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1 minute ago, Yowm said:

But that has nothing to do with pre trib teaching. They are the ones giving out the warning more than most groups. And I never have met one that said we are immune to persecution.

Brother, to honor the request of Hidden In Him.... I won't discuss it here... I will point out certain things if it pertains to the discussion like the warnings and such..... have a blessed day brother Yowm! <3

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2 hours ago, other one said:

what they do in California is not practiced in Oklahoma....

Thank you Lord!

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44 minutes ago, Yowm said:

So why did you quote me when For His Glory introduced the attack/derailment of pre-tribs?

My apologies, Yowm. I wasn't picking sides, trust me, nor did I agree with every single statement she made. I was simply encouraging her post, in particular her compliments to Heart2Soul. I didn't realize my endorsing it might potentially lead to an argument.

Forgive me if I made it seem like I was showing favoritism. I was not.

God bless, :th_wave:


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2 minutes ago, Hidden In Him said:

My apologies, Yowm. I wasn't picking sides, trust me, nor did I agree with every single statement she made. I was simply encouraging her post, in particular her compliments to Heart2Soul. I didn't realize my endorsing it might potentially lead to an argument.

Forgive me if I made it seem like I was showing favoritism. I was not.

God bless, :th_wave:


It wasn't a matter of favoritism (how did that enter your mind?), it was simply a matter of seeing who first began the derailment with an attack on pre-trib..and if that wasn't a derailment, then neither was my defense of it.

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"This dream was posted by Heart2Soul recently on another thread, and I recognized almost instantly what it was about. I spoke to her in private, and it is a dream she had many years ago but never got an interpretation for, and has just recently experienced it being brought back to her remembrance quite a bit. That means the time of its fulfillment is now closer at hand"


All of is dreaming is nonsense .... what are you people doing?

There is nothing in scripture about such flagrant discussion

You should be ashamed for giving your false prophecies 


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Just now, Yowm said:

It wasn't a matter of favoritism (how did that enter your mind?), it was simply a matter of seeing who first began the derailment with an attack on pre-trib..and if that wasn't a derailment, then neither was my defense of it.

You'll have to forgive me, but I was and am still not aware of who takes what positions on that particular issue around here, so I would have had no knowledge that her post was an "attack"; simply a position.

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1 hour ago, ForHisGlory37 said:

Dear Heart2Soul,

The Great Tribulation is coming, but most of the Christians here in the US are asleep or refuse to believe that their faith is going to be tested.  The apostasy and the complacency comes from the Pre-Trib rapture teaching that they need not worry about what's coming because Jesus is going to whisk them away so they won't have to suffer for His Name's Sake.  There will be a great falling away when they realize they are going to have to face the fire.  They haven't prepared in their hearts, minds, and souls so they will not endure sadly. 



3 minutes ago, Hidden In Him said:

You'll have to forgive me, but I was and am still not aware of who takes what positions on that particular issue around here, so I would have had no knowledge that her post was an "attack"; simply a position.


Do you even read what is written? Not aware of what position? But you were aware that there was  derailment?

I'm sorry, discernment seems to be lacking. I'll bow out.

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1 minute ago, Yowm said:

The apostasy and the complacency comes from the Pre-Trib rapture teaching that they need not worry about what's coming because Jesus is going to whisk them away so they won't have to suffer for His Name's Sake.

Yes, Yowm, I read it. I was primarily saying I was not aware of your position, more particularly that you would be so strongly effected by her statement.

7 minutes ago, Yowm said:

I'll bow out.

Again, my apologies. And since you will, I will. :thumbsup:

Peace, and blessings. 

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On 4/23/2018 at 8:52 AM, Heart2Soul said:

I read that article where California is looking to pass a bill that could ban the Bible due to how it is written......and California is a major left wing state....someone said last night that what starts in California becomes practice worldwide.

yeah you mention that and I saw it to. I'm not shocked cause calf. is like that. but you know how states play follow the leader. I really hope Trump who is supposedly a christian puts his foot down and says no !!!  That's not happening.

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On 4/23/2018 at 8:44 AM, shiloh357 said:

I agree, when the Left, at some point take back the White House and the levers of power in Congress, they will come back with a vengeance and it will be all out war on Christians.   

You know I hear stuff like this, but I don't know much about politics. People are talking about election coming up, but I thought it was every 4 yrs. Another that I get confused about is that the house right now are republicans. Do you think Trump will finish his term and maybe a second. Don't you think if anything  happens to Trump Pence who I like will take over. Do people ion usa really like the democrats more theyu can see would have voted clinton in. So you can see where confusion comes in. lol

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      I could not shake the feeling it gave me all day. And I realized if indeed this was his plan all along all those years ago... And that is my gift I will take it. And I realized I don't mind. (not that I'd really have a choice if i said I'd follow his will not mine). I find it odd timing. 
      Also please understand this.. When I pray and pour my heart out.. I do it in my head. My eyes are closed. The reason I do this is because I am very aware how the enemy works and if he hears me, or sees my actions or emotions, he knows how to try to prevent me easily knowing how to mess with me.
      So now.. this gift. Or is it? When do I know to share them? How do I know it really is a gift and not deception from other end? Just how exactly do I "test" the spirits? When do I share these things I'm shown? I started a blog a bit ago, so I can help other people understand the much deeper picture. And I thought also.. great timing... I put it off awhile and then I realized I was pushed to do it. So I guess this "gift" if real will be shared there as well, if and when I get to understand better if indeed real gift.
      Am I allowed to ask for other gifts???? I really still want to heal people. Including a healing over here would be great. lol Hard to do as much as I need and want when barely functioning. 
      OK Thanks in advance for any input! :-) 
      A little history: 
      When I was a very young I was very sick.  In hospital a lot since a baby. But around 3 I started to see things and for some reason I calmed down when I saw something in my room in corner just standing there. I knew it was there to protect me, yet it still made me a little fearful. I had other experiences. But I was not born to Chrsitian family, so had no clue.  They didn't go to church until I was older. I became a christian when I was early teens.
      After I left home I had visions off and on. And were never wrong. Even though I wasn't Christian anymore, I still "believed" somewhat and had in back of my head. But I ended up praying and asking he take this away from me. (I never actually knew about Christian prophecy per say, and thought it was only in bible times. ) And I walked away so that would not have done anything for me or him. The ability to see was taken away as I asked.
      I was relieved!