Recently Accepted Jesus christ as my savoir. Having trouble Getting ov

[reconsiled18602]

I recently Accepted Jesus as my lord and savoir . I reconnected with my church and reestablished my faith after years of agnostic atheism. The problem im having is i don't really feel as if im completely forgiven for my past sins. sometimes i fall into a downward spiral thinking about the bad things i have done, and feel as if im not forgiven. My past is very dark. during my teens i dealt with major depressive disorder and started losing hope in every aspect of my life (including god). i felt as if nobody cared about me and the thought of god existing was far-fetched and silly. The depression was horrible at times, sometimes even suicidal . As i went on i went down a pretty bad path .Feeling as bad as i did with no faith i turned to drugs alcohol and risky behavior . i experimented with tons of drugs got addicted to a few and was stealing like crazy . i also would spew blasphemy jokingly many times. The things i feel worst about was my addiction, stealing OTC drugs on a daily basis, having sex with a prostitute and experimenting sexually with another male. at the time i felt that there was no god and no consequences to my actions . Anyways im doing much better now . I reached a breaking point where i felt like if i continued the way i was going i would end up dead. I prayed for the first time since i was 15 and asked that if there was a god i would like to know him , and that im truly sorry for all my terrible action. immediately after praying i felt a presence of something. i cant explain it but i felt like god was there the whole time i was just ignoring him. i felt unconditionally loved for the first time. The first time i went back to the Methodist church i grew up in i burst into tears during the hymnals. i prayed as hard as i could and accepted that Jesus was my savoir and died for my sins on the cross. This was about 2 months ago and im clean and feeling much better. i have structure back in my life for the first time . im currently in a rehab program and going to the gym every day to keep busy . i Also am studying the bible every night and praying multiple times a day. Im trying to look at a bright future but sometimes i cant help but dwell on the past. The thoughts of the things iv'e done bring me to the point of anxiety attacks and crying spells, and the depression creeps in .sometimes I cant help but feel as if iv'e worn out gods grace and that im such a bad person i cant be forgiven.

Does anyone have any advice or insight to how i can get over my past. Am i Forgiven ? Are my sins washed away like the bible states?

please dont be judgmental towards my past actions i just want to be a better person  

[Willa]

Many have experienced your past as well as your present problems.

From the point you asked God to forgive you and cleanse you, and invited Him into your life, you became His child. Period.

Trust in God's word and His promises, not your feelings.

Continue to give problem areas to God and try to do the things God instructs you to do regarding them. Some things are bad habits and we need to retrain our thoughts, for instance. God is the One Who changes us. We can't change ourselves. But we can try to think on things that are good and lovely as in Phillipeans 4:4-8. This may mean turning off TV and internet things that get our thoughts going into the wrong places. There are many things we can do to prevent trouble.

Remember that the enemy of our souls, satan, is the accuser of the brethern. He is also the father of lies. So you don't have to listen to accusations or anything that contradicts God's Word. So start reading in the Book of John, then the other gospels--Mathew, Mark and Luke and rest of the new testament. I always use a crayon type highlighter to mark verses that help me.

When the Holy Spirit convicts us He does not condemn us. We just confess our sin and He cleanses us. Satan condemns us. So continue to cling to and rely upon God. He will never leave you or forsake you.

[kwikphilly]

Blessings reconciled!

      God Bless you dear Brother....m& what a perfect name you have chosen for yourself because that is exactly what you are......"YES" indeed,you are forgiven & I could never judge you or look down my Holy nose (LOL) because you sound like "Snow White "in comparison to where I have been & what a wretched sinner I once was........"YES"I tell you again,God's Grace is HUUUUGGGE & the Blood of Christ has made you Worthy,Acceptable,Spotless,Sinless,Holy,.Pleasing,Blameless,Sealed,Sanctified,Forgiven.....(shall I go on?)

       My Brother,there is a devil that wants so badly to to convince you that you are hopeless,unforgiven & damned to hell because then you just might say"what the heck,I am doomed anyways?"....That is sin condemnation & he tries that little scare tactic with everyone of us at one time or another,,,,but don't you listen to those lies...Jesus is The WAY,The TRUTH & The Life & in Him you are free from the bondage of those sins,Free In Christ......Open up the Book of John j& you get God's Word in you,that is the Sword of the Spirit my Brother,,,it is Gods Timeless Truth!The Book of John is exhiliarating ,read how much God loves you & KNOW IT,,,,,what you FEEL means nothing but what you KNOW is everything !

        Not one of us is Worthy to stand before the Throne of Grace but it is not about what we have done or have not done,it is ALL about what JESUS DID for us,,,,,,,He took or place & paid our debt,in full......With a repentant heart you have asked Jesus to forgive your sins,HE DID,you asked Him to be your Lord & Savior,HE IS.....Why?Because He loves you & you believe Who He is & that He gave His life for You & rose from the dead on the 3rd day!!!!!Halleluliah! Fear not,for He is with you & He will never leave nor will He forsake you & no one can take you from His Hand ,you are His

        Welcome to Gods Family,child of God,my Brother.........................You are Saved!

