God. God used the suicide of a person in my life to bring me to salvation in 2005, and it almost killed me. But I'm thankful that God's love was on the other side of that black tunnel. Has anyone else experienced the suicide/God story in their life, being that the suicide rate increases every year and stuff.
I was very young, not even a pre-teen yet, crying in isolation because I felt so hated by everyone yet again. In my heart I wanted my life to be over. I don't know what my words were, but I was pleadeing with God - whether verbally or mentally, I don't remember.
But then I had an image in my mind, I guess you could call it a vision, but it was see like one would their imagination. I saw myself as if I had ended my life and I was meeting Jesus, but He was crying. Crying! And I could sense Him saying through His tears, "Why did you do that?"
I realized then how much He loved me and how important my life was to Him, even if my life felt worthless and despised by those around me. Jesus wanted me alive, and so that gave me the strength to stay alive.