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Hi fire-heart,

 

I can empathise with you as I have chronic fatigue & have had it for nearly 30 years. I have improved over the years but I do spend most of my time at home. I only get energy morning & evening. The afternoons I have to rest & sleep. So like you I felt in a prison. But I have gradually become appreciative of what I do have & I specifically thank God for those things & people, especially here on Worthy.

 

Have you noticed that everyone lacks in some area, - food, home, health, finance, work, family, children, etc etc. This is a damaged world & we are all damaged. The area that we lack, as you so rightly said made you press into the Lord. That is the purpose of God not being Father Christmas to us all. And in the natural you would have to go through a lot of those emotions you talked about.

 

My suggestions to you are -

 

1. Thank the Lord everyday specifically for what you do have.

2. Have a routine for main things to do - hobby, bible study that is going through a subject, book etc. helping in the house, research on the web on a topic.

3. Build a friendship specifically with 2 people  (at Worthy) so you can be helped in your daily walk & with people who are interested in your journey.

 

 

Remember that the Apostle Paul was in prison & think how he was still able to be effective.

Also remember you (we) only have so many days, months, years left & then they will be gone forever. The enemy would try & make you think that you are hard done by & that you are ineffective & that this will go on forever. Lies, lies, all lies from the father of lies.

 

I have seen you around worthy & you are in here trying. It is now important for you, young as you are to get strong against the enemies lies & build.... friendships, scriptural understanding & most of all thankfulness to our precious Saviour. Think how `prison like` it was for Him nailed to that cross when he could have knocked out all the soldiers, not gone through the pain & being totally seemingly useless on that cross. But of course we know better. PTL.

 

 

Blessings, bro. Marilyn.

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Fire-Heart, I don't have medical issues that keep me at home but I find myself a near prisoner in my house just the same. Not because I can't leave or go find something to do, but simply because "I don't feel like it." Depression and isolation are killers. It sounds like you may be dealing with both. I understand what you mean about prayer seeming ineffective...for me it feels like my prayers often bounce back at me from the ceiling. I also understanding what it's like to have all the time in the world...yet not managing to do anything meaningful with it.

 

Is it possible you are suffering from depression? Talk to your doctor...and don't let yourself be isolated. We need people.

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I been there before thinking and feeling that God left me... (If I to write my story, it go on and on and till tomorrow it won't end I can write a book... hahaha...)

but I was wrong...should not believe the lies of the devil. always feed your Faith starve your doubts.

 

John 14:23

Jesus answered him, “If anyone loves me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.

 

Home not hotel, God won't check out like living in a hotel. He is holy and His word last forever. 

God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? (Number 23:19)

 

1 Corinthians 6:19

Don't you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God?

 

God is faithful. No matter how you feel, He is there with you. His purpose will prevail. Hang in there. HE loves you.

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Okay, I've been there sort of. What you need to do is find a hobby. One that you can do indoors. Try cooking. Or some kind of arts and crafts if that is your thing. Just something that would interest you. Use the internet to learn a new language. Maybe you could take an online course of some sort. Something like that.

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I got ya tell ya I feel for ya bro. When I lost my job and we were stuck with one car, that my husband needed for his job. I wanted to die. So I was stuck at home most of time, cause Charlie needed car for work. I think the neighbors across the street were running away when they saw me. I was so bored I drove them crazy lol. But whats cool is to pass time I walked alot with my camera and took lots of photos of Gods beauty. A good hobby that you can do at home, might be good for you.  :)  like um those things you put together, what are they called models I think.

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Can you go for a short walk?  Even a walk around the block or around your yard might help.  Or open a window and watch the birds or small neighbor children playing--anything that is nature and involves fresh air.  Can you get a pet?  I love to watch fish in a tank.  But our small dogs keep us amused as well.  Cats are always fun to play with and can be very affectionate.

 

So sorry you are having such difficulty.  I don't get out as much anymore either and it is hard.  NCN is indoors a lot too, and there are others who are in great pain and difficulty due to poor health.  So sometimes we have to stop and list the things we can be thankful for, starting with the fact that Jesus died for us.   

 

Blessings,

Willa

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Yes I go one walks a lot thats one of the ways I connect with god.

I do have pets and i draw sometimes. Im doing better today and I get to go hang with my cousins for a few days.

My family is always talking about how I seclude myself in my room and do nothing all day every day but im not I am spending my time getting to know God any way i can even just sitting there doing nothing talking with him. i cant explain to my family what im doing or whats in my heart because not only would they not understand they would make fun of me.

To some ppl faith in Christ is a hobbie or a kind of lifestyle but my love and faith in god is more important to me than even eternal life. If I ever lost him that would be it for me i would have no reason to live and who knows what I would do.

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Hi fire heart,

 

So glad you are feeling better & have time with you cousins. Also to hear that you can go for walks is great.

 

Now you know that many people are driven & are workaholics, perhaps with much money but are time poor. That is they do not utilise their time except to work harder & harder for self esteem motives. You how ever are time rich but are not sure how to spend it . You look at the world & how they are spending their time but obviously God has an important purpose for you to have so much time. Thus I would encourage you to fight that `feelings,` battle against the enemy then as you grow stronger in that area you are getting in the right position in God, (probably more stable in Him) & then He will unfold the things He would have you to do. So keep trusting, fighting the enemy, studying, helping family & then the way will unfold.

 

Now I must emphasise that `helping the family,` in jobs & thankfulness to them for what they do for you speaks louder than any other thing you could say about God. That is the proof of your relationship with Him how you, we treat those close to us.

 

Bless you bro, Marilyn.

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Fire heart you cannot loose God. He said Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you. God dont break His promise.

a very wise man told me once when God seems far away it is then that He is actually the closest to you. It took me awhile to realize that.

Do you think there is something in your head or heart that is hindering your relationship with God?

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I can't help with the medical problems, but the boredom can be helped by reading good novels.

 

You can download the PC Kindle program and do some searching for the kinds of things you would enjoy.    There must be a hundred thousand or more free books and many many for 99 cents.

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