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I was talking to some brothers and they talk about what is biblical and how to discern biblical material. Some can't tell what is biblical because some say it based solely on the truth but others say that truth from the world. Like saying material and real world standards ? Others on what the prophets say ? Or what God and his standards but as I talk to people I notice they do not know and sometimes they don't realize what is the correct way to say what is biblical becuase for some just saying verses and if they say it in english it is not how it is said in hebrew and meaning changed. I have met those obstacles but some brothers have said things like the examples what said and others said things that are not even biblical and some says standards from the world that they said they should count. Wish to talk so we can go and put things in biblical standards and put God's standards and how he wants he's will shown how biblically we must find what he will judge it. We will see thru love that he says it, sometimes love is biblical way and it is how you discern it. Then we will see thru law and see that sometimes the strictness of law is for a purpose. I have the verses and will find people that biblical discern isn't always that verses agree with each other but to find God's will and discern and will find hiddes things and secrets of the bible ! We need to go and see God's logic and not our own because God is not like us and he a being who is higher than us. And what he wants sometimes is that we have tests and pass time sometimes and wait so we can be worthy and do his will. It is hard tings we talk but thru going thru hard things and tests in life God will reveal to us his secrets. Please give your opinion and soon will post verses and know that he's will and love is how he uses for us to discern wisdom and from wisdom of the bible or biblical wisdom we can use to find the method that is God's that he's biblical way and correct perception. I know the right perception he has and truth,love, and discerning his will according to what he wants sometimes we must go thru the hard things of the bible !

We start from the beggining when Adam was giving the power to name the animals G-d gave him freewill to choose Genesis 2:20. 20 The man gave names to all livestock and to the birds of the heavens and to every beast of the field. But for Adam there was not found a helper fit for him. Here G-d gives Adam gives him ability to think for himself and he decide the animals name. There is difference from the freewill Hebrew people back in the days of Noah and Moses when the law was directed to G-d's people they had freewill to decide. Their decision is under the law because they did not know other religions or ways they were narrowminded but still the decision from good and evil existed. Did the errors of their fathers before them I mean the fall of Adam stopped them making decisions in their life. Israel did what they want based still of need of surviving. Killing, eating, proceating needs of humanity but no matter what the error of Adam did not take freewill from them. Romans 7:19 “For the good that I want, I do not do, but I practice the very evil that I do not want.” Ezekiel 18:20 “The person who sins will die. The son will not bear the punishment for the father’s iniquity, nor will the father bear the punishment for the son’s iniquity; the righteousness of the righteous will be upon himself, and the wickedness of the wicked will be upon himself.” Psalm 110:2 "Your people will volunteer freely in the day of Your power; In holy array, from the womb of the dawn, Your youth are to You as the dew." From the day pagans evolved into modern world and establish their own way. Even thou they seperated from their pagan worhsip Rome forced them to mix their deities and influence with christianism and robbed the followers of Christ of Jesus and they painted him white. Named the G-d of Israel to Zeus and change their panteon. Hebrew law or mosaic law reminds people to obey but G-d has taken prophets to save and do the will of G-d in wars, missions, and choosing good and evil. They break the law in disobeying G-d, prophets like Jeremiah who chose G-d disobey tradition and his father and told Israel their errors and love for the temple forgotten the temple inside they are made of. Kick Jeremiah out of their circle rejected from society he continued, we have Moses who was ordered by God to pray to the rock and water will come out but Moses disobey and changes things and hit the rock. This angered God and told him he will not enter the promise land. Moses change what God said changed the destiny israel had to had an error while using the word of God, Numbers 20:6-12 we have Huldah who made mistake in prophecy which A king said he was going to die A peaceful death 2 Chronicles 34:28 and then he died by arrows and had horrible mistake 2 Chronicles 35:22-24. Here linkhttps://www.neverthirsty.org/bible-qa/qa-archives/question/do-prophets-of-god-make-mistakes-sometimes/ also Elijah who said Acab will die in one place and Acab did not die according to what Elijah said. 1 Kings 22:1-40 This what shows that destiny changed and the lord allowed it happen he can rewind and move it but he did not becuase he has A plan of God. Still people can change their course in life if mistake happened like those times of moses. We can change our destiny by failure of men and women who with God prophecy was shown here with Moses and Huldah. Not saying you should make the same mistaek as they did for not God's fault even if moses and huldah with words change the future of Israel and changed the destiny God adjusted to show he forgives moses and Huldah and those did happen. Destiny of your life being a poor shoesales man, poor garbageman, and what you see in your future can always change but ask God for it and do not make the mistakes Moses and Huldah did. James 2:12 "So speak and so act as those who are to be judged by the law of liberty." 2 Corinthians 3:17 "Now the Lord is the Spirit, and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty." And Greeks influence the time of jesus that people like Luke wrote his book in the bible and later Catholic church not knowing fully Hebrew culture copied things from greeks and influence the bible. Remember they were not G-d's people but A country that stoled and wrote their intrepretation of G-d and took Jesus as an emblema that is not real. Greek theology is freedom and rationalist thought, Hebrew people is Law and Relation with the one G-d. Greeks have influence the modernworld and gives them right, the western world copies Greek and Roman culture and their diffinity in their laws have given the modern topic freewill. So freewill clashes with freewill in the old times. That is why everything has to do with predestination, Calvanism go ahead and read see all our versions of choosing good and evil have consequences but still you decide your future. There are 2 fields :indeterminism and determinism explain modern freewill and both give notion of control. Indeterminism means free acts are not determine in other words what you do with works does not foretold your future and the path you have chosen. Determinism says everything you do has already decided your future and you have no career. Nothing can change your destiny but G-d can. Matthew 12:37 “For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.” God's general sovereignty- says god is in charge of everything but doesn't control everything God's specific sovereignty- says that He not only has ordained everything, but He also controls everything. Proverbs 16:9 “The mind of the man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps. Proverbs 3:5-6"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight."

