It Has All Become Too Much

[Justin Adams]

It is tough. No doubt about this. All kinds of well meaning folk sometimes (unwittingly) downplay this terrible feeling. Please, just come alongside us and comfort us.

I think of Yeshua in the garden.. nobody could even stay awake with Him and be 'good company'. Then He sweat blood and I can only surmise that His Character and perseverance went almost beyond a human's ability to withstand. Since He went thru all this and was then beaten, mocked and killed it boggles my small mind. He truly is WORTHY and He suffered with no sin for all of us. This never makes me 'feel good' but it does help me understand that He is well able to feel our pain and therefore we are not alone in our suffering.

Edited February 28, 2020 by Justin Adams

[Neighbor]

8 hours ago, LadyKay said:

I have come to understand that no matter how hard I try. I really have no control over what happens in my life. Anyway, I have had all I can take. Now I  need to just go be with Jesus. Maybe he will show mercy on me and see that it is all too much for me,and take me home. Maybe that will happen?

 Hi,

Well soldier you are in the fight, the spiritual fight while in the body aren't you!  You are a soldier in the army of Jesus, you are at your post. And it is a tough one to stand at, really tough. When will help come? When will you see relief troops or support come?  What is your duty till relief does come? What are your orders, are they really to stand your post?

 I suggest, that at this time prayer is your best most powerful weapon. Use it, keep it well oiled, running smooth and keep using it. Also equip it with a praise bayonet. Yes a bayonet, for you are up close and personally in combat against the enemy.

You need be using your in close weaponry, the praise of God that so spears the enemy. Give praise to God giving thanks in all things. Especially during the very tough assault you are under right now. "Thank you LORD for even now I have God the Holy Spirit within me, He is my comforter  whom I am seeking right now as I ready to take back some territory from the enemy. He will intercede as I pray He will tell my Lord Jesus of my prayer for help for more troops, send angels for I am in a battle here."

Pray for those troops,  pray for the arrival of many to fight the enemy, right where you stand now . Hold your post, as others also join in prayer for your post to stand, and for you to receive many angels to join you. Know that the angels are receiving resistance and it may take time for them, as the enemy is also strong. But hang on hang on. Use every prayer you can muster, every psalm you can sing, as the Holy Spirit intercedes and groans out  in your behalf. Yield only to God the Holy Spirit God the son Jesus and to God the Father. Do not concede a foot, not even an inch to the enemy.

 Do not give up, do not give in, fight the good fight, overcome the pain, endure and endure yet some more with prayer  and praise, prayer and praise.

Organize and or reorganize your perimeter if you need to by writing outlines of your prayers and your praises to God, keeping the enemy at  bay.  Pray for angels to get through and to knock out the troops of the enemy that are attacking your post.

You might start with a good battle psalm. How about the 23rd Psalm the reminder of the station David was defending which also includes the use of the bayonet the praise of God for provisions and for safety from the attackers  in the dark place seeking to devour God's servant;

Sing the psalm of praise  of God and defiance of evil:

Psalm 23 English Standard Version (ESV)

The Lord Is My Shepherd

A Psalm of David.

 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
     He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
    He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
    for his name's sake.

 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
    I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
    your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

 You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil;
    my cup overflows.
 Surely goodness and mercy[e] shall follow me
    all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord
    forever.

See https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RbgxBvLFErg  Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir singing 23rd Psalm

Then play join in the Battle Hymn of the Republic

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jy6AOGRsR80

Then get pumped up for  battle with John Philip Sousa a great jolt of adrenalin for the fight of this very day.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l-m3XHUSN08

 Pray with renewed energy, read Psalms of David with renewed vision and dedication, read it aloud to the enemy.

Get pumped up once again for the battle, and receive the angels coming even as you hold the post in duty  to our Lord and savior. We never go down passively. We hold our post. We hold on and we hold on. For our hope is absolutely certain;  it is placed in Christ Jesus.

Fix bayonet!

You have prayer warriors with you, angels are with you and more are coming, hang on hold your post. Get pumped for the battle.

 

[BeauJangles]

3 minutes ago, Neighbor said:

Well soldier you are in the fight, the spiritual fight while in the body aren't you!  You are a soldier in the army of Jesus, you are at your post. And it is a tough one to stand at, really tough. When will help come? When will you see relief troops or support come?  What is your duty till relief does come? What are your orders, are they really to stand your post?

Hallelujah and amen, brother!

[Neighbor]

Brethren join up in prayer, fix bayonet giving praise to God and prayer for each other and for Lady Kay at her post. Pray for more angels to come to her post and overcome the enemy attacking there.