                                                                                                                                                                        With love-in Christ,Kwik

Well,I was the 1st one to reply & I see Willa got in there while I was typing .......you see,confirmation!My Sister & I have told you the same thing because it is Gods Truth! Rejoice!!!!!

[missmuffet]

I recently Accepted Jesus as my lord and savoir . I reconnected with my church and reestablished my faith after years of agnostic atheism. The problem im having is i don't really feel as if im completely forgiven for my past sins. sometimes i fall into a downward spiral thinking about the bad things i have done, and feel as if im not forgiven. My past is very dark. during my teens i dealt with major depressive disorder and started losing hope in every aspect of my life (including god). i felt as if nobody cared about me and the thought of god existing was far-fetched and silly. The depression was horrible at times, sometimes even suicidal . As i went on i went down a pretty bad path .Feeling as bad as i did with no faith i turned to drugs alcohol and risky behavior . i experimented with tons of drugs got addicted to a few and was stealing like crazy . i also would spew blasphemy jokingly many times. The things i feel worst about was my addiction, stealing OTC drugs on a daily basis, having sex with a prostitute and experimenting sexually with another male. at the time i felt that there was no god and no consequences to my actions . Anyways im doing much better now . I reached a breaking point where i felt like if i continued the way i was going i would end up dead. I prayed for the first time since i was 15 and asked that if there was a god i would like to know him , and that im truly sorry for all my terrible action. immediately after praying i felt a presence of something. i cant explain it but i felt like god was there the whole time i was just ignoring him. i felt unconditionally loved for the first time. The first time i went back to the Methodist church i grew up in i burst into tears during the hymnals. i prayed as hard as i could and accepted that Jesus was my savoir and died for my sins on the cross. This was about 2 months ago and im clean and feeling much better. i have structure back in my life for the first time . im currently in a rehab program and going to the gym every day to keep busy . i Also am studying the bible every night and praying multiple times a day. Im trying to look at a bright future but sometimes i cant help but dwell on the past. The thoughts of the things iv'e done bring me to the point of anxiety attacks and crying spells, and the depression creeps in .sometimes I cant help but feel as if iv'e worn out gods grace and that im such a bad person i cant be forgiven.

Does anyone have any advice or insight to how i can get over my past. Am i Forgiven ? Are my sins washed away like the bible states?

please dont be judgmental towards my past actions i just want to be a better person  

Sometimes it is harder to forgive ourselves than it is for Jesus to forgive us.Welcome to the world of being a believer in Jesus Christ the Risen son of God.You have a hope of an eternal life in heaven.Welcome brother to Worthy 

[kwikphilly]

Blessings reconciled!

     I just read something by George(owner of Worthy)& I thought of you. I think it will be a great blessing for you to read.......if you go over to Worthy Forums & then to the Inner Court,all the way on the bottom of the Inner Court is "Worthy Devotions"....the Title is "Take Your Thought Captive"........................God Bless you !

                                                                                                                                                           With love-in Christ,Kwik

[Guest]

Welcome~!

[Openly Curious]

Welcome to the family of God.  Here are some scripture to encourage you...

 

2 Corinthians 7:10 - For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of:  but the sorrow of the world worketh death.

(It is godly sorrow that leads one to repentace then salvation.  You have shared this testimony with us in your OP and we are witnesses of your confession of Christ before men.   The sorrow of the world does not lead one to repentance before God so they go on and do not call on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and be forgiven.  But it is God who leads one to repentance and salvation).

 

I hope you will read the rest of these in your spare time hopefully they will help.

 

Romans 12:1-3;  Philippians 3:6-21

[nebula]

Hello reconsiled!

 

This Psalm has ministered to me when I was weighed down by guilt:

 

Psalm 130

1 Out of the depths I have cried to You, O LORD.

2 Lord, hear my voice ! Let Your ears be attentive To the voice of my supplications.

3 If You, LORD, should mark iniquities, O Lord, who could stand ?

4 But there is forgiveness with You, That You may be feared.

5 I wait for the LORD, my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.

6 My soul waits for the Lord More than the watchmen for the morning ; Indeed, more than the watchmen for the morning.

7 O Israel, hope in the LORD ; For with the LORD there is lovingkindness, And with Him is abundant redemption.

8 And He will redeem Israel From all his iniquities.

 

 

Something you can do when those memories come back is to talk to God about them. Something like, "Father God, I am still feeling guilty about ...." Just share your heart with Him, like you did to us. Sometimes it helps to visualize yourself talking to Him. Imagine you are meeting with Jesus and simply talk to Him.

 

One of the hardest concepts to grasp is the fact that our righteousness - that is "right standing with God" - is not based on who we are and what we have done, but it is based on who Jesus is and what He has done! That's the principle of the atonement given us by Jesus' shed blood.

 

 

With that in mind, I believe the problem is that you have not forgiven yourself. I know this from personal experience, it is hard to receive and believe God's forgiveness when you hate yourself. How can God forgive me when I can't forgive me?

