I need help....a lot of it.

[Reinitin]

14 hours ago, PaulTimothy said:

I feel I should make the statement that I am an intelligent person. I understand the concepts of the things I am asking and looking for. It seems I get many, "what is your faith? Do you believe in Jesus?" types questions. I guess its possible, however I find it highly unlikely that someone who doesnt believe in these things and isnt acquainted with the word of the bible would be doing what I am doing. 

Now to respond to you Reinitin. Thank you for taking the time and showing some care. If anyone said I healed someone, they would be discredited immediately, so I am not looking for a false messiah. I do not believe there is someone currently who could walk up to me and dispense my disease and anyone elses disease with a single prayer. What I believe is there are people who have a closer or stronger relationship to this aspect of God/Jesus and especially the Holy Spirit. When they pray the average of their peritions and prays is higher than yours or mine when dealing with physical healing. 

As far as waiting I read one explination about a guy who was seeking something from God and came to a pastor or the like for guidance. He told the man to test God. However we are of course not supposed to test God, the seeking man said no! We are never to test God. The pastor said this is not what I mean child. You believe in God, you know that he is all, or I am. He knows you better than you know yourself, for you are not testing God to see if he is real or has the ability to do sowmthing. Not many things are for sure but God knows you do not have eternity on this earth. So while you have the chance to ask for something you need, test God, test his word and see the wonders that will abound.

Now do I totally agree with this, ehhh, but if you come to God with no ill thought I don't think that God is going to condemn you for "testing" him and his word. I am seeking God all the time, consantly, learning, reading, researching, praying, meditating, looking for other believers. I am doing my part as I can see it. I do not have eternity, healthy or sick. Though Jesus came to bring life and I want it abundantly. 

It is hard sometimes in text to actually understand what a person is really comunicating. We tend to key in on different things that may not actually be what someone is trying to share. I been walking in Christ about 40 years, I promise I have tested his patience, his kindness, his mercy's his word and his power and I also promise he has tested me. He has always showed Himself as God and I have always come out of the tests in need of Christ. 

I would like to share with you something that is so beautiful to me. I was reading about Peter walking on water. I had read it hundreds of times and then I saw this in a different light because I had tested God and ended up in way over my head crying for the Lord to save me and He reached His hand out and did save me.

Holman Christian Standard Bible
Lord, if it's You," Peter answered Him, "command me to come to You on the water."  Mathew 14:28

I saw peter test him. See? If it was Christ and The Lord Spoke it, Peter would have the ability to do it. 

Holman Christian Standard Bible
"Come!" He said. And climbing out of the boat, Peter started walking on the water and came toward Jesus.  Mathew 14:29

So the Lord Spoke It and Peter Stepped out to obey and the power was there so he walked on water. Because he is man and not God he sunk and cried out to the Lord to "save him".

Holman Christian Standard Bible
But when he saw the strength of the wind, he was afraid. And beginning to sink he cried out, "Lord, save me!" 

Now, most people see he sunk cause his faith was small. I see He had to test the Word of God cause Messiah had not fully convienced Him yet. When we have to test because we do not want to decieve or be decieved and The Power of his Word puts us in places we can not sustain under our own power, we have to cry out. We are men not Gods.

New International Version
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"

The Lord always hears our cry and saves.

Edited January 12, 2016 by Reinitin

[PaulTimothy]

He must have had a pretty convincing cried out pretty well for just sinking into the water. I think we're on the same page with this, however my faith is certainly being tested through the things I have done. On a few occasions including last nighg I have prayed, fine, don't heal me, but let your presense be known, let me feel your love, is my quote from last night. Peter is afraid to get wet and he's immediately there, I would be lying if I didnt say my faith has been shaken.

[PaulTimothy]

3 hours ago, Reinitin said:

It is hard sometimes in text to actually understand what a person is really comunicating. We tend to key in on different things that may not actually be what someone is trying to share. I been walking in Christ about 40 years, I promise I have tested his patience, his kindness, his mercy's his word and his power and I also promise he has tested me. He has always showed Himself as God and I have always come out of the tests in need of Christ. 

I would like to share with you something that is so beautiful to me. I was reading about Peter walking on water. I had read it hundreds of times and then I saw this in a different light because I had tested God and ended up in way over my head crying for the Lord to save me and He reached His hand out and did save me.

Holman Christian Standard Bible
Lord, if it's You," Peter answered Him, "command me to come to You on the water."  Mathew 14:28

I saw peter test him. See? If it was Christ and The Lord Spoke it, Peter would have the ability to do it. 

Holman Christian Standard Bible
"Come!" He said. And climbing out of the boat, Peter started walking on the water and came toward Jesus.  Mathew 14:29

So the Lord Spoke It and Peter Stepped out to obey and the power was there so he walked on water. Because he is man and not God he sunk and cried out to the Lord to "save him".