I've have studied scripture for more than 20 years now and read and seen pastors explaining the end times and seen protestant end times explained by Witnesses of Jehova, Adventist, and Pentecostal. Also seen Catholic church end times explained can we delay the end times to save more people ? We cannot stop God's will I agree God ends this world their is too much violence and death ! But still their so many of gentiles and people who still don't know the word of God and are not saved. We are in an age were television and radio can get anywhere. And preaching the word can save millions of life and on this planet their are more than 2 billion christians and it could be good if we can get to 4 billion or 5 billion. Really would like that then the end can come. But reality the bible says we do not know the hour or time when Jesus arrives but we have signs from revelations and we know he is coming and closer of this world ends and Jesus arrival to save this world will be God's will. But if we go right now to end times their will be 2 billion at most saved that is a good number but we do remember that Earth's population there are 8 billion people alive and that number ;-; 6 billion could be judged and will not enter the kingdom. It hurts me to see 6 billion cannot enter and people you know will not enter the kingdom. God is good that we have so many that are believers and perhaps it could be that 3 billion or 4 billion get saved the most we do not know. And some of you will say it's okay they decided their life it's their fault they cannot enter. It is not fair to say that when so many suffered and so many died so people can be saved by Jesus Christ. We just say they made their decision but those christians that became christian thru hard times they went thru drugs had hard tiems and their family suffer and sacrifice everything for them know more love was giving to them and God gave more and some of them want more people because they know they have been tricked and the world fools ya. Some pastors out there want more christians because they know Jesus wanted all of them of them and he's blood covers all of them. He asked us to save all of them but because of our own ego's and fears we don't want to. Some women I know in my church wants all of them to be saved because she didn't went thru drugs but got thru divorce and family promblems and realized how much people suffer and people don't realize the sufferment ?