 

Try looking at yourself in the mirror, treating your reflection as another person, and declare to that reflection in the mirror, "I forgive you!" If it helps, include "forgive you for ___ ."

 

 

Blessings!

[enoob57]

I recently Accepted Jesus as my lord and savoir . I reconnected with my church and reestablished my faith after years of agnostic atheism. The problem im having is i don't really feel as if im completely forgiven for my past sins. sometimes i fall into a downward spiral thinking about the bad things i have done, and feel as if im not forgiven. My past is very dark. during my teens i dealt with major depressive disorder and started losing hope in every aspect of my life (including god). i felt as if nobody cared about me and the thought of god existing was far-fetched and silly. The depression was horrible at times, sometimes even suicidal . As i went on i went down a pretty bad path .Feeling as bad as i did with no faith i turned to drugs alcohol and risky behavior . i experimented with tons of drugs got addicted to a few and was stealing like crazy . i also would spew blasphemy jokingly many times. The things i feel worst about was my addiction, stealing OTC drugs on a daily basis, having sex with a prostitute and experimenting sexually with another male. at the time i felt that there was no god and no consequences to my actions . Anyways im doing much better now . I reached a breaking point where i felt like if i continued the way i was going i would end up dead. I prayed for the first time since i was 15 and asked that if there was a god i would like to know him , and that im truly sorry for all my terrible action. immediately after praying i felt a presence of something. i cant explain it but i felt like god was there the whole time i was just ignoring him. i felt unconditionally loved for the first time. The first time i went back to the Methodist church i grew up in i burst into tears during the hymnals. i prayed as hard as i could and accepted that Jesus was my savoir and died for my sins on the cross. This was about 2 months ago and im clean and feeling much better. i have structure back in my life for the first time . im currently in a rehab program and going to the gym every day to keep busy . i Also am studying the bible every night and praying multiple times a day. Im trying to look at a bright future but sometimes i cant help but dwell on the past. The thoughts of the things iv'e done bring me to the point of anxiety attacks and crying spells, and the depression creeps in .sometimes I cant help but feel as if iv'e worn out gods grace and that im such a bad person i cant be forgiven.

Does anyone have any advice or insight to how i can get over my past. Am i Forgiven ? Are my sins washed away like the bible states?

please dont be judgmental towards my past actions i just want to be a better person

All the time you have spent in the rebellion against God and formed wrong thinking by wrong everything

this must be reckoned with the death that almost had you... drugs and immorality are a very common scepter

in satan's kingdom. One thing you must know from the get go it was God Who gave you sight of the evil

you were immersed in and the hopeless death that was resulting from that immersion... you have in fact

by the very experience come into contact with The Hand of God upon your life and He has led you into

repentance and you have responded to His leading by turning your life around and practicing the things

of life and Godliness... satan will fight you the rest of this life and that is what your experiencing

now. He brings up the past as his only (old) hold he had on you BUT God says this

2 Cor 5:17-21

17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature:

old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

18 And all things are of God, who hath reconciled us to himself

by Jesus Christ, and hath given to us the ministry of reconciliation;

19 To wit, that God was in Christ, reconciling the world unto himself,

not imputing their trespasses unto them; and hath committed unto us

the word of reconciliation. 20 Now then we are ambassadors for Christ,

as though God did beseech you by us: we pray you in Christ's stead, be

ye reconciled to God. 21 For he hath made him to be sin for us, who

knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.

KJV

as you can see It is God Who works within you and has written this down (not in the whisper of lie in your

ear as satan is doing) but on paper that you may hold God to account of His Promise to you! An accounting

God will do everyday with you >if you allow Him such<... you have been set free now use that freedom to

enslave yourself to God and His Perfect Pleasure by the study of His Word which will renew your mind to a

useful place in God's service to others. It is God's Word that brought us the creation we began in; It is

God's Word that gives us foundation to stand in this place of rebellion; It is God's Word that will be

be with us forever... when His Word becomes more precious to you than the bread that we eat to remain here

then you will know that you have been fine tuned toward God's use and you life will be for His Glory and Honor!

Remember always reckon yourself dead to the past ways and alive to the present and the morrow if God so

wills... You have my prayer as if you were my dad and mom and brother and sister... fight the good fight

and lead many to the truth you have been born into! Love, Steven

[john14:6]

Reconsiled18602, Once we trust in the finished work of Jesus on the cross for forgiveness of our sins we are forgiven and God forgets our past. Hebrews 10:17 And their sins and iniquities will I remember no more.

These are great articles about salvation, assurance, doubting, etc. See the link below.

1. Why is it Important to Be Sure Where You Will Spend Eternity?

2. What is Justification?

3. What Does the Bible Teach About Being Born Again?

4. Held in God’s Hands: The Doctrine of Eternal Security

5. Saved for Sure: Overcoming Doubt

6. For Doubters Only

I strongly recommend #1, #2 . And #5. Reading all of them would be good.

http://www.jashow.org/wiki/index.php/How_Can_You_Be_Sure_that_You_Will_Spend_Eternity_with_God%3F

Edited April 9, 2014 by john14:6