I think that God will not help me anymore.

[johny111]

Hello everybody,

I am going through hard times now. I am suffering from OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) and i have intrusive thoughts (sometimes think that are not mine and from some supernatural power), that if i dont do ritual or something like that something bad will happen to me or others. My typicall obsession was that i will hurt myself or others. Also that i could go to hell was my dreadful obsession. 

I made a deal with God (if we can call it like that). I told him, that i will not do compulsion, rituals or more ruminating even tho when the thoughts will be crazy and dreadful. I thought that if there is really some supernatural power it is some good power and not bad. Even if there is bad external power, good like God is much stronger. So i decided  to not do the compulsions even tho i was so scared that something bad is gonna happen. I felt really good that afternoon when i believed in God and that he protects me in front of evil. Than i was  thinking about that situation that i will go to hell after i stepped bad way on street. I know it sounds really irrational and crazy, but this is my magical thinking OCD. So i did mental compulsion that it wont happen but before that day i made a deal with God that i wont do compulsions anymore because if i do, he wont help me anymore. I dont know if the deal was OCD or reality. Please help me! I really feel like i dont deserve help from God anymore, I need help from God because i suffer from OCD and i think that some external power, evil will destroy if i dont get help from God.

Please help me, i dont know what to do. I feel like only hope and that was believing in God is gone, because i destroyed my faith in God because i did mental compulsion which i shouldnt do. It was a deal and i broke it. I am so sad, i dont want to live. I try to be the best person i can and i really dont want to hurt myself or others with my thoughts if i dont do compulsion. My only way out i felt was to believe in God, put i took it away. What should i do? I really need help, i dont want to live, feel like there is no way out from this problem.

Thank you so much all for your response!

Peace.

Thank you so much all for your response!

[missmuffet]

If you have faith and trust you will remain with God. Even if things are not good. Even if the healing doesn't come. God is with you. God knows more about your illness that you do. Stay in prayer and stay in His word. You will not regret it.

[johny111]

27 minutes ago, missmuffet said:

If you have faith and trust you will remain with God. Even if things are not good. Even if the healing doesn't come. God is with you. God knows more about your illness that you do. Stay in prayer and stay in His word. You will not regret it.

Thank you so much for your response! It is hard when i have thoughts like if now movie ends something will happen to actors. And it has already happened to me, that the movie really had ended and i had so big fear that something will really happen to that people. I really dont want to hurt other people. I dont want to have those thoughts, but i have them beacuse i am sick.

I just really dont know what to do when i have thoughts like that i will disrespect God if i dont do certain behaviors, rituals which my thoughts tell me. I feel really bad after i dont do the behaviors. I visit psychotherapy where they tell me that i have to stop doing those rituals and compulsive behaviors. It is so hard, because I do not want to have negative thoughts about God. I think it is my only hope how to live happy life and that is to believe in God. 

I am so scared that something will happen to the actors in that movie how i said in sentences above. I dont want to deal than with those thoughts that i could hurt others. I try to disregard those those thoughts but i cant. Most often i just ruminate and cant stop those thoughts.

Thank you so much!

 

[Justin Adams]

Maybe turn off the tv for a while. Maybe read John's Gospel and try to memorize some verses. Put your compunctions into good habits.

Do not make 'deals' with the Lord unless you are sure you can follow thru. Just ask forgiveness for your foolishness in trying to help yourself. If you have been given that label of OCD by somebody, then that is something else to consider. Like, were you really desperate and had to seek ungodly counsel? So few believers it seems trust the Lord but rather the dictates of shrinks.

Do you have a mature Christian friend that can pray for you and support you? Maybe look for one if you have not.

Relax and try not to spin your mental wheels. Do get as far away from media devices as you can.

[bluelotus]

Here are bible verses that you need to memorize ASAP:

⁴ Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! ⁵ Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. ⁶ Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

⁸ Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. ⁹ The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.

Philipians 4

 

[SisterActs2]

Hello Johny111

Johny, are you a Christian? - in that you have confessed to God that you believe in Him, that you repented of your sins and thanked Him for His forgiveness, and that you have received Him into your life - "But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name, who were born not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God."  John 1:12-13.