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God has great wrath for the unrighteous, ungodly and unrepentant, but great mercy and kindness to those who embrace His beloved Son Jesus Christ for the remission of sins. Romans 1 [18] For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who suppress the truth in unrighteousness, (NKJV) Revelation 21 [6] And he said unto me, It is done. I [Jesus] am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. I will give unto him that is athirst of the fountain of the water of life freely. [7] He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son. [8] But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death. (KJV)

JOHN 3:16 "For God so LOVED the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." KING JAMES VERSION (KJV)

God is a Father, Jesus is not. God deals with elders who are overseers of families for this reason. We love Jesus as He is mercifully dealing with mankind and He teaches us daily. If we look for Him...He will be there doing something amazing, valiant or merciful. But we can still go to God, ask Him what issues He is dealing with on earth for mankind. These are important designations we can discover, which make our relationship with Creator more fluid in everyway. Amen.

And why did he drink the sour wine vinegar before his death on the cross? This part of the gospels has been confusing me lately and I have been struggling to understand what he meant Matthew 26:29- 29 But I say unto you, I will not drink henceforth of this fruit of the vine, until that day when I drink it new with you in my Father's kingdom. Mark 14:25- 25 Verily I say unto you, I will drink no more of the fruit of the vine, until that day that I drink it new in the kingdom of God. Luke 22:18- 18 For I say unto you, I will not drink of the fruit of the vine, until the kingdom of God shall come.

We talk seldom about emotions. All our discussions, explanations advices, arguments are logical. Yes we think logically and don´t care about our emotions. Also our problems and their solutions we understand logically. Advices we tell logically. We don´t tell that we feel injustice, but we tell that somebody harmed us. We don´t tell that we feel degradation, but we tell that somebody critizised us. We don´t say that we are unhappy, but we say we lost. Advices are also logical. If we do something, we will have something. And there are so many advices, that we don´t know which one we should use. But our lifes we live trough emotions. And it doesn´t matter if happiness makes us nice car or nice natur. And doesn´t matter if our team lose in match, or our wife scream on us, anyhow we feel bad. If we are happy, we don´t care, that it is good. But if we are unhappy we don´t know how to change it to good mood. Even it is easy. It´s enough to ask God to help us remove bad emotion from our hearts and we will feel better. Therefore I suggest that we talk more about emotions, about our problems and life situation from emotion point of view and this way we can easy solve problems with removing bad emotions from our hearts. Than world will be better.

Hi. I’m so scared. About two weeks ago I started having cursing thoughts because I read verses about cursing in the Bible for example :- Genisis 9:25 he said, "Cursed be Canaan! The lowest of slaves will he be to his brothers." and 1 Corinthians 12:3 Wherefore I give you to understand, that no man speaking by the Spirit of God calleth Jesus accursed: and that no man can say that Jesus is the Lord, but by the Holy Ghost. these verses triggered me and I then started having thoghts in my head saying “curse” and I started getting tempted to think them about people and then I started praying to Jesus and then started getting tempted to think them about Him. I don’t feel emotions for Jesus and I don’t feel like connection and stuff with Him and it triggered me to think stuff. my head has been doing it for like over a week and I’m scared incase because I tube it hardened my heart. I’m scared because anyone I look at or think another my head gets tempted to think it about them. And Jesus. i want my heart to be soft for Him. (I received Him 10/11months ago I’m sure) But prayed to the Father most of the time until a few months ago. im scared for my soul. ? I asked Jesus for help all week and I’m scared because last night I read this verse:- Ecclesiastes 10:20 Even in your thoughts, do not curse the king, nor in your bedroom curse the rich, for a bird of the air will carry your voice, or some winged creature tell the matter. im always in my bedroom - barley leave it. my thoghts have been cursing Jesus is king Christians are rich and my head thoghts cursing thoghts. I don’t know what to do. I’m terrified. I’m scared about my standing with God. I want to be saved. I want to be with God.? I don’t even know if He’s with me. I’m scared because of the cursing thoghts and because of the state of the heart and Jesus and the thoghts about Him. thanks for reading

At the end of Genesis 1 God observes his creation and concludes: 'And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good.' (vs 31a) So everything God had made was very good, hallelujah! Although i wonder what you brothers and sisters think, why He in chapter 2:8 thought it was necessary to plant a garden for Adam to put in? 'And the LORD God planted a garden eastward in Eden; and there he put the man whom he had formed.' (Gen.2:8) Thank you for thinking with me about these Bible verses. Love, God bless you. (Is this the right string for Gen.2:8? Please replace if not.)