LORD I  do pray for Lady Kay to withstand the onslaught from our enemy. I do pray  for more angels to overcome resistance  of the fallen evil ones and to get there en mass to overcome the enemy Satan and his many minions and little antichrists that are among us even now. Make a great wall, a strong hedge, at the post that Lady Kay stands so that she may have rest and  gain revival of energy, so that she may be strengthened to a mighty strength for the battle knowing victory is won, even as we all fight against that which still hopes to take some down as they the enemy go down. 

 I do praise you Lord for your mercy and for your grace upon us.

[Firm Foundation]

7 hours ago, LadyKay said:

If your feeling down you probably shouldn't read this. Because I don't think it will help. This is what I want to say. Life and everything has all become too much. I am ready. Ready to go be with Jesus. I ask why am I stll here. Some say life is short. I think it is too long. It has been too long for me. I have come to understand that no matter how hard I try. I really have no control over what happens in my life. Anyway, I have had all I can take. Now I  need to just go be with Jesus. Maybe he will show mercy on me and see that it is all too much for me,and take me home. Maybe that will happen?

Sometimes we focus only on the negative things rather than the good.  I'll bet if you made a list of things you are thankful for, you'd see you are really blessed.

[Dennis1209]

7 hours ago, LadyKay said:

If your feeling down you probably shouldn't read this. Because I don't think it will help. This is what I want to say. Life and everything has all become too much. I am ready. Ready to go be with Jesus. I ask why am I stll here. Some say life is short. I think it is too long. It has been too long for me. I have come to understand that no matter how hard I try. I really have no control over what happens in my life. Anyway, I have had all I can take. Now I  need to just go be with Jesus. Maybe he will show mercy on me and see that it is all too much for me,and take me home. Maybe that will happen?

I thought hard about responding to this, and please forgive me for my outright and brash feelings and thoughts. I'm probably going to regret this post. I was angry, I am angry, I will be angry to my last breath; at what happened in my life.

Are you a selfish self centered person only interested in your own feelings and well being? Are you a quitter? How do you want to be remembered by family, friends and loved ones? I hope you're reaching out for help, support and love.

Let me tell you a little condensed story of my only brother that I loved, whom probably had depression. I'm no doctor and I don't pretend to understand depression and the human mind, but I personally know someone who does. I don't know how far back it goes but, my father suffered severe depression and something else medically defined. Evidently such things may be hereditary, as my brother acted and exhibited the same traits. A number of years ago he too had enough and called me to say goodbye. I spent a few hours on the phone experiencing every emotion possible, and trying to talk him out of it. Fortunately I was successful that time. It was an emotional and physical drain dump on me.

A few years ago I got a call from my sister, saying my only younger brother Bob shot himself in the heart, he didn't even bother to call me, he's gone forever; we're all left with more questions than answers. He called my sister to let her know what he was about to do, to call to have his body removed so it wouldn't rot and decay; he lived alone by himself. He gave her some instructions and information on some things. He gave my sister a couple of reasons why he was doing it, a couple being loneliness and financial, I and we could have helped. 

Apparently, he gave no thought or didn't care how he would effects his ex-wife, children, brother or sister. He didn't let us know of his thoughts, feelings and emotions so that we might be able to help somehow; he didn't reach out for help for anyone, he just gave up and quit.

I won't bother going into the lasting emotional pain, suffering and deep wounds and scares he left behind for his loved ones to try and deal with. Naturally I don't know any of your blood family or your situation, but you're a dear sister deeply loved and we are a very close knit family in Christ, and we care for and love you. I and we can only provide very limited emotional support, may be some comfort, uplifting, our prayers and encouragement here on Worthy. We are to have joy in our lives knowing we have eternal Salvation and a job entrusted to us serving the Lord and spreading His word. I too deal daily with an imperfect body, mind and thoughts; I try to remind myself of what the Lord told the Apostle Paul and his thorn; my Grace is sufficient for thee.

I have my pains, faults, trials, temptations and troubles as everyone else. I have a laundry list of things I'm going to have to answer for at the Bema Seat of Christ I'm so very ashamed of. I do my very best not to give up and quit, it would be another shameful blemish and failure I'll have to articulate to our Lord face to face. Fight it LadyKay and don't throw in the towel.