If the answer is yes, then you are now in a relationship with God the Father, God the Son and God the Holy Spirit.  You need to recognise that He loves you and will never give up helping you to come into the fullness that He has for you.

What the enemy does is try to bring us into a place of condemnation, and these days he is often using the problem of anxiety disorders to try to disrupt our walk with the Lord.  OCD is anxiety.  I have it to a degree.  But you must trust the Lord to help you overcome it, and that comes with developing your relationship with Him.  He has done everything He could to bring you into right relationship with Him.  As you know, He went to Calvary for us all.  He has paid our debt (sin) and when we know this it brings us into tremendous freedom, knowing that HE WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO COULD DO THIS, and He has done it!  He gained the victory FOR US.  All we have to do is receive it and accept it.  Now you must trust Him, read His Word, fellowship in a good place (maybe a church) where people stand on the Word of God without wavering or having their ears tickled with strange doctrine, and pray to Him every day (especially for the right place to fellowship, and there are many churches now that are not good to fellowship in).

Do not be afraid of the enemy or what he says will happen.  You are not in bondage anymore.  You have been made free by our Saviour.  You will see the freedom come - maybe immediately, maybe gradually.  Confess to Him that you don't want this in your life anymore.  You have salvation by grace through faith in Christ alone (Eph. 2:8-9).  We can do nothing to save ourselves.  Ask God to help you (to surrender it all to Him).  Believe me, He will. 

If the answer is no, and you have just decided to have faith in God and haven't known how, then follow the steps in my first paragraph and believe Him; the Word says that he that believes in Him, He will in no wise cast out.

Blessings to you.

[BK1110]

Is there a strong local body of believers you can connect with? I would suggest counseling with a pastor.

Don't make deals with God if you cannot keep them. As another member said, just ask forgiveness. Remember that God knows your heart, and He knows all your struggles. He can tell when you sincerely are sorry and He will certainly forgive you. And He knows when illness, physical or otherwise, is what prevents you from doing better. Rely on His wisdom and loving understanding!

[ytLiJC]

On 1/31/2018 at 8:16 PM, johny111 said:

Hello everybody,

I am going through hard times now. I am suffering from OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder) and i have intrusive thoughts (sometimes think that are not mine and from some supernatural power), that if i dont do ritual or something like that something bad will happen to me or others. My typicall obsession was that i will hurt myself or others. Also that i could go to hell was my dreadful obsession. 

I made a deal with God (if we can call it like that). I told him, that i will not do compulsion, rituals or more ruminating even tho when the thoughts will be crazy and dreadful. I thought that if there is really some supernatural power it is some good power and not bad. Even if there is bad external power, good like God is much stronger. So i decided  to not do the compulsions even tho i was so scared that something bad is gonna happen. I felt really good that afternoon when i believed in God and that he protects me in front of evil. Than i was  thinking about that situation that i will go to hell after i stepped bad way on street. I know it sounds really irrational and crazy, but this is my magical thinking OCD. So i did mental compulsion that it wont happen but before that day i made a deal with God that i wont do compulsions anymore because if i do, he wont help me anymore. I dont know if the deal was OCD or reality. Please help me! I really feel like i dont deserve help from God anymore, I need help from God because i suffer from OCD and i think that some external power, evil will destroy if i dont get help from God.

Please help me, i dont know what to do. I feel like only hope and that was believing in God is gone, because i destroyed my faith in God because i did mental compulsion which i shouldnt do. It was a deal and i broke it. I am so sad, i dont want to live. I try to be the best person i can and i really dont want to hurt myself or others with my thoughts if i dont do compulsion. My only way out i felt was to believe in God, put i took it away. What should i do? I really need help, i dont want to live, feel like there is no way out from this problem.

Thank you so much all for your response!

Peace.

Thank you so much all for your response!

 

one thing is to believe in the One Who is really the true God, while quite another thing is to perform rituals only because we think someone or something will cause us evil if we don't do it

also, not all supernatural powers are good, there have been many satanic supernatural manifestations in the world

may the true God free you from all satanic ties once and for all

Blessings