Goodbye all and thanks!

[TheBlade]

On 2/16/2025 at 8:21 AM, irishbeast said:

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In my short time here, I had thought this was the perfect place for fellowship, discussion, and encouragement. However, it has become clear that the rules here are far stricter than I anticipated, and unfortunately, this is not the right place for me. Such is life

I have been informed that my use of a completely ordinary word—one that also happens to be another term for a donkey—has caused such profound distress that it warranted being reported. To the individual who suffered so greatly at the sight of this word, please accept my sincerest, most heartfelt apology. I am truly sorry to the absolute root of my being that my reckless choice of language has disturbed your peace. I can only imagine the hardship this has caused you, and I hope you find the strength to recover from this ordeal in due time.

I understand that the T&Cs of this forum does not allow such heinous words (I will read the again for future reference, and I fully respect the need to maintain a safe and wholesome environment. To ensure that nobody else has to endure such offensive language ever again, I will be leaving. However, I will leave my profile open for a few days, as I have been speaking to a few people via PM who may or may not wish to stay in touch. My offer for free digital art still stands, even though I will no longer be a member. I wish you all the best, and may your conversations remain pure and untainted.

Before I go, I do want to sincerely thank those who took the time to engage in thoughtful discussions and provide such interesting and insightful answers. Some very knowledgeable  folk and I genuinely appreciated those conversations, and they gave me plenty to think about.

Kind regards

Stephen

 

I remember when I was 16-17 I called this friend who I called allot. She was a grandmother that prayed 4h a day.. so much power of GOD. I was on the phone and I said dam.. she rebuked me in Jesus name.... oh man she was not happy. Today I fully understand why. I would never or try to never use that word or the one you used or any other curse word... me. All that to say I was on another Christian forum.. on it 20+ years and .. got a warning for using 3 words... I forgot.. I think Blood of Jesus.. something like that. Its a site that they tell you why you said or did what your did. They told me .. didn't ask told me using it (they believed) instead of cursing no but.. ok so I never use it there. I could see how they might take  it that way.. Its not like DON'T say that name JESUS here any more.. to bad.. JESUS! haha

I don't know you.. but.. no reason to leave....  :) mate

Edited February 21 by TheBlade

[Debp]

@irishbeast  Hi, I see you visited twelve hours ago.    I certainly hope you will reconsider and stay.

[irishbeast]

Hi all,

Took a little breather and took some time to reflect.

I've been under a tremendous amount of stress recently. I'm in a pretty lousy place, which is no doubt a  result of my failings in my old life. In a real rut and I'm like a pressure cooker wanting to explode at times.

Sundays are good as they are really the only day I have any peace when I get to worship with my church family.

The devil is tormenting me at the moment. Really badly. Wanting me to give up at everything, get back to my old ways and has been successful to a degree. I think being on here will help me keep a clear mindset and hopefully win the battle permanently. I didn't expect things to be so hard. I keep comparing my struggles to that of what Christ must have endured. Try to put myself in his shoes and suddenly I realise what I fool I am.

Have been praying and asking for direction as I feel like the literal lost sheep at the moment and need a shepherd to whip me in to shape. Again a literal reference as I have gained 10 lbs in 2 weeks from eating absolute trash! One of the devils wins. 

Anyway to cut a long story short. I am back - I'm already struggling with isolation so cutting myself off from here won't help. Apologies for being such a drama queen about this all. You will have to endure me for another while :)

 

[irishbeast]

On 2/22/2025 at 1:03 AM, Debp said:

@irishbeast  Hi, I see you visited twelve hours ago.    I certainly hope you will reconsider and stay.

Really? who knows. I have about 20 tabs open at once so a slip is quite possible! 

[Debp]

3 hours ago, irishbeast said:

Really? who knows. I have about 20 tabs open at once so a slip is quite possible! 

I'm glad to see you back.   Nice you have a good church family.

I just changed my tablet wallpaper to this today...

 

[Debp]

@irishbeast  I also like this verse a lot.

[warrior12]

4 hours ago, irishbeast said:

The devil is tormenting me at the moment. Really badly. Wanting me to give up at everything, get back to my old ways and has been successful to a degree. I think being on here will help me keep a clear mindset and hopefully win the battle permanently. I didn't expect things to be so hard. I keep comparing my struggles to that of what Christ must have endured. Try to put myself in his shoes and suddenly I realise what I fool I am.

Brother, you are not alone in the battles and struggles.  Satan as you said, rightly wants you back into his kingdom, and will plant fear and set traps to entangle you to give in and give up.   These are trials that has been allowed into your life and as a believer you have to stand firm in the power and might of the Lord Jesus Christ.  

