Suicide. I am going to kill myself. Pray for my family

[JustPassingThru]

Kenzie, I don't know what else to add to what has already been said, ...except for this, ...please take it to heart and consider it...

You have stated your soul is in so much pain that you can no longer support it, ...so you think killing your physical body is going to stop the pain in your soul?  Your soul is immortal and if you kill your body you will find the pain in your soul will still be with you, ...only intensified to a much higher degree, ...and since it is immortal you won't be able to kill it to escape the torment...

Please think about that, ....Kenzie, ...I've worked on a Suicide Telephone Hotline, ...what do you say you put off killing yourself for 24 hours and PM me and let's talk...

[AnOrangeCat]

9 hours ago, Kenzie said:

Hi. I have not been on here in a while. But I hope all of you are well. My reason for posting this is, I hope you will pray for my family. When i go, I don’t want them to feel much pain for me, but I just don’t believe I could get better through people praying for me. So I already have a plan.  I just ask for you guys to pray for them. There are many people on here who have prayed for me so thank you. Maybe this is an outcry for something idk, but I decided that it will not get better for me. My social anxiety has DESTROYED my life. My faith is non existent. I am just a lonely HS senior whose tried God and the church. But I don’t want to go into detail about my life, there’s too much. There are probably people out there who are much worse, but they are stronger than me. Farewell.

Fellow social anxiety sufferer here, hoping I'm not too late. We'll keep you and your family in prayers, but if your family loves you at all they're going to feel pain and guilt over the loss. If you get the chance to read this be aware that HS and college can be particularly challenging times where isolation, social issues, and the feelings surrounding those things are often magnified. For most of us that time period is when we start to get our first glimpses of independence and adulthood and heartbreak. It can be pretty overwhelming and our behaviors at that age are colored by hormonal changes that calm down later in life. Just like a skill we have to learn it takes multiple attempts before we can even get the basics down, and life skills and self management are a lot more complicated than things like riding a bike or learning to sew. Please do call a suicide hotline and try to find it within yourself to give God another chance.

[JohnD]

We are such short sighted judges in life, it's frightening to consider all the permanent things we  can

do and never undo  based on our perceptions.

Suicide is one of them.

Even if we had every detail of one's reasons to commit suicide, we cannot know their feelings or convictions.

Pain is a huge reason for many to end it all.

Everyone wants to talk someone contemplating suicide out of doing it.

By telling others about it, perhaps they want them to.

Otherwise they'd just do it.

It may be the real deal, but it may be a plea for help,

or for attention...

or a way to try to cope with things they just can't deal with on their own.

They need prayer.

Obviously.

If the OP is still among us... and is checking this for responses...

I would say this...

Life is cruel. And one we love may not love us back, at least not as much as

we love them... or not as much as we think they should love us in return for

our love or family standing.

Love is giving.

It is grand when it is also receiving.

But love is giving. No matter what.

If you are unable to cope with pain in whatever form it is in your life...

I understand there is a limit to toleration that we all have (though most will not

admit it or face it until that time comes).

If it's loneliness, you are not alone.

And you can love even if no one returns it.

Oftentimes we find that what we perceive of as neglect, indifference, or even hate

is just busy people going about their lives (especially when we have little to occupy our time).

People truly are thoughtless at times.

But people also have their own lives to lead.

And their focus on their lives is not necessarily a rejection of you.

You ask for prayer for them that your suicide will no affect them...

It will. It will affect them and especially those who care the most about you.

There is a stigma that survivors of suicide victims bear the rest of their lives.

Not so much from other people but from themselves. They will often contemplate

suicide themselves because 'you' did (like it's in the DNA or something).

And others do tend to label the survivors...

"Oh that's so-n-so whose mother committed suicide 50 years ago..."

Loved ones may even remember you as being rather selfish for taking your own life.

No one can know your pain like you do...

but you cannot know if a cure for it is just one more day away...

The last man on Earth jumped to his death from a skyscraper after having searched 

tirelessly for months to find other people.

But on his way down he saw a group of people coming towards the building!

No turning back once that giant step was taken...

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As to your faith...

We would have no life to end if it were not for the fact that it was given to us in the first place.

We didn't bring ourselves to life.

God did.

Without God there wouldn't even be a world.

The notion to believe it's all some cosmic accident is a lie from the enemy of God (who wants you

to lose hope, btw).

The devil delights is our misery.

He laughs when we harm ourselves or others.

Suicide has to be one of his favorites.

We can be saved.

The devil and his kind cannot be.

So he hates us all the more.

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There are three in the Bible who were in the same boat as you are. Samson, King Saul, and Jonah. 

Samson killed himself and a slew full of Philistines at the same time when he knocked out the pillars

of the pagan temple. King Saul had his servant run him through to avoid being abused by his victorious

enemy. Then Jonah who pouted under the gourd wanted to die rather than see God have mercy on his enemy.

Three different categories. 

You have to decide which is you.

God be with you that you make the right choice!!!

I pray for you in Jesus' name.

[Amanda Frances]

11 hours ago, TheAimes said:

 

 

Father in Jesus Name we ask that You would protect Kenzie. Let her feel Your tangible presence, surround her with Your love. Let her know that we care for her, that those near her care for her, but most of all that YOU care for her. Father fill her heart with your love and Spirit. We command every lie of the wicked one to be silenced in Jesus Name and may Your voice be the only one she hears. Pull her near to you, Lord. Comfort her, remind her that You are faithful and will never and have never once left her side. 