I think I’ve been living in ungodliness and didn’t realise it. I don’t think I was living to honour God. This is the video I watched:- Because I think I was living to honour myself and not God I’m worried incase I used Gods grace as a lisence tk sin because I’ve complained a lot I’m scared incase Gods angry at me. The video I watched says that some Christians have their hearts surrendered to Jesus and they still struggle sometimes and then there’s their people who are ungodly and aren’t living to honour God but to themselves I’m scared so I am. I’ve complained in my head so much like every day and I spend all day on my phone and I didn’t think about living to honour God. I didn’t even think. The video said that some have the show of a Christian but it ungodly and fellowship with Christians. I fellowship with Christians online and I quote scriptures all the time and think about God. But I haven’t been living to honour Him. The video also said people twist the gospel to fit their own flesh. I have been angry in my head and complained in my head and lay in my bed all day. I haven’t really been acting the godliest and because of ocd thoghts always running through my head I find it hard to talk trying to tame my thoughts every second and sometimes I speak in a non gentle way and it looks really rude. I don’t think I’ve been serving God. Jesus scares me all the time so I find it hard to feel emotion and focus on Him. I go on my phone all day every day and stay in my bed all day and barley leave my room because idk what else to do. I have nowhere to go nothing to do. I have bad OCD intrusive thoughts so I haven’t prayed to God properly in like 2 weeks. I struggle with unwanted sinful thoughts. would Jesus even want me to pray to Him if I don’t feel emotion for Him. I don’t know how to surrender my heart to Hin and I don’t know how to deny myself or take up my cross and follow Him. I don’t know what Gods will is. I’m scared incase Gods angry at me. please help thank you for reading ?

Hello Friends, sisters and Brothers! My name is Tomek, I am from Poland. A week ago I started a project on YouTube, it's called "Touch of Jesus" and its aim is to invite lost souls on YouTube to spend a few minutes meeting with Jesus. Every day there will be a 10-minute video (almost static graphic with silent music). A link to today's movie is provided at the end of this post. And a request to you: would you help me promote this channel? (subscribe/like/shere) I really want Jesus to be known and loved by every person in the world. (Sorry for my English, I'm just learning and I'm still making a lot of mistakes) God bless you!

In the Bible, some of the main characters often have a pastoral/spiritual guide to get Godly guidance or to get a better understanding of God's Will. King Saul --had--> Prophet Samuel King David --had--> Prophet Nathan King Hezekiah --had--> Prophet Isaiah Even some major evil characters had pastoral/spiritual guides King Ahab --had--> Prophet Elijah I suppose the following association is probably really really weak but if you consider John The Baptist's water baptizing Jesus Christ then Jesus Christ --probably had--> John The Baptist as a sort of guide if you take the water baptism into consideration but this is really a weak argument In any case, I don't want to kind of stray away from what my real question is going to be. When does a Christian person go directly to God Himself , and when does said person go to a pastoral/spiritual guide to get Godly guidance or to get a better understanding of God's Will ? One of the reasons that I ask said question is because (Mark 15:37-38) 37 And Jesus uttered a loud cry, and breathed His last. 38 And the veil of the temple was Torn in two from top to bottom. Jesus Christ's death on The Cross allows us to approach God directly. Furthermore, I really do Not want to keep approaching pastoral/spiritual guides as if they were soothsayers/seers/fortune teller all the time. Therefore, When does a Christian person go directly to God Himself , and when does said person go to a pastoral/spiritual guide to get Godly guidance or to get a better understanding of God's Will ?