Holman Christian Standard Bible
But when he saw the strength of the wind, he was afraid. And beginning to sink he cried out, "Lord, save me!" 

Now, most people see he sunk cause his faith was small. I see He had to test the Word of God cause Messiah had not fully convienced Him yet. When we have to test because we do not want to decieve or be decieved and The Power of his Word puts us in places we can not sustain under our own power, we have to cry out. We are men not Gods.

New International Version
Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of little faith," he said, "why did you doubt?"

The Lord always hears our cry and saves.

He must have had a pretty convincing cried out pretty well for just sinking into the water. I think we're on the same page with this, however my faith is certainly being tested through the things I have done. On a few occasions including last nighg I have prayed, fine, don't heal me, but let your presense be known, let me feel your love, is my quote from last night. Peter is afraid to get wet and he's immediately there, I would be lying if I didnt say my faith has been shaken.

[kwikphilly]

Blessings PaulTimothy

     You have no idea what I may or may not be going through at this time,perhaps sickness or disease that I do not choose to claim over myself but rather to "speak life" & "rest" in the Lord,,,,,,,yes,it is true,,,,I have been delivered of the terminal cancer ,,,,,,,but that is all I have shared with you at this time.........so please,don't tell me that my "secured confidence" is because I was healed of that cancer,,,,,My friend,my secured confidence came long before I was healed,it came from the Holy Spirit that I am indwelled by,,,,it comes straight from Jesus & His Word

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you have first hand experience with the utmost relief and thanks as I would too. However you can't expect someone to feel the way you feel because of your experience.

Relief & Thanksgiving was inside of me the moment I was diagnosed with the cancer,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Relief & Thanksgiving is my life more abundant because Jesus abides in me & I am His,,,,,,,,,,,receiving Healing was a bonus,now,,,,,what I am going through I will be sure to share with you & everyone else when the manifestation of that Healing comes to me,,,,,,,,,,I give God Glory,Praise,Honor & Thanksgiving because He will never leave me nor will He forsake me..............When I am 100% restored I will be happy but I am already rested,confident & filled with Joy,,,,,,,,,,,there is nothing we must DO except Wait with great expectation ,Praise & Thank Him,,,,,,,,He already heard me the first time I asked.....................

I do expect you to feel as I do because I have testified  & because we are members of the very Same Body with Christ as our HEAD,,,,,,,,,,,The Same Jesus lives in you that lives in me and all my strength ,confidence,trust,,,comes from Him,,,,,with the Heart & Mind of Jesus that same Eternal mindedness is yours too,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,it is the carnal mind that is anxious,,,,,,,,The Body of Christ should be of like mind & judgement,we share to encourage one another & to confirm by our eye witness testimony what we should already know,to Trust in the Lord & enter into His Rest ,,,,,,,                  Love,Kwik

[Reinitin]

1 hour ago, PaulTimothy said:

He must have had a pretty convincing cried out pretty well for just sinking into the water. I think we're on the same page with this, however my faith is certainly being tested through the things I have done. On a few occasions including last nighg I have prayed, fine, don't heal me, but let your presense be known, let me feel your love, is my quote from last night. Peter is afraid to get wet and he's immediately there, I would be lying if I didnt say my faith has been shaken.

Can i share 2 more things with you? I may go off track cause I most likely clueless:)

[servantofGod]

On Saturday, December 19, 2015 at 1:24 AM, PaulTimothy said:

So this is a very long story but I am going to make it as short as I possibly can. 

I must also apologize I am new, this is my first post, and I am unaware of the political/religious beliefs/boundaries you all have. I'm also not sure if this was the correct place to post something like this.

In June I was diagnosed with an incurable disease and it has basically devastated every part of my life. I have put my life on pause for now as I am on a spiritual journey. 

My past consists of a very spirit filled family but much tragedy. My family used to consist of a pretty good number of people but because of disease many people died far too early. All of these tragedies happened before I was born but all of the miraculous events also happened before I was born. So the faith I have always had was more like "belief." Which consisted of the basics.

Fast forward 25 years, I myself am a chemical engineer, so when I found out I was sick I intially turned to my mind and exhausted every possible option that mankind has to offer which left me back at square 1. 

I figured I was like the story of the guy who gets lost at sea and prays to God to save him, while a boat and a kayak come up to pull the guy out of the water, he says no no God will save me, he drowns, asks God why he didn't save him and God says, I tried.

