I want to give up/ I dont think Im saved

[Figure of eighty]

This is a bit of a continuation of a thread I had in prayer request. 

Things seem to get in my way concerning work. I try my best but nothing pans out. 

Like today i planned to uber/lyft but the between the hrs of 5 and 6 no drivers were available. I stayed up all night with mt baby and my dad argues with me again wondering why im here sayinf its my fault amd im not takinf you anywhere

My mom said i need to makw my own way and she cant help and that i need to do somwthinf bc the holidays are around the corner

 

I just dont know what elsw to do ans im certain im fired. 

I feel im doing my best but i get no help. I just feel i cant be saved bc usually God comes through and helps those that are his amd i keep hitting a wall.

Ive helped my mom so much and my family to my own detriment at times.

 

Idk. I also have health issues that are building and probably need to be addressed my mom pointed out my swellinf legs. I kinda chalk it up to overweight and warehouse work but i could be wrong as I have some under lyinf issues. 

 

Idk i feel directionless.

[R. Hartono]

Me too.

Difficult situation too.

But need to remain faithful till die.

Life is just a passing wind that brings illusion n doesnt return, make sure we go to Jesus in the end of this illusion.

Edited September 24, 2020 by R. Hartono

[JohnD]

It really appears you need to get back on your med, 80.

Or have them adjusted. I think you'll be more able to see clearly and be

less influenced by what appears to be paranoia on this subject.

Believe God and trust him.

That's what it's about for all of us.

None of us can perform or think or feel  good enough to be saved.

That kind of self righteousness is a myth, a farce, fraud which the Pharisees

who opposed Jesus were guilty of.

Child like faith is what the Lord seeks in us.

[Figure of eighty]

2 hours ago, JohnD said:

It really appears you need to get back on your med, 80.

Or have them adjusted. I think you'll be more able to see clearly and be

less influenced by what appears to be paranoia on this subject.

Believe God and trust him.

That's what it's about for all of us.

None of us can perform or think or feel  good enough to be saved.

That kind of self righteousness is a myth, a farce, fraud which the Pharisees

who opposed Jesus were guilty of.

Child like faith is what the Lord seeks in us.

What paranoia? Im on no meds never have been.

[Debp]

9 hours ago, Figure of eighty said:

I just feel i cant be saved bc usually God comes through and helps those that are his amd i keep hitting a wall.

Friend, the problem is basing your salvation on feelings....rather than your faith.    We aren't saved by how we feel... feelings can fluctuate, and some people are more prone to that.   Do you have faith in Christ, what He did for you?   If so, you are a Christian.   For now you are going through some trials like Job did.   Don't give up.

 

 

[Figure of eighty]

10 minutes ago, Debp said:

Friend, the problem is basing your salvation on feelings....rather than your faith.    We aren't saved by how we feel... feelings can fluctuate, and some people are more prone to that.   Do you have faith in Christ, what He did for you?   If so, you are a Christian.   For now you are going through some trials like Job did.   Don't give up.

 

 

Thank you. Tjis makes sense.

[Debp]

7 minutes ago, Figure of eighty said:

Thank you. Tjis makes sense.

Btw, about your mom saying for you to make your own way....I wonder if there might be a Christian family that might be willing to rent you a room or something?    Maybe some churches might have members willing to help a young mother to get on her feet?   Doesn't hurt to ask.

[JTC]

11 hours ago, Figure of eighty said:

I feel im doing my best but i get no help. I just feel i cant be saved bc usually God comes through and helps those that are his amd i keep hitting a wall.

I don't know you well 80 so this is a guess. (first of  all, we all go through bad things that may not make sense for 10 yrs or more) But my guess is maybe God wants you to learn and/or do some things before He can help you. These would be things that you probably don't want to do. (I have a Christian friend going through this exact thing. I can see what she needs to do but they are things she fights against with all her might. Recently even David Jeremiah, in his Sunday sermon, said he went though this when he was very sick with cancer. I think he's healed now, but apparently he had to learn some lessons he didn't want to learn) Maybe you're fighting God on something He wants you to learn. It can be a big thing or something small. Maybe God wants you to devote more or all your free time to Him. If I was you, I'd try listening to the Bible more and watching TV less. Like I said, this is just a guess.

[Figure of eighty]

16 minutes ago, JTC said:

I don't know you well 80 so this is a guess. (first of  all, we all go through bad things that may not make sense for 10 yrs or more) But my guess is maybe God wants you to learn and/or do some things before He can help you. These would be things that you probably don't want to do. (I have a Christian friend going through this exact thing. I can see what she needs to do but they are things she fights against with all her might. Recently even David Jeremiah, in his Sunday sermon, said he went though this when he was very sick with cancer. I think he's healed now, but apparently he had to learn some lessons he didn't want to learn) Maybe you're fighting God on something He wants you to learn. It can be a big thing or something small. Maybe God wants you to devote more or all your free time to Him. If I was you, I'd try listening to the Bible more and watching TV less. Like I said, this is just a guess.

I feel youre right. Im getting unbe lievable push back thT ive exhaused all my resources. 

Ive told God i have no clue what to do and i just need direction. 

But its ok. God gave me the job and if he removes it for whatever reason its ok. 

I would just lile to know what to do next.

[Figure of eighty]

Update-- So I missed work again. I tried calling a taxi like my mom and dad suggested (to make my own way) they were booked and the lady told me theres 3 people ahead of me that already preordered rides the night before  and it would be an hour atleast before someone could get me. It was already 6-ish and i'm late at 7. I tried lyft and there were no drivers in my area again-- I had to call out before it turned 7a just to let them know something. I called my mom earlier to see what time she'd be home and she just made it back at 8:30ish... 

 

yeah. Idk. Idk what to do next but i'll try to seek God and see what He says.