John 17:3- And this is eternal life, that they know Thee the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom Thou hast sent.

Hi I’ve been a Christian for over 7 months and the whole time I’ve had very strong emotions/ feeling of love and affection for God. Then like 2 weeks ago I went through a lot of stress and stuff and unwilful sin (bad blasphemous thoughts triggered by fear of unpardonable sin) I complained in my head a lot and even blamed God and got angry at him I think. I was like this for days. For over a week and maybe two, icr, I kept on complaining and thinking blaming thoughts about God and him not helping me and stuff ? I struggled with my relationship with God the whole time as a Christian. I’m not close to him and don’t really have a relationship with Jesus at all ? I feel like we don’t have long left here and it makes me worry for my family who need saved and .. It makes me feel scared condemned forced and pressured to pray to him all the time otherwise idk if I’ll ‘I’ll make it’ I’m scared of God and he scares me. It’s hard to pray when I don’t really feel anything (emotion towards him ) I also read that if you don’t love God you don’t get to be with him and that puts me under more pressure. I asked God for my feeling and emotion back the feelings of strong love for him. I care about the emotions I had (affection and adoration) Because I don’t feel them they get replaced with other emotions like anger fear numb .... I also found out God the father and Jesus and the Holy Spirit have different personalities. I get confused on who to pray to or focus on more. i struggled to feel affection for Jesus before but felt it for God the father and it concerned me. I feel distant and God almost feels like a stranger now ? I feel like we don’t have much time left and I feel like my relationship with God isn’t the best ? thanks for reading ?

Earlier today I was talking to someone and the topic of religion and Christianity was brought up and the person asked me how do we know God is real, what is the evidence of God being "God". I explained with scripture and the FC of Jesus and all that good stuff but I just wanted to hear everyone else's knowledge on this topic. So, according to scripture, how do we know God is real?

As the title indicates, God's existence is a mathematical theorem within standard physics. Standard physics is the known laws of physics, viz., the Second Law of Thermodynamics, General Relativity, and Quantum Mechanics. This theorem has been given in the form of physicist and mathematician Prof. Frank J. Tipler's Omega Point cosmology. These aforestated known physical laws have been confirmed by every experiment conducted to date. Hence, the only way to avoid Tipler's Omega Point Theorem is to reject empirical science. As Prof. Stephen Hawking wrote, "one cannot really argue with a mathematical theorem." (From p. 67 of Stephen Hawking, The Illustrated A Brief History of Time [New York, NY: Bantam Books, 1996; 1st ed., 1988].) Prof. Tipler's Omega Point cosmology has been extensively peer-reviewed and published in a number of the world's leading physics and science journals, such as Reports on Progress in Physics (the leading journal of the Institute of Physics, Britain's main professional organization for physicists), Monthly Notices of the Royal Astronomical Society (one of the world's leading astrophysics journals), the International Journal of Theoretical Physics (a journal that Nobel Prize in Physics winner Richard Feynman also published in), and Physics Letters, among other journals. Prof. Tipler's Ph.D. is in the field of Global General Relativity, which is the field created by Profs. Stephen Hawking and Roger Penrose during the formulation of their Singularity Theorems in the 1960s. Global General Relativity is General Relativity applied on the scale of the entire universe as a whole, and is the most elite and rarefied field of physics. Tipler is also an expert in quantum field theory (i.e., Quantum Mechanics combined with special-relativistic particle physics) and computer theory. For much more on Prof. Tipler's Omega Point cosmology and the details on how it uniquely conforms to, and precisely matches, the cosmology described in the New Testament, see my following article, which also addresses the societal implications of the Omega Point cosmology: * James Redford, "The Physics of God and the Quantum Gravity Theory of Everything", Social Science Research Network (SSRN), Sept. 10, 2012 (orig. pub. Dec. 19, 2011), 186 pp., doi:10.2139/ssrn.1974708, https://archive.org/download/ThePhysicsOfGodAndTheQuantumGravityTheoryOfEverything/Redford-Physics-of-God.pdf , https://purl.org/redford/physics-of-god , https://webcitation.org/74HMsJGbP . Additionally, in the below resource are different sections which contain some helpful notes and commentary by me pertaining to multimedia wherein Prof. Tipler explains the Omega Point cosmology and the Feynman-DeWitt-Weinberg quantum gravity/Standard Model TOE. * James Redford, "Video of Profs. Frank Tipler and Lawrence Krauss's Debate at Caltech: Can Physics Prove God and Christianity?", alt.sci.astro, Message-ID: jghev8tcbv02b6vn3uiq8jmelp7jijluqk[at sign]4ax[period]com , July 30, 2013, https://groups.google.com/forum/#!topic/alt.sci.astro/KQWt4KcpMVo , https://archive.is/a04w9 , https://webcitation.org/6IUTAMEyS .