So I turned to God in September which was in the midst of what can only be described as the worst depression that you can imagine. I lost 30 pounds in a mater of a couple weeks, wasnt eating, was so anxious I couldnt sleep for days, I would pace like a lion at home, constant racing thoughts and I was so suicidal I thought of myself as too worthless to even kill myself, all I would be is a further burden. 

Fast forward a bit, saw a counselor which helped and started to meet with multiple religious figures and spiritual learders weekly. So I went further into it (faith). My prayer life started to increase and things, coincidences, which I hear don't exist with people of faith, started to happen regularly. 

Thankfully my family has ties to many still living spiritual people, one in particular, prayed for me and in the middle busted out in tongues which I had never experienced or heard before and he was the only person I had a physical manifestation from after his prayer, 5 or 6 surges, kind of like goosbumps, but very quickly all in a row. I had further medical testing done which could not pick up the previously detected disease, however still left room for error.

I took to scripture as I did science, reading and researching, studying all I could. After enough preparation I performed a self-deliverance which rid me of all the voices and constant thoughts in my head. Which I was told sounds like a successful deliverance.

I prayed, almost constantly, almost every waking moment of the day I was praying or studying scripture. "Things" really started to happen (which if anyone cares to know I'll post as a response I have a directive for right now). 

I had joined a bible study group and they had been pushing me to be baptized for weeks and weeks. I was resistant, I was still somewhat suicidal, and when I make a commitment to something as big as baptism I don't quit, and my battle wasnt that I could quit on God, but quit on life. I also wanted it to be genuine, I didn't want to feel like I was using God to get something, which I really was all in all, but I didnt want it to feel thag way. I eventually was baptized in late Oct/early Nov. 

I started to research about the gifts of the holy spirit, a hot topic I soon learned, not something openly talked about. I wanted these gifts, I coveted them. Not because I wanted more from God but because, -

Im not acquainted with any of you but if you have ever had something happen to you that no one can do anything about, where divine intervantion is your only option, and don't say your grandma or even your kid was sick yadda yadda, I know these things are sad, but rhere js something different when it happens to you, something innately different. This caused me to change, my whole perspective on life, you appreciate anything and everything, I havent driven in my car with the music on in 6 months, so I can look outside, feel and smell the air, your desires, aspirations, goals, and dreams all change -

but because I wanted to help people. My family had two miracles happen, both to people who sadly died of other things not too long after, but both were miraculously healed of things with no medical expliantion. I not only wanted to be healed but I wanted to spread the love and the possibilities and the power that is God.

Just before thanksgiving I began speaking in tongues, so for all you doubters, its real, its not fake, and I have even recorded and looked up some phrases that I noticed I kept repeating, and they turned out to be real words in other languages. These languages changed, from Italian all the way to Japanese. Mind you all I speak is a little bit if German, and fluent English and pig latin....ha.

I was practicing this daily, yes you can voluntarily do it, its some not power that takes over your body, I would do it and shortly after I would be exhausted no matter what time it was and I would have vivid dreams if I spoke in tongues before I fell asleep. For me to remember my dreams was highly unusual. Then I started to do it less and almost not at all last week.

Then last Friday I decided to do it right before I went to sleep, I didnt do it for very long, just something quick and I ended up having the most intense dream I have ever had. A dream within a dream, which I have never had before, and it had the D....the devil in it. (A pretty detailed summary of that I also have if you're interested and I would be interested especially if someone on here has the ability to interpret dreams). 

So now what I wrote all of this for, I am looking for a legitimate, credible, person with the gift of healing. Not exactly found in the yellow pages. Don't direct me to any of these televangelists, Binny Hinn, and all his wannabees. These people are frauds, Matthew 10:8 "Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give." Jesus was humble, he didn't broadcast his abilities, his apostles did, the believers did, and he didn't turn anyone away. 

I have found some in my couple months of searching. These are people you won't find on TV or on the news or in a legal investigation. These are humble quiet people in regular houses with no microphones, no radio stations, and lead the average life.

The man who prayed over me believes he has the gift of healing. I found an elderly woman who has documented healings near me. I also found out about a lutheran pastor on the East coast after pulling my own pastor's teeth if he knew someone, apparently he knows another but this guy's job could be injeopardy if it got out. Apparently much of the modern church is against people being relieved of suffering at the hand of those blessed with spreading the work of God.

I live in the Chicago suburbs, so in that general area would be nice, but this isnt just finding a good pizza place, this is to ascertain a miracle, I'll go anywhere.

If you would need to contact me perosnally we can figure that out, not sure how lol, but I don't intend on having anyone's name blasted out who prefers privacy.

Thank you for your time, this platform, and your help. God bless.

God bless you, there is nothing God can not do. What is impossible before men is possible with God- Luke 18 V 27-And he said, The things which are impossible with men are possible .with God.

Jesus said and meant this: John 14 V 12 -Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father.