In the Name of Jesus I pray, Amen

Amen

[marvelloustime]

@Kenzie

I am praying for you right now.

Many years ago, when I was in an abusive relationship for many years, I attempted it. But as soon as I had done the act that I thought was going to end my life, I regretted it. I was scared that I may now not be going to Heaven. I prayed to the Lord how sorry I was and please forgive me. My heart was racing and I was sweating and really scared.

Thank the Lord I survived it. After an in-patient stay at a psychiatric hospital, which wasn’t pleasant, I was so relieved and thankful to the Lord that I was still here. I repented and felt the Lord’s tender love and mercy. I felt joyous because I knew that as I was still here, it meant that I had no doubts that I’m still saved and will definitely still be going to Heaven when the Lord decides to call me Home. Because of that fear of uncertainty when I tried to take my own life, I never attempted it again.

So from experience, please don’t do it. Do not do it.

This difficult life is just a small dot compared to eternity in Heaven with Jesus. This life is so short, even though you probably don’t think that now, but it is short. You will be in Heaven before you know it.

Jesus loves you. He is pleading with you, like we all are here, for you to throw yourself onto Him and let Him carry you safely Home to Heaven, as you journey through this life with Him. He knows your pain. He sees it and it makes Him sad. He wants to help you. But if you take your life, Jesus will be unable to help you.

So please let Jesus take your pain. We are all here for you as well. If you want to talk to anyone, there are loads of folk here ready to help you. And I am also one of them.

I will keep praying for you.

Becky. X

[BeauJangles]

14 hours ago, Kenzie said:

Hi. I have not been on here in a while. But I hope all of you are well. My reason for posting this is, I hope you will pray for my family. When i go, I don’t want them to feel much pain for me, but I just don’t believe I could get better through people praying for me. So I already have a plan.  I just ask for you guys to pray for them. There are many people on here who have prayed for me so thank you. Maybe this is an outcry for something idk, but I decided that it will not get better for me. My social anxiety has DESTROYED my life. My faith is non existent. I am just a lonely HS senior whose tried God and the church. But I don’t want to go into detail about my life, there’s too much. There are probably people out there who are much worse, but they are stronger than me. Farewell.

Now Kenzie, 

Please think about it. You just can't do this, sister. No, please. You just can't. It's not the right thing. Believe me, I tried two times and got rescued. So Kenzi, please don't. No one should leave the world in this manner. It's not how to do it. We need the Lord's call on our lives. Okay, my friend? Just please. God bless.

Shalom, 

David/BeauJangles

Edited December 11, 2019 by BeauJangles

[BeauJangles]

Okay, I feel a little embarrassed here. Kenzi, I can't remember whether you are my brother or my sister. So, pardon a mistake if I made one.  

Edited December 11, 2019 by BeauJangles

[marvelloustime]

26 minutes ago, BeauJangles said:

Okay, I feel a little embarrassed here. Kenzi, I can't remember whether you are my brother or my sister. So, pardon a mistake if I made one.  

@BeauJangles

Sister.

Praise the Lord you are still here. We pray @Kenzie remains with us until the Lord is ready to call us Home. I’ve been there too.

God bless all,

Becky.

[Billiards Ball]

16 hours ago, Kenzie said:

Hi. I have not been on here in a while. But I hope all of you are well. My reason for posting this is, I hope you will pray for my family. When i go, I don’t want them to feel much pain for me, but I just don’t believe I could get better through people praying for me. So I already have a plan.  I just ask for you guys to pray for them. There are many people on here who have prayed for me so thank you. Maybe this is an outcry for something idk, but I decided that it will not get better for me. My social anxiety has DESTROYED my life. My faith is non existent. I am just a lonely HS senior whose tried God and the church. But I don’t want to go into detail about my life, there’s too much. There are probably people out there who are much worse, but they are stronger than me. Farewell.

Don't do this!

Jesus Christ killed Himself for you, for me. He volunteered to die on the cross then rise from the dead, and He can side with you on ANY and EVERY anxiety and suicide issue. Ask Him for help now!!

[B3L13v3R]

Hi Kenzie, My wife and I are praying for you too!

It can be tough at your age, but killing yourself is never the answer!
Exodus 20:13  Thou shalt not kill.

I had a brother many years ago kill himself, and his eternal torment and hurt really had just began at that point in Hell.
Their are some who feel this kind of thing to be a bit harsh to say, but I disagree. What could be less loving if I did not warn of such a terrible place as my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ defines it?

And those that he left behind were grieved for years.

I do understand moving around as years ago, I moved around a good bit. Being the new kid in town can be difficult, and it takes time for others to get to know us as we leave old friends behind.
Your a Senior at this point, and hopefully you would be able to graduate from this school without moving until finished.

Along with all the prayers that have gone up for you by many others, please consider some of the great advise and examples others have given!

Repent of these thoughts, ask God to renew your mind by reading His Word, and cast your heavy cares upon Him. God's shoulder can bear any burden you have.

Matthew 11:28-30 Come unto me, (Jesus!) all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. (29) Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. (30) For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.