This is a great video on explaining the Godhead of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, Blessed Trinity. He covers terms like Co-Equal, Co-Substantial and what it all means.

Here is just a question along with my thoughts, that I would love to get answers to! I know that a lot of places in the Bible say do not put the Lord your God to the test. However I found a verse Malachi 3:10 Bring all the tithes into the storehouse, that there maybe food in my house, and try me now in this,"says the Lord of hosts, "if I will not open for you the windows of heaven and pour out for you such blessing that there will not be room enough to receive it. Now I realized that this is a different kind of testing. We see here that God is asking us to test him. I also realized it was talk about offerings. Now I kind of question is this kind of testing by faith that makes it different from the other type of testing? There are two stories I would like to contrast First one When Jesus was tempted by Satan, Satan told him if he was the son of God to turn the stone into bread. But Jesus replied to Satan you shall not put the Lord to the test( I am not quoting the same exact thing, just keeping it general). Now in this story we know that it's kind of absurd to ask God to turn stone into bread ( not saying that that can't happen). Obviously God was there with a purpose and Satan was to deter him. So in this case it would be like when Satan again tested him by telling him to throw himself and that God will send his angels to save him! The way I understood this kind of testing is putting yourself in a situation on purpose to ask God to get you out would be testing God! which is wrong! Now the second story We read about this man named Gideon. An Angel approched him telling him he will save isreal at of the hands of the midianites. Now keep in mind that a lot of the times it says the Lord spoke to Gideon...so Gideon decided to put the Lord to the test three times. First one was when the Lord set fire Gideon's offerings. The second time was when the Lord made a dew on the fleece and not seen on the ground. The third one was vice versa. So my thinking here is Gideon asked him or tested him so that he could have faith in him and be encouraged. However, if we were to test God the way Gideon did in which kind of situations are we allowed? What are your thoughts on the difference between these two? If possible use examples? Thank you and God bless! Your brother in Christ Keny

The reason I ask is because as we all know, 'Thou shalt not kill' is one of the Ten Commandments. I do understand just how horrendously brutal Osama bin Laden was, but does that excuse those who played a role in his death from punishment?

If a person becomes a Christian because of a tragedy (like seeing someone drown e.g) did God sacrifice a person for that purpose, and is that a bad thing ?

How do you know if you're hearing from the Holy Spirit or if its just other people's frequencies that you're tapping into? How do you know it's not other people's spirit that you're connecting with?

