will not give you life.
"But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand:
and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall." - Matthew 7:26-27
Whoever believes indeed in the Lord hears, obey, and follow Him. Do not be deceived.
"I counsel you to buy from Me gold refined in the fire, that you may be rich; and white garments,
that you may be clothed, that the shame of your nakedness may not be revealed;
and anoint your eyes with eye salve, that you may see." - Revelation 3:18
“Behold, I am coming as a thief. Blessed is he who watches,
and keeps his garments, lest he walk naked and they see his shame.” - Revelation 16:15
"Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock:
and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock." - Matthew 7:24-25
"Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no one will see the Lord" - Hebrews 12:14-15
But the foolish virgins they decided to receive Him when it was too late. Their fear and unbelief caused them to not believe in Him and receive Him.
"Thomas, because you have seen Me, you have believed.
Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." - John 20:29
It is your time now, welcome the Lord, welcome His Holy Spirit to your heart. Repent!
Say goodbye to all things that does not please Him: Yourself, flesh, sin. Only He can set you free and make you dislike these things, indeed.
All you have to do is ask: "Father, forgive me and give me the Holy Spirit! In Jesus' name. Amen!"
"If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children,
how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!" - Luke 11:13
You do not want to love sin, you do not want to love the flesh, or your friends and family, or anything else more than Him.
"I indeed baptized you with water, but He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit." - Mark 1:8
Decide to follow Him, desire to be His, in spirit and truth!
"But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the
Father in spirit and truth; for the Father is seeking such to worship Him." - John 4:23
People will hate you, people will despise you, they will tell you all kinds of evil falsely against you.
But they do this because they do not know Him.
"Therefore you now have sorrow; but I will see you again and your
heart will rejoice, and your joy no one will take from you." - John 16:22
"And a slave does not abide in the house forever, but a son abides forever." - John 8:35
"Watch therefore, for you do not know what hour your Lord is coming." - Matthew 24:42
God bless you in Jesus' name!