Demons are real and they know you and your struggles.  Satan and his kingdom wants you back into his kingdom to enslave and keep you in darkness.  He does it with fear, bodily interference and to finally plant doubt for you to leave the faith.  Stand firm and determine not to go back into the mire.  

I wish [ infact it is duty to testify ] more people here would testify as to their struggles, does not have to be personal, but the trials from the invisible realm, not just the physical.  It helps others when they are lonely, afraid and the rest.

Edited February 24 by warrior12

[irishbeast]

12 hours ago, warrior12 said:

Brother, you are not alone in the battles and struggles.  Satan as you said, rightly wants you back into his kingdom, and will plant fear and set traps to entangle you to give in and give up.   These are trials that has been allowed into your life and as a believer you have to stand firm in the power and might of the Lord Jesus Christ.  

Demons are real and they know you and your struggles.  Satan and his kingdom wants you back into his kingdom to enslave and keep you in darkness.  He does it with fear, bodily interference and to finally plant doubt for you to leave the faith.  Stand firm and determine not to go back into the mire.  

I wish [ infact it is duty to testify ] more people here would testify as to their struggles, does not have to be personal, but the trials from the invisible realm, not just the physical.  It helps others when they are lonely, afraid and the rest.

Thanks that's a really helpful post. 

I'm still struggling a bit with prescription medications of all things, after beating alcohol and cocaine!

While I accept some responsibility it doesn't help that my GP practice have had me on strong opioids for almost a decade which is a bit crazy. You build up a tolerance quickly.

Was up early this morning, relaxed, reading the good book - then got a bit of news which will potentially cripple my financially. A little side hustle I've had for years may be coming to an abrupt finish. Stress I don't really need.

Trying to leave it all in the hands of the Lord. Without going into too much detail the side hustle was something I didn't really want to do anymore and my Pastor and I have been praying for a way out but didn't want it like a sledgehammer blow!

How and ever I am still here, got my health and have to stay positive as getting depressed and doing nothing is a waste of life. Got a lot of things that need doing which I'm trying not to be overwhelmed by. Its Satan at play I know it is as I have been trying harder to practice my faith! 

 

 

[enoob57]

41 minutes ago, irishbeast said:

Thanks that's a really helpful post. 

I'm still struggling a bit with prescription medications of all things, after beating alcohol and cocaine!

While I accept some responsibility it doesn't help that my GP practice have had me on strong opioids for almost a decade which is a bit crazy. You build up a tolerance quickly.

Was up early this morning, relaxed, reading the good book - then got a bit of news which will potentially cripple my financially. A little side hustle I've had for years may be coming to an abrupt finish. Stress I don't really need.

Trying to leave it all in the hands of the Lord. Without going into too much detail the side hustle was something I didn't really want to do anymore and my Pastor and I have been praying for a way out but didn't want it like a sledgehammer blow!

How and ever I am still here, got my health and have to stay positive as getting depressed and doing nothing is a waste of life. Got a lot of things that need doing which I'm trying not to be overwhelmed by. Its Satan at play I know it is as I have been trying harder to practice my faith! 

 

 

The walk of faith is moment by moment reality it can be no other way... As we are brought into a begin which God has never had...

[angels4u]

1 hour ago, irishbeast said:

Thanks that's a really helpful post. 

I'm still struggling a bit with prescription medications of all things, after beating alcohol and cocaine!

While I accept some responsibility it doesn't help that my GP practice have had me on strong opioids for almost a decade which is a bit crazy. You build up a tolerance quickly.

Was up early this morning, relaxed, reading the good book - then got a bit of news which will potentially cripple my financially. A little side hustle I've had for years may be coming to an abrupt finish. Stress I don't really need.

Trying to leave it all in the hands of the Lord. Without going into too much detail the side hustle was something I didn't really want to do anymore and my Pastor and I have been praying for a way out but didn't want it like a sledgehammer blow!

How and ever I am still here, got my health and have to stay positive as getting depressed and doing nothing is a waste of life. Got a lot of things that need doing which I'm trying not to be overwhelmed by. Its Satan at play I know it is as I have been trying harder to practice my faith! 

 

 

Keep your eyes on Jesus,that's where  faith grows,without Him we're nowhere,don't give the enemy a chance to discourage you,this world is not our home,we're just traveling trough.  Jesus is our everything,all power belongs to Him! So easy to look back to self to fix things  but really we should ask Jesus first before we try to fix our problems...