If you would not mind, pm me, I am not a pastor but by His Grace, I am a servant of God who has the gift of deliverance and healing. And God has been using me for that purpose since 2010.

-Mathew 10 V 1- And when he had called unto him his twelve disciples, he gave them power against unclean spirits, to cast them out, and to heal all manner of sickness and all manner of disease.


By His Grace, distance is not a barrier to His work- Isaiah 59 V 1-Behold, the LORD's hand is not shortened, that it cannot save; neither his ear heavy, that it cannot hear:

Remember, God is not wicked- Mathew 5 V 11

 

 

 

 

Edited February 1, 2016 by servantofGod

[Eha]

On Saturday, December 19, 2015 at 11:24 AM, PaulTimothy said:

Just before thanksgiving I began speaking in tongues, so for all you doubters, its real, its not fake,

Father told me - everyone get it.
( if anyone try to bring example about Paul's words - does everyone heal... - Father told me Paul is VERY CORRECT and he was talking about MEETING - THERE NOT EVERYONE heal, prophecy or what ever (yes i have that experience). its not that not everyone heal - because Jesus words are true and DONT change - who believe, heals. period.)

im not even near you. 
i did heal several times, but honestly - Father did lead me and each case was one of kind, different from previous. 
i talk with Father every day, i ask Him advice.
just consider one thing more - if that disease did come back (right? i just learn english) it may be just lesson for you - im pretty sure it is. what can i say? what ever you do - NEVER surrender fear. until you seek, until you dont give up (even that strength Holy Spirit give you every morning new), you dont need to be afraid of, that "accident" happens and you die, because didnt find answers. i know about it for SURE - it WONT HAPPEN until you UNDERSTAND yours lesson - is it "how" or "why".
Father told me, that HE dont let die anyone, who seek Him and truth. He didnt let me die. and yes  i have my documents also  

[Leonardo Von]

Dear brother PaulTimothy,

Grace and mercy and Peace from our lord Jesus Christ.

On 1/11/2016 at 4:31 PM, Reinitin said:

ow, the scripture also lets us know God has a purpose and plan for all our struggles, affliction, suffering so if you understand that too by reading and believing your mind is at peace in every circustance and you learn to wait on the Lord instead of running back to the word when you face struggles.

I agree with everything Sister Reinitin said. And I would like to add that everything that happens in your life is centered on what the Eternal has designed for you (not what you desire):

 

·        “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [ his ] purpose.” (Romans 8.28).

 

To illustrate this, see what John saw in Revelation:

 

o   The four animals were in the middle of and around the throne (Revelation 4.6).

o   The Lamb was in the middle of the throne (Revelation 5: 6).

o   The twenty-four elders are around the throne (Revelation 4: 4);

o   River of Life proceeds from the throne (Revelation 22: 1).

o   Before the throne seven lamps burn (Revelation 4.5).

o   Before the throne was the sea of glass (Revelation 4.6).

o   Before the throne in the sea of glass were the foolish virgins (Revelation 15: 2) worshiping the Eternal and showing His justice, judgments, ways and deeds to all.

o   Before the throne the Gentiles who died from the bowls in the Great Tribulation serve the Eternal in His sanctuary (Revelation 7:15).

o   Around the throne, the 24 elders and the 4 living creatures are the angels (Rev. 5.11) flying over the entire assembly of the righteous, covering it with its shadow.

 

Notice how all things were positioned in relation to the throne of the Eternal.

This is to teach us that even when everything seems to be getting out of control, we can rejoice (as did Habakkuk – Habakkuk 3.17-19), assured that:

 

·        “I know that thou canst do every [ thing ], and [ that ] no thought can be withholden from thee.” (Job 42.2)

·        Yea, before the day [ was ] I [ am ] he; and [ there is ] none that can deliver out of my hand: I will work, and who shall let it?

 

May Jesus give us humility to receive his correction so that we may produce many peaceful fruits of justice:

 

·        “And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him: for whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not? But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons. Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected [ us ], and we gave [ them ] reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live? For they verily for a few days chastened [ us ] after their own pleasure; but he for [ our ] profit, that [ we ] might be partakers of his holiness. Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.” (Hebrew 13.5-11).

[JTC]

Welcome to the board PaulTimothy, I read all of your first post but I didn't read this entire thread. So maybe I misunderstood you but if I didn't then since you were told you're sick you have been seeking God which you weren't doing before that. I have health problems too and actually I've always had them. I don't know why God allows these things but I do think He uses illness to draw us closer to Him. That seems to be what's happening with you. Ever since you were told you're ill your life is very concerned with God. At least that much is a good thing. All I can say is keep seeking God. That's what I do.

God Bless you.