Proverbs 3:5 (KJV) Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

 

[johnthebaptist]

9 hours ago, LadyKay said:

If your feeling down you probably shouldn't read this. Because I don't think it will help. This is what I want to say. Life and everything has all become too much. I am ready. Ready to go be with Jesus. I ask why am I stll here. Some say life is short. I think it is too long. It has been too long for me. I have come to understand that no matter how hard I try. I really have no control over what happens in my life. Anyway, I have had all I can take. Now I  need to just go be with Jesus. Maybe he will show mercy on me and see that it is all too much for me,and take me home. Maybe that will happen?

I suppose there are things we need to learn before we can pass onto the resurrection. Hang in there.

[Coliseum]

9 hours ago, LadyKay said:

If your feeling down you probably shouldn't read this. Because I don't think it will help. This is what I want to say. Life and everything has all become too much. I am ready. Ready to go be with Jesus. I ask why am I stll here. Some say life is short. I think it is too long. It has been too long for me. I have come to understand that no matter how hard I try. I really have no control over what happens in my life. Anyway, I have had all I can take. Now I  need to just go be with Jesus. Maybe he will show mercy on me and see that it is all too much for me,and take me home. Maybe that will happen?

LadyKay, be strengthened. Do you remember when God said "No Man Can See My Face and Live"? He was speaking to Moses. Yet, we have seen his face---and died. We saw Christ on that day he saved us, and we died with him on the Cross. 

"I am crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live in faith, the faith in the Son of God" (Gal. 2:20). We are praying for you dear sister. 

[Amanda Frances]

LadyKay,

Praying for you Ladykay.   So sad to hear life has been so hard and you're feeling low.  Praying God will change it up today for you and that you will feel better.  I find reading Psalm 23 several times a day or every hour (if needed) with different emphasis on each Word is very encouraging.  Cling to God's promises and counting blessings helps, it's ok to feel sad and want to be with the Lord and continue to trust God during the storm.  Keep talking to him like David did.  Big hug to your sister.  Please let us hear from you and let us know how you are doing.   

Love in Christ to you. 

 

[marvelloustime]

11 hours ago, LadyKay said:

If your feeling down you probably shouldn't read this. Because I don't think it will help. This is what I want to say. Life and everything has all become too much. I am ready. Ready to go be with Jesus. I ask why am I stll here. Some say life is short. I think it is too long. It has been too long for me. I have come to understand that no matter how hard I try. I really have no control over what happens in my life. Anyway, I have had all I can take. Now I  need to just go be with Jesus. Maybe he will show mercy on me and see that it is all too much for me,and take me home. Maybe that will happen?

@LadyKay

I will pray for you and continue to do so.

You sound Homesick for Heaven. A few of us are, including me.

From experience, praying for Jesus to take you Home early doesn’t often get answered. I know many people throughout my life who have prayed that, and I think all of them are still here!

Howeverrrrrr, as someone who right now is also going through a tumultuous, horrible time, (me), and also Homesick for Heaven, let me reassure you that listening to praise music, writing a list of things to thank Him for, (if you can’t think of any, ask Jesus to help you). Also writing a list of your prayer needs to Jesus. And reading the bible will lift your spirit.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
Look full in His wonderful face,
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace.

 

Philippians 4:6-7

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

 

Focusing your thoughts on Jesus will take you away from this wretched world that we all live in, and you will soar up away from this world and spend some time in the glorious presence of Jesus. And He will refresh your soul.

 

Matthew 11:28-30

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Only Jesus can give us that perfect peace that our soul desperately needs. We will not get that peace from this world. Life is way too unstable, unfair, painful, antagonising, too many problems one on top of the other, etc.

Also, just take things one day at a time. His mercies are new every morning. So He only supplies sufficient grace for today. If you try and peer into tomorrow, you will only see darkness, because His grace for you won’t arrive until it is tomorrow.

Jesus can give you His peace now! And also His joy! You don’t have to wait till you physically get to Heaven to have this. And the reason why we can have joy in Him now, is because, in Jesus, we have that glorious hope and wonderful future, eternity with Jesus. Our only hope is Jesus. He is the anchor for our soul.

I know life can seem too long when we are going through it. I have said the same thing myself. But in reality it isn’t. You will be in Heaven with Jesus before you know it!

In the meantime, keep running the race down here whilst He keeps holding your hand. He is with you always, walking you Home. And keep your thoughts fixed on Jesus. And when you have persevered and endured this life, with Jesus by your side, what a glorious welcome Home into Heaven you will get after pushing through in this life till the finish line.

I will continue to pray for you. Don’t give up! Keep pressing in with Jesus! It’ll be worth it sister! X

Edited February 28, 2020 by marvelloustime