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I am stuck in my house 24/7 because I cannot go anywhere thanks to my medical issues. Because of my medical issues I cannot drive or work so I am trapped in my house. Its the same thing day in and day out the highlight of my day is well now that I think about it I dont really have a highlight of a day.
its a lazy persons paradise I get fed can play video games I have more free time than i need. But I dont have freedom. Most ppl have no idea how blessed they are to be able to work make money go out have the freedom to give to the needy go on mission trips and so on.

What most ppls everyday activities take for granted I would kill for. I have a lazy persons dream but Im not lazy its not my dream. I get depressed a lot because of my imprisionment today I got so depressed I actually for a second thought of suicide- of course I would never do it but death is my only ticket to freedom
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I am stuck in my house 24/7 because I cannot go anywhere thanks to my medical issues. Because of my medical issues I cannot drive or work so I am trapped in my house. Its the same thing day in and day out the highlight of my day is well now that I think about it I dont really have a highlight of a day.
its a lazy persons paradise I get fed can play video games I have more free time than i need. But I dont have freedom. Most ppl have no idea how blessed they are to be able to work make money go out have the freedom to give to the needy go on mission trips and so on.

What most ppls everyday activities take for granted I would kill for. I have a lazy persons dream but Im not lazy its not my dream. I get depressed a lot because of my imprisionment today I got so depressed I actually for a second thought of suicide- of course I would never do it but death is my only ticket to freedom

 

I can feel for you. I've been looking for a job for sometime. I've now got temporary paid work but I'm working online from home, so I'm stuck in the house too. It's a lonely life.

Instead of playing video games give yourself a creative project or hobby to do - something that edifies Christ for example. Something that you can do at home. I don't know what but there are lots of ideas out there.


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Actually, you have more freedom to do His work. The most blessed and powerful people I know in the Lord are those who stand in prayer for others, secretly, behind closed doors. They shine with His Spirit and you know when you meet them they are truly His. You can also spend much more time building a relationship with God, studying His word and gaining the faith you need to make it through this trying time.

Strange how you are feeling bad because you have the time I so long for. I, on the other hand, am so busy that it is hard for me to even get away to relax for one day. I remember when I was in treatment for a year, bed ridden for half that time, too sick to do much of anything the other half. Yet, during this time, I grew closer to the Lord. In comparison, the time I spent housebound had done more for my foundation in Christ than the time I spend with Him lately. Sad, but true.
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I don't know what kind of health issue you have but there are many opportunities out there that you can do while at home and they can be done without necessarily taking a whole lot of effort or energy. Think about what hobbies you like and can possibly make money off of or maybe exploring new things. The sky is the limit.  

 

I believe that God has a reason for everything he allows to happen in the world and in our lives. Perhaps he wants you to put your focus and energy to something specific during this time? prayer always precedes a miracle as my mother likes to say.

 

I pray that God will take your hand through this trial.


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Praying for you..

 

Lord.. I give thanks to you for your faithfulness and loving kindness is new every morning.... You are the great Shepherd and we are your sheep,

you lay down your life for your sheep. Father since you did not spare even Your own Son but gave Him up for us... won't You also graciously give us all things.

We come boldly now to Your throne of grace, we ask for your healing power, we ask for peace and joy to fill this heart overflowing,

Thank you Lord your mercy endures forever, You never forsake or leave your child, even when we do not understand Lord of the circumstances You allowed to happen,

We ask for Your grace that sufficient at all times to help us through and that Your name will be praised and glorified.

In Jesus name we pray. Amen


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Never give up. I was in a similar situation not long ago where I was injured and could not get surgery. In a way I had given up. But I kept praying. God used this time to show me things that if I was able to get aroumd I would have never learned. None of us know for certian what tommorow will bring and God has a way of putting us in awe. Keep on keeping on... your race isnt over yet. God is faithful even when we think its hopeless. He has a plan. Jeremiah 29:11. Hang in there.
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Yes hang in there. 


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I was going through my docs today and found this.

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible
(Luke 18:27)

You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest
(Mat.11:28-30)

You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you
(John 3:16 & John 3:34)

You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5-6)

You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)

You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)

You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:2)

You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)

You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
(II Timothy 1:7)

You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
(I Peter 5:7)

You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith
(Romans 12:3)

You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians 1:30)

You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)

Believe God is there just for you..


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thanks everyone for your encouragement. while I like to play an occasional video game i spend at least 80% of my time with god seeking him out anyway I can just hungry to know him much more and to be much more like him. if I spend more than four days away from  him i go through symptoms you go through as a caffiene addict.

However at first for the first year of my faith or so I loved my situation and grew at a rapid pace but slowly yet surely I began not being satisfied with my situation and began growing in faith much slower. Now once summer ends and kids go back to school i will have been saved for 2 years and for a while now I have seen myself in a prison and i have hit some sort of wall in my faith.

 

i am no longer growing hardly at all and my soul has become starved because my hunger for God to know him love him and have him has either become so great that  the amount he gives me is like crumbs or for some unkown purpose he witholds himself from me. i am spiritually starved and it has begun to affect me in strange ways.

My prayers are no longer effective and no ones prayers for me seem to be affective either like something is blocking them entirely. i figured it was my sin so I begged for forgiveness but nothing changed not only do none of my prayers help but no one elses prayers do either and I cant figure out why.


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Hi fire-heart,

 

I can empathise with you as I have chronic fatigue & have had it for nearly 30 years. I have improved over the years but I do spend most of my time at home. I only get energy morning & evening. The afternoons I have to rest & sleep. So like you I felt in a prison. But I have gradually become appreciative of what I do have & I specifically thank God for those things & people, especially here on Worthy.