Hi there! I am going to start off by giving a bit of a backstory, and please hear me out by reading all of this because I am in dire need right now. I grew up in a lovely home with Baptist parents who attended church every Sunday. However, I hit very traumatic times at about 7 years old, and now I am 16, going on 17, and my life is healing from the trauma of divorced parents, dealing with calling defax on my own mother for emotional, verbal, and sometimes physical abuse, hating my father for years due to my mother calling him unworthy every chance she got- only to find that my father did everything he could to make me realize he meant no harm, and all the mental issues which came with these life experiences. Shortly after turning 12, four years into my nearly 10-year real-life conflict, I found myself falling far from God. Although I had become fully saved according to the Baptist faith and believed with all my heart that God was my savior and my all at age 10, I fell far from Him only two years later. Two years later, at 12, and hardly 12 at that, I text my friend late one summer night. "I don't know that I believe in God anymore," I sent her, crying my eyes out because all I needed right then was someone to pull me back to God and say that I needed to hold on. I desperately needed someone to grab my ears and pull me up saying, "Hello!! Jesus is alive! He is alive! And He loves you more than you'll ever comprehend!" But, the reality was far from this. My friend responds less than a minute later. "I am an Atheist." My heart dropped at the message. But... strangely enough, it later was found with relief. I felt ACCEPTANCE for falling from Him! It sounds crazy because it is. I researched for a long time, mainly in the wrong places, and I found myself to identify as an Atheist. This lasted for years, all the way until a month or so ago to be frank. I am going to be 17 in July and going into the 12th grade next year, and I believe this all happened in the summer of going into 6th or 7th grade, which would have put me at 11 or 12. So for 5, possibly 6, years I have been very lost and falling blind of God. I fell into believing I was transgender, from female to male, to believing I was gay and dating a girl almost a full year. Many, many tragic things followed this initial start of trauma when my parents got a divorce at 7 years old. Now, having all that said... I still feel a strong incomplete pit in my life, this being my relationship with God. I still question my sexuality today. I believe that being abused for all those years led me to believe I was homosexual because beforehand, I never EVER questioned my sexuality. I was your typical "boy-crazy" little girl who would go to their mom after school and say, "Guess what mommy! [Enter name here] talked to me today! I was so nervous!" I can tell you confidently now that I know I am a beautiful, straight female who deserves just as much as everyone else. In my heart, I feel that. However, I hesitate to answer so confidently in person because it takes denying my past conflictions to find my true self deep within me that, yes, I am that person. For a long time I denied this person that I was because of the many times my mother would tell me that I wasn't her daughter, I wasn't what she wanted, and I was a mistake through and through. I believe truly, within my heart, that abuse can cause lifetime problems such as this. Abuse, especially that in childhood, does not just affect your personality, your social life, and your way of coping with life situations. Abuse affects your lifestyle, your beliefs, and all the critical things of yourself. I am stuck. My ex-best friend and I started talking recently. We grew up together and shortly after I went from a true Christian to Atheist, we fell apart from one another. In the past month, we found each other via social media and I have come to find, not to my surprise, that she is still very faithful and connected to God. Even when we were little and very close, I was inspired by her connection with God and trust in Him, despite our different beliefs. She was raised Apostolic Pentecostal. I was raised Baptist. However, now that we have reconnected, I have caught her up with everything that happened to me in the past years that we haven't talked. She amazes me still at her immaculate trust in God. She is now involved in leading many youth groups to teach the Bible to younger kids, as well as attending her own youth group herself. This makes me intrigued in her beliefs since I am currently not under any official belief besides that in which God does indeed exist. My mother is not much in the picture anymore, so I have free reign to explore all sorts of Christianity that I please without fear of being bashed or shunned for doing anything other than Baptism. I have been looking into Apostolic Pentecostal all day, trying to actually understand what the belief is all about compared to Baptism, since that is what I know best, and it makes so much more sense to me compared to what I grew up with. Is there anybody who is an Apostolic Pentecostal that could please help guide me and help me in understanding the beliefs? I am very intrigued by this way of praise and church-going. So please, if you read all of this, which I hope you did because it contributes so much to my reasoning behind this, and you are an Apostolic Pentecostal, please give me information on your beliefs and ways of praising and keeping faith. I am finding God again, and I do not plan on losing Him this time. Not again.