 

Have you noticed that everyone lacks in some area, - food, home, health, finance, work, family, children, etc etc. This is a damaged world & we are all damaged. The area that we lack, as you so rightly said made you press into the Lord. That is the purpose of God not being Father Christmas to us all. And in the natural you would have to go through a lot of those emotions you talked about.

 

My suggestions to you are -

 

1. Thank the Lord everyday specifically for what you do have.

2. Have a routine for main things to do - hobby, bible study that is going through a subject, book etc. helping in the house, research on the web on a topic.

3. Build a friendship specifically with 2 people  (at Worthy) so you can be helped in your daily walk & with people who are interested in your journey.

 

 

Remember that the Apostle Paul was in prison & think how he was still able to be effective.

Also remember you (we) only have so many days, months, years left & then they will be gone forever. The enemy would try & make you think that you are hard done by & that you are ineffective & that this will go on forever. Lies, lies, all lies from the father of lies.

 

I have seen you around worthy & you are in here trying. It is now important for you, young as you are to get strong against the enemies lies & build.... friendships, scriptural understanding & most of all thankfulness to our precious Saviour. Think how `prison like` it was for Him nailed to that cross when he could have knocked out all the soldiers, not gone through the pain & being totally seemingly useless on that cross. But of course we know better. PTL.

 

 

Blessings, bro. Marilyn.


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Fire-Heart, I don't have medical issues that keep me at home but I find myself a near prisoner in my house just the same. Not because I can't leave or go find something to do, but simply because "I don't feel like it." Depression and isolation are killers. It sounds like you may be dealing with both. I understand what you mean about prayer seeming ineffective...for me it feels like my prayers often bounce back at me from the ceiling. I also understanding what it's like to have all the time in the world...yet not managing to do anything meaningful with it.

 

Is it possible you are suffering from depression? Talk to your doctor...and don't let yourself be isolated. We need people.


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I been there before thinking and feeling that God left me... (If I to write my story, it go on and on and till tomorrow it won't end I can write a book... hahaha...)

but I was wrong...should not believe the lies of the devil. always feed your Faith starve your doubts.

 

John 14:23

Jesus answered him, “If anyone loves me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.

 

Home not hotel, God won't check out like living in a hotel. He is holy and His word last forever. 

God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? (Number 23:19)

 

1 Corinthians 6:19

Don't you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God?

 

God is faithful. No matter how you feel, He is there with you. His purpose will prevail. Hang in there. HE loves you.


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Okay, I've been there sort of. What you need to do is find a hobby. One that you can do indoors. Try cooking. Or some kind of arts and crafts if that is your thing. Just something that would interest you. Use the internet to learn a new language. Maybe you could take an online course of some sort. Something like that.


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I got ya tell ya I feel for ya bro. When I lost my job and we were stuck with one car, that my husband needed for his job. I wanted to die. So I was stuck at home most of time, cause Charlie needed car for work. I think the neighbors across the street were running away when they saw me. I was so bored I drove them crazy lol. But whats cool is to pass time I walked alot with my camera and took lots of photos of Gods beauty. A good hobby that you can do at home, might be good for you.  :)  like um those things you put together, what are they called models I think.


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Can you go for a short walk?  Even a walk around the block or around your yard might help.  Or open a window and watch the birds or small neighbor children playing--anything that is nature and involves fresh air.  Can you get a pet?  I love to watch fish in a tank.  But our small dogs keep us amused as well.  Cats are always fun to play with and can be very affectionate.

 

So sorry you are having such difficulty.  I don't get out as much anymore either and it is hard.  NCN is indoors a lot too, and there are others who are in great pain and difficulty due to poor health.  So sometimes we have to stop and list the things we can be thankful for, starting with the fact that Jesus died for us.   

 

Blessings,

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Yes I go one walks a lot thats one of the ways I connect with god.

I do have pets and i draw sometimes. Im doing better today and I get to go hang with my cousins for a few days.

My family is always talking about how I seclude myself in my room and do nothing all day every day but im not I am spending my time getting to know God any way i can even just sitting there doing nothing talking with him. i cant explain to my family what im doing or whats in my heart because not only would they not understand they would make fun of me.

To some ppl faith in Christ is a hobbie or a kind of lifestyle but my love and faith in god is more important to me than even eternal life. If I ever lost him that would be it for me i would have no reason to live and who knows what I would do.


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Hi fire heart,

 

So glad you are feeling better & have time with you cousins. Also to hear that you can go for walks is great.

 

Now you know that many people are driven & are workaholics, perhaps with much money but are time poor. That is they do not utilise their time except to work harder & harder for self esteem motives. You how ever are time rich but are not sure how to spend it . You look at the world & how they are spending their time but obviously God has an important purpose for you to have so much time. Thus I would encourage you to fight that `feelings,` battle against the enemy then as you grow stronger in that area you are getting in the right position in God, (probably more stable in Him) & then He will unfold the things He would have you to do. So keep trusting, fighting the enemy, studying, helping family & then the way will unfold.

 

Now I must emphasise that `helping the family,` in jobs & thankfulness to them for what they do for you speaks louder than any other thing you could say about God. That is the proof of your relationship with Him how you, we treat those close to us.

 

Bless you bro, Marilyn.


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Fire heart you cannot loose God. He said Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you. God dont break His promise.
a very wise man told me once when God seems far away it is then that He is actually the closest to you. It took me awhile to realize that.

Do you think there is something in your head or heart that is hindering your relationship with God?
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I can't help with the medical problems, but the boredom can be helped by reading good novels.

 

You can download the PC Kindle program and do some searching for the kinds of things you would enjoy.    There must be a hundred thousand or more free books and many many for 99